Dear life,
Why are you being so difficult?
I just want a new job. I'm applying in so many different places and still I get nothing. I'm trying my heart out, why are you so cruel to me?
I want to go back to university so badly. Even if I was just part time! But no, I have to go find a job, and I keep getting harassed, but how can I get a job when a) my parents change their ideas on what I should do every day, and b) nowhere even looks at my application twice!
My friends don't understand, of course they don't. They're at university, and when I say I'm scared and horrified they just pat me on the head and say it's okay. But at least they know what they want in life. I cry every time I think of the future because I have no idea what to do with myself. I can't think of a single career that would suit me and I know I'm supposed to worry about now, but the future keeps getting closer and I can't help but worry about that.
I'm no longer sure if I want friends or I just want to be alone.
Oh, and why did you have to make it so, out of the two guys I could potentially be interested in, one lives in America, and the other could only see me as a friend? You know, you really suck sometimes, life.
Also, if you could help me find my a) Avenue Q ticket, b) Passport information (s***, I don't think I'm going to get my passport in time, and that's really freaking me out), c) life's calling, and d) ideal current employment, that would be swell. Oh, and if you could find me a boyfriend, I'd like that too. Though I'm not sure I want one at the moment, really. All I do is spread bad vibes and misery.
...wow, it's no wonder nobody talks to me anymore, is it?
With anxiety and misery,
- the girl who needs a life, desperately.