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Hi everyone, I know this is going to seem like a repeat post of many things but I do intend to follow through with it this time. I need time away from Hogwarts New Zealand and Ive known this for a long time but now I know that if I dont my life could only get worse.
You see, I have depression and my mom is persistent that the time I spend on the computer is the cause of this, I disagree but to prove her wrong I thought maybe I should try. But there is another thing, roleplaying has become hard for me because my mind is pushing rather dark thoughts in the forefront and it is scary. These thoughts are so bad that I am going to ask my doctor for anti-depressants. I know that this isnt exactly something to be ashamed about but I kind of am and until I can control my emotions from the pills and hopefully become happy enough to get myself off of them at one point or another without returning to the point I am currently at.
Another thing is, Im in grade eleven and it is possibly the hardest year of high school I have ever had. With my mind focused on the thoughts mentioned above I am finding it hard to focus on my education and my grades are slipping. I am not an unintelligent person and it stresses me so to see my marks take the brunt of my chemical imbalance. I need to improve my marks to get into my number one university for journalism and if I dont get into my top choice university my life is basically over because my mom wont help pay for my education if I dont get into that school because she wont find the need to invest in me.
So with all this and a few other things, I will be taking a good period of time off of HNZ excluding the main plot roleplays I have with some characters. Im sorry for the others but they will have to wait or possibly be cancelled completely because I simply cannot handle it all. If youd like to reach me, feel free to PM Alexis Richarde or skype me at alexis.marie83 and for those of you that have my face book send me a message there.
Thanks everyone.
Alexis.
You see, I have depression and my mom is persistent that the time I spend on the computer is the cause of this, I disagree but to prove her wrong I thought maybe I should try. But there is another thing, roleplaying has become hard for me because my mind is pushing rather dark thoughts in the forefront and it is scary. These thoughts are so bad that I am going to ask my doctor for anti-depressants. I know that this isnt exactly something to be ashamed about but I kind of am and until I can control my emotions from the pills and hopefully become happy enough to get myself off of them at one point or another without returning to the point I am currently at.
Another thing is, Im in grade eleven and it is possibly the hardest year of high school I have ever had. With my mind focused on the thoughts mentioned above I am finding it hard to focus on my education and my grades are slipping. I am not an unintelligent person and it stresses me so to see my marks take the brunt of my chemical imbalance. I need to improve my marks to get into my number one university for journalism and if I dont get into my top choice university my life is basically over because my mom wont help pay for my education if I dont get into that school because she wont find the need to invest in me.
So with all this and a few other things, I will be taking a good period of time off of HNZ excluding the main plot roleplays I have with some characters. Im sorry for the others but they will have to wait or possibly be cancelled completely because I simply cannot handle it all. If youd like to reach me, feel free to PM Alexis Richarde or skype me at alexis.marie83 and for those of you that have my face book send me a message there.
Thanks everyone.
Alexis.