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Hey HNZ,
I feel this is going to be one of the toughest topics (if not the toughest) I'm ever going to have to write. But here it goes.
Simply put, I need to leave HNZ. The why and such are difficult to explain and I'm not sure I feel comfortable explaining it to the whole site, but know these things:
No situation in my life is forcing my to leave. I'm fine.
Trust me.
You guys haven't pushed me in to leaving. I can still manage everything I do on here. It's not that I'm unable to keep going.
I'm not sure for how long this will be. Forever? Perhaps. A few months? Maybe. A few weeks? Unlikely, but possible. I genuinely do not know. All I know is that 'leaving' is the only word that seems proper in this situation.
I knew this last Thursday, and considered demoting my account immediately. (Anybody who talks to me with any frequency and has been around a while might remember that I used to contemplate how I would go about 'leaving' HNZ. I hated the people who start drama, and I definitely didn't think my departure deserved an announcement.) However, I knew I had to promote Cyndi on Friday. I also knew I wanted her to be welcomed and get in to the swing of things on here before I made this announcement.
I talked to Livvy first, told her what was up, and we discussed what would have to change with me leaving. She also assured me there will always be a spot for me here - which I trust (most) of you guys will agree with.
I then posted a topic for the site staff on Monday, giving them the entire story and personal messages about how much I
them.
Now it's your turn.
I obviously can't go over every single one of you and make a personalized message, because (frankly) I don't remember half of who is on HNZ anymore.
And I'm horrible with gooey types of messages (just ask the staff about how much my last topic failed), but I think sharing a few memories that stick out in my mind from the past three years.
I'd like to think I've left a pretty big mark on HNZ in my time here. Influenced a bunch of people, and their characters, and in my time as an admin here made the best impact I can on the site. I'd like to think that I've effected HNZ so much that a part of me will always be here, and that it won't be easy to forget who I was here. Or for new members to not know anything about me. But I don't know if that's the case. What I do know is that HNZ is an awesome place, with awesome people who will keep it running.
You may still see me lurking HNZ from time to time. I'll still be on MSN for you to bother. I won't be processing applications. I won't be answering PMs necessarily. If you need something, PM Livvy.
I've told the site staff that they can still count on me to come through for them. If they need me, they can get ahold of me.
I'll still be a sort of 'technical' admin for HNZ. I'll make sure the board doesn't suffer from a horrible bug for 80 years and that the systems are up to date/usable. Otherwise, I'm 'leaving,' like I said.
Perhaps I'll make it back here. Perhaps I just need a break, but if it was called a 'break' the anxiety of coming back to do everything would kill me. I genuinely don't know. I'm sort of glad that I don't.
Thank you all for being so awesome and supportive. You're a great bunch. I seriously wish I could go through every single one of you and share what I think of when I think of you. Perhaps if you PM me and ask I will.
'cuz I'm sure great fun could be had remembering such things.
Keep HNZ jamming, and thanks for letting me be a part of such an awesome site for so very long.
I'll end this in a similar way that I ended my note for the staff, as I still think any other way is improper.
~The Nicktator
(SQUIGGLEY!
)
I feel this is going to be one of the toughest topics (if not the toughest) I'm ever going to have to write. But here it goes.
Simply put, I need to leave HNZ. The why and such are difficult to explain and I'm not sure I feel comfortable explaining it to the whole site, but know these things:
No situation in my life is forcing my to leave. I'm fine.
Trust me.You guys haven't pushed me in to leaving. I can still manage everything I do on here. It's not that I'm unable to keep going.
I'm not sure for how long this will be. Forever? Perhaps. A few months? Maybe. A few weeks? Unlikely, but possible. I genuinely do not know. All I know is that 'leaving' is the only word that seems proper in this situation.
I knew this last Thursday, and considered demoting my account immediately. (Anybody who talks to me with any frequency and has been around a while might remember that I used to contemplate how I would go about 'leaving' HNZ. I hated the people who start drama, and I definitely didn't think my departure deserved an announcement.) However, I knew I had to promote Cyndi on Friday. I also knew I wanted her to be welcomed and get in to the swing of things on here before I made this announcement.
I talked to Livvy first, told her what was up, and we discussed what would have to change with me leaving. She also assured me there will always be a spot for me here - which I trust (most) of you guys will agree with.
I then posted a topic for the site staff on Monday, giving them the entire story and personal messages about how much I
them.Now it's your turn.
I obviously can't go over every single one of you and make a personalized message, because (frankly) I don't remember half of who is on HNZ anymore.
And I'm horrible with gooey types of messages (just ask the staff about how much my last topic failed), but I think sharing a few memories that stick out in my mind from the past three years.Welll, I joined HNZ with the username cedric_diggs (a testament that we're all n00bs when we start, to be sure). I was promptly told that my username was too similar to a canon character's ( ) and asked to have it changed to something else. With my creativity as high as it ever was, I used my own first name for the first name of my character. 
Thinking I had missed sorting, I applied to have my character be charms professor (an application form was posted) but was told the position was filled and offered Defence Against the Dark Arts. I took it. Later Kingy was also made Gryffindor Head of House.
Turns out, of course, sorting wasn't closed at all. Looking back, I wonder how differently my HNZ experience would have been if I started out with a single student.
Within my first week on HNZ I managed to make an enemy due to my n00biness in an RP. Once our argument was settled, though, we became good friends and I was one of the first to know that Kaela McIlvoy was Sophia Stark. Second most epic secret character of all time, it lasted as mostly a secret for like the first year of HNZ, when a bunch more people got told. (First most epic secret character was definitely Manteia.)
I remember a bunch of people who most of you won't. Whose accounts might (some are just inactive) have been deleted and who I've tried to nab over secret emails but never been successful. Heath Lambert, Pungahn Naihanchi, Stormy Lew. A great bunch of people who moved on from HNZ. Some that made it a bit further before leaving (like Alex [Bellatrix Green]) and some who still make the occasional HNZ visit (Oleg, Bruin and Kim, Kaela, Steveford). Lots of great people have been on HNZ. Lots of great people are on HNZ right now. A tonne of awesome memories have been had here and shared by many.
During the development of Kingy as a character (since most professor accounts were secondary accounts) I made Kingy very student like, as the only people to sort of actively roleplay with were the students. As a result, Kingy was pranked more than his fair share of times (from Heath and Bruin putting some stinking magic creature in his office, to Bruin kissing him on the front lawn... I'm noticing a common pattern here). Kingy organized assaults on the Borely mansion, and it took me quite a while for me to recover his character from all the shenanigans I had done with him.
When I finally decided to try to make a secret student character, Henri Soleil, I made the 'unsorted roleplay' section what it is today with the help of people like Kelsey (Kailey) and Sam &co. We did all sorts of random things, and Kelsey confided in me (As Henri) how much she hated me (as Kingy). Great lawls were had.
For the out of character community.... Spam 1.0, all the way to spam 8 and then spam 6 again. Crazy spam titles (from "Alicia" to the "Exploding Penguins" or whatever they were. The salted rainbow lemons (my picture for which is entirely boss). I remember once, Amanda and I had a topic going where we were reworking the alphabet. The "Alpha-bites" we called it. Squiggly became a letter (~) and it was my favourite letter.
(Anybody who has gotten a PM from me knows the value of squiggly) and we removed letters from the alphabet according to their evilness. For instance, "d" was removed because "ducks" starts with "d" and the ducks are obviously trying to kill us all.
I'm mentioning a lot of older memories, because they're the ones that I more readily recall. But even in recent months HNZ has never ceased to make me laugh, smile, and love you all. (Like, for instance, how Hamza and Joyce kept photoshopping themselves in to the same picture. )
) and asked to have it changed to something else. With my creativity as high as it ever was, I used my own first name for the first name of my character. Thinking I had missed sorting, I applied to have my character be charms professor (an application form was posted) but was told the position was filled and offered Defence Against the Dark Arts. I took it. Later Kingy was also made Gryffindor Head of House.Turns out, of course, sorting wasn't closed at all. Looking back, I wonder how differently my HNZ experience would have been if I started out with a single student.
Within my first week on HNZ I managed to make an enemy due to my n00biness in an RP. Once our argument was settled, though, we became good friends and I was one of the first to know that Kaela McIlvoy was Sophia Stark. Second most epic secret character of all time, it lasted as mostly a secret for like the first year of HNZ, when a bunch more people got told. (First most epic secret character was definitely Manteia.)
I remember a bunch of people who most of you won't. Whose accounts might (some are just inactive) have been deleted and who I've tried to nab over secret emails but never been successful. Heath Lambert, Pungahn Naihanchi, Stormy Lew. A great bunch of people who moved on from HNZ. Some that made it a bit further before leaving (like Alex [Bellatrix Green]) and some who still make the occasional HNZ visit (Oleg, Bruin and Kim, Kaela, Steveford). Lots of great people have been on HNZ. Lots of great people are on HNZ right now. A tonne of awesome memories have been had here and shared by many.
During the development of Kingy as a character (since most professor accounts were secondary accounts) I made Kingy very student like, as the only people to sort of actively roleplay with were the students. As a result, Kingy was pranked more than his fair share of times (from Heath and Bruin putting some stinking magic creature in his office, to Bruin kissing him on the front lawn... I'm noticing a common pattern here). Kingy organized assaults on the Borely mansion, and it took me quite a while for me to recover his character from all the shenanigans I had done with him.
When I finally decided to try to make a secret student character, Henri Soleil, I made the 'unsorted roleplay' section what it is today with the help of people like Kelsey (Kailey) and Sam &co. We did all sorts of random things, and Kelsey confided in me (As Henri) how much she hated me (as Kingy). Great lawls were had.
For the out of character community.... Spam 1.0, all the way to spam 8 and then spam 6 again. Crazy spam titles (from "Alicia" to the "Exploding Penguins" or whatever they were. The salted rainbow lemons (my picture for which is entirely boss). I remember once, Amanda and I had a topic going where we were reworking the alphabet. The "Alpha-bites" we called it. Squiggly became a letter (~) and it was my favourite letter.
(Anybody who has gotten a PM from me knows the value of squiggly) and we removed letters from the alphabet according to their evilness. For instance, "d" was removed because "ducks" starts with "d" and the ducks are obviously trying to kill us all. I'm mentioning a lot of older memories, because they're the ones that I more readily recall. But even in recent months HNZ has never ceased to make me laugh, smile, and love you all. (Like, for instance, how Hamza and Joyce kept photoshopping themselves in to the same picture.
)I'd like to think I've left a pretty big mark on HNZ in my time here. Influenced a bunch of people, and their characters, and in my time as an admin here made the best impact I can on the site. I'd like to think that I've effected HNZ so much that a part of me will always be here, and that it won't be easy to forget who I was here. Or for new members to not know anything about me. But I don't know if that's the case. What I do know is that HNZ is an awesome place, with awesome people who will keep it running.
You may still see me lurking HNZ from time to time. I'll still be on MSN for you to bother. I won't be processing applications. I won't be answering PMs necessarily. If you need something, PM Livvy.
I've told the site staff that they can still count on me to come through for them. If they need me, they can get ahold of me.
I'll still be a sort of 'technical' admin for HNZ. I'll make sure the board doesn't suffer from a horrible bug for 80 years and that the systems are up to date/usable. Otherwise, I'm 'leaving,' like I said.
Perhaps I'll make it back here. Perhaps I just need a break, but if it was called a 'break' the anxiety of coming back to do everything would kill me. I genuinely don't know. I'm sort of glad that I don't.
Thank you all for being so awesome and supportive. You're a great bunch. I seriously wish I could go through every single one of you and share what I think of when I think of you. Perhaps if you PM me and ask I will.
'cuz I'm sure great fun could be had remembering such things.Keep HNZ jamming, and thanks for letting me be a part of such an awesome site for so very long.
I'll end this in a similar way that I ended my note for the staff, as I still think any other way is improper.
~The Nicktator
(SQUIGGLEY!
)
) but I did pick up a few things here and there, realize some of stuff you do is A LOT. Besides running the board, you had to manage your life as well, and now that your in college. I can pretty much get all of that, still goodbyes sucks. I'm gonna remember our freshly days when we first started 
I had a blast being Maddiie to bother the so called professor 
anyways wanted to leave you with these words, my friend posted this as his status on FB:
That's got to be one of my top 5 favourite RPs on HNZ. 
It seems that the short number of males on this board is about to get even shorter!
. I remember all of the good times we had (Sebastien Black) and it seems like all of the old timers are stepping back to open the way for the young bloods of the site. You will be missed greatly while you take the time you need to do what you must do I wish you the best and will keep you in my prayers. Take Care and God bless my friend.
but if you dont end up coming back on thats OK Im not trying to pressure you or anything 
