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- Olivia xx
Dear you.
You know who you are. I'm only posting here because I know you'll read it, and this way people won't have trouble believing that I faced up to one of my problems. I don't want to be a b!tch, to insult you or offend you in any way. I probably will be though, seeing as you take offence to a lot I've said. This is merely a letter of frustration, and if I didn't write it all down in a way you'd see it I'd wind up doing something really stupid that I don't need much more encouragement to do. I'm trying to write maturely, to not loose it, to keep my language from turning past that for a pg13 site.
I'm really past all of this. My posting on a forum to express my annoyance is just as bad as your outbursts on twitter that ship all around the world. This way I don't wind up being your definition of TMI, see I'm already over 140 characters. I want to be able to be a vegetarian without feeling that to be a vegetarian I have to be extremist in my views of eating meat (as I already now remain philisophical on this matter, which you know), to know what the duck is going on (clever save, hah) with your life, an apology for the lies would be great too. I don't know what is going on anymore, it could be that we don't have classes together, or that we simply aren't as close after ending the twin thing. To be honest, I'm worried about you, and not trying to sound like your definition of an atheist and being full of myself or anything (yeah, I went there) but I really don't need it right now. I havetwo three, now, friends who're trying to commit suicide, I've been told myself that I'm suicidal, and I haven't slept more than two hours in a block for weeks. I want to be on your side and support you, but a) I have no idea what's happening, and b) I'm stretched as it is. I'm worried, you're turning darker, the only news I get about you seems to be from other people and I'm scared that you might be feeling just as crappy as me right now. And if you are, I really sincerely sympathize. You were one of my best friends, but when I watched the boat today drifting away from the shore I realised that it symbolised us. And I know, I'm not the only one of our friend group that's getting worried. Please, can you tell me directly what the hell is going on, so I can actually be there for you. Because the frustration of not knowing is just driving me mad.
I really really miss you.
-Olivia.
You know who you are. I'm only posting here because I know you'll read it, and this way people won't have trouble believing that I faced up to one of my problems. I don't want to be a b!tch, to insult you or offend you in any way. I probably will be though, seeing as you take offence to a lot I've said. This is merely a letter of frustration, and if I didn't write it all down in a way you'd see it I'd wind up doing something really stupid that I don't need much more encouragement to do. I'm trying to write maturely, to not loose it, to keep my language from turning past that for a pg13 site.
I'm really past all of this. My posting on a forum to express my annoyance is just as bad as your outbursts on twitter that ship all around the world. This way I don't wind up being your definition of TMI, see I'm already over 140 characters. I want to be able to be a vegetarian without feeling that to be a vegetarian I have to be extremist in my views of eating meat (as I already now remain philisophical on this matter, which you know), to know what the duck is going on (clever save, hah) with your life, an apology for the lies would be great too. I don't know what is going on anymore, it could be that we don't have classes together, or that we simply aren't as close after ending the twin thing. To be honest, I'm worried about you, and not trying to sound like your definition of an atheist and being full of myself or anything (yeah, I went there) but I really don't need it right now. I have
I really really miss you.
-Olivia.