Who's the biggest wimp??


Lily nodded. She wouldn't tell anyone. Shaylah didn't really know Lily, or the real Lily. She knew Livia. Lily understood that Shaylah didn't want anyone to know about the fact what she was just about to be told. Lily was a little surprised. She'd found the girl wondering alone. Lily wondered if she had been scared then. It was something she hadn't expected Shaylah to be scared of, but she didn't really know Shaylah.

"Okay, I won't tell anyone and I'm not laughing." Lily said quietly. She wondered if she could trust Shaylah. Lily didn't really but she felt she should maybe tell something in return for what Shaylah had just told her. Lily didn't know. She didn't know if she could trust Shaylah.

"It's okay to be scared of that. People won't laugh." Lily said unsure of what else she could say to the girl, Lily didn't know if she hated or liked.
 
Shaylah couldn't believe the sudden change of the girl that she hated. Livia had gone from a snobby wierdo who loved herself too much to a kind, caring person and all because of the way Shaylah looked. She didn't know whether she could trust Livia to keep the secret but it was too late now and she couldn't take it back.
"Thanks. I didn't realise you could be a kind person." Shaylah joked. She thought she might as well try and laugh about something so she could cheer up a bit.
"I know people who are vey likely to laugh at it. Ava is one, my ex is another..." Shaylah stopped at the mention of her ex. Not many people knew that she dated a Gryffindor and even she regretted it. She tried changin the subject so Livia wouldn't ask questions. "Anyway, I'm not very trusting so I don't tell secrets much."
 

Lily gave a small laugh. No one knew Lily could be a kind person. She preferred sometimes that way. But it always slightly annoyed her the surprise on people's faces. Everyone could be kind if they wanted to be. And Lily was a kind person, she just trusted no one to the point where she wasn't. That and Lily did believe she was better than most. When Shaylah mentioned the people who might. Lily had to agree that Ava probably would and if Ava could see Lily now, Lily wouldn't be very popular or accept into those with fashion. Lily was a little surprised that Shaylah had already had a boyfriend. She was only 11, they both were. Lily could've laughed at Shaylah's last comment. Lily was the definition of untrusting.

"I'm not trusting either." Lily said slowly. "I don't talk about myself at all. I am a secret." Lily said, but regretting it. She was a secret. But she couldn't trust Shaylah with such knowledge that she was a secret, and really one big lie.
 
Shaylah had always been kind to everyone who wasn't a Gryffinor, a muggle or a muggle born. If someone was any of those three, she usually hated them straight away. Shaylah knew that if any of her group saw her with Livia, she wouldn't be very popular with them. Especially Sydney. If anyone in the group hated muggleborns the most it was Sydney.
Shaylah looked at Livia with a frown on her face. "If you don't talk about yourself at all, then why did you tell me a) your name b) where you live and c) the fact that you went to a dance school." If there was something that Shaylah was good at, it was picking out points like that. She wasn't the sharpest tool in the box but she definitely had a brain that worked properly.
 

Lily saw the questions coming. She didn't want to answer it. They weren't meant to be acting like friends. Lily regretted helping Shaylah, but at the same time, she didn't that she had. From what Lily could tell. Shaylah was the type of girl, Lily might just be able to trust. But she hadn't trusted anyone in years, why would she trust this girl. Hours ago, they'd been sworn enemies. Now they were almost friends. Lily had to admit, once out the forest and among others there would be no Shaylah, but her friendship seemed like one Lily could do with. Even if it too was a secret.

"I didn't." Lily replied simply. She smiled slightly, a real smile, not one that was fake. Only rarely were Lily's smiles real. This was one of them.
 
Shaylah frowned. "Ok. How would I know your name if you didn't tell me?? You're holding something back. Come on. Split." Shaylah could tell by Livia's odd behaviour that she was hiding something and seeing as Shaylah had just told her oneof her biggest secrets, she only saw it fair that Livia told her what she was hiding. Shaylah smiled, knowing that she would get it out of her some way or another.
 

Lily took a deep breath before sighing it out. She wanted to tell someone, anyone, that she wasn't at all who she said she was. Lily, fiddled with the end of her shorts. Could she trust Shaylah with something that she hadn't trusted any with for years. Something that had been built in and had slowly become a fear. Lily looked to Shaylah, the girl had just told her a secret about herself, it really was only right that she return the favour.

"You don't my name. My name isn't Livia Delaney." Lily started, taking each word slowly. "It's Lily Fossil." She knew to most people wouldn't think it was too big, but the way Lily said her name, just showed that Lily hadn't told anyone in a good number years, and that the fact she'd just told someone scared her.
 
Shaylah didn't understand why Livia-or Lily-would do this. "Why would you hide your entire life and just live a complete lie." Shaylah had to lie sometimes when she almost spilled that her dad was a death eater but she never hid her life. "And why did you pick Livia Delaney as a name?? Lily Fossil is loads better." Shaylah grinned wondering what she would call herself if she was to change her name.
 

Lily could let out a sigh of relief. Now there the questions. Why. Lily took another long breathe. There were was many reasons for why Lily Lied. The most important was that she didn't want people to know who she was and nor did her school. And the only person she'd opened up to was the one person she'd taken the name of and identity. Lily couldn't help but smile about Shaylah's comment about her real name.

"I was told to. I was told on day one of the school I attended before. It was a boarding school." Lily said. "And I picked Livia, because it was a girl I knew from my first year. I wasn't well liked, I'm not exactly the world's nicest person as you know." Lily said with a little laugh. "And she was my only friend. My best friend, the only person I was ever honest to and the only person who actually cared. And she well, she isn't around anymore," Lily continued her voice getting softer, as she remembered the real Livia Delaney. Lily couldn't help but shudder at the thought of what happened to her. "I used her to be me. It sounds so selfish, but I was 5. And I didn't know who else to take. I wanted to be Lily, I wanted to be me. But I had to. And I guess I got scared of being myself."

Lily stopped. There it was, her own greatest fear out in the open. Like Shaylah's. Lily was also a little worried Shaylah might laugh at her. They were just becoming friends. And Lily still didn't know if she could trust her, she just really hoped she could.
 
Shaylah couldn't belie that she was actually becoming friends with this girl. The two of them had so little in common.
"I wouldn't change my name for anyone. I was named after my g-ma. She was the only person my dad respected after his dad died in a..." Shaylah stopped realising she was about to say azkaban. "a...um...a hosital." She said the first thing that came to her mind. She hoped Lily wouldn't notice the change.
"Sounds rough. I suppose that's one reason why I try not to get too close to people. The only people I'm close to are my dad and Sydney. Everyone else are just good friends." Shaylah always had a problem making friends. It wasn't that she was antisocial or anything. She just found it impossible to make friends with everyone she lived near in Scotland. This resulted in her being terrible at making friends where ever she went.
 

Lily was too busy being reassured that she didn't notice the change in Shaylah's voice. It was strange to Lily that it was so easy to become friends with someone she should hate. But Lily's outer shell, had been broken through slightly by the last person Lily thought would have. Lily let out a small sigh. She didn't really have anyone she was close to. She didn't trust anyone. And her dad hated her. Her brother was just as bad as her. And her mother, was dead. Lily didn't really have anyone she was open to. Shaylah was the first person Lily had trusted in years.

"At least your close to someone. I have no one. My dad hates me." Lily said. "You're the first person I've trusted with any part of the real me, in years. And We're barely friends." Lily wondered if Shaylah, now saw them as friends or if they were still enemies.
 
Shaylah was so glad when Lily started speaking about something else. It showed that she hadn't noticed the change. Phew. That would have been a nightmare. She couldn't believe how honest she was being with Lily though. The only other people she ws this honest with were Jay and Sydney and even they had to hassle her to get information out.
"Why does your dad hate you??" Shaylah had only ever grown up with a caring lovng dad soshe could never understand how so many people had parents who hated them. "I suppose we are. It's probably going to have to stay quiet though. I don't want to be seen with a muggleborn and I expect you don't want to be seen with someone as unfasionable as me." Shaylah grinned. Loads of people thought she was unfasionable. Even Sydney. So it didn't bother her when people picked on her because of it.
 

Although Lily was beginning to trust Shaylah, she wasn't ready to go into why her dad hated her just yet. There were many reasons for why her dad hated Lily. Not only because Lily looked like her mum, or because she was a dancer. There were too many reasons. Lily didn't want to go into the at all. She was glad when Shaylah moved on to the fact they were friends. How surprising. Lily, hadn't really had a proper friend since Livia. One who knew who she was. In some ways Lily was glad of this. She had for a long while, longed for someone to actually know the real person Lily was.

"I agree. It's going to stay quiet. Also, please when around others refer to me as Livia." Lily said, she knew Shaylah probably wouldn't and they'd never really be in a situation together with others, so it wouldn't be too hard.
 
Shaylah noticed that Lily didn't talk about her dad but she wasn't going to try and squeeze the answer out of her. Shaylah always found it annoying when people tried to get information out of her because she knew that mosy of the time she would crack and say what was on her mind.
"Yeah, that's fine. I see no reason to say no to that." Shaylah yawned. She was starting to feel quite tired now. "Shall we head back to the dorm and see if we can get some sleep before breakfast??"
 

Lily nodded happily. She was glad that Shaylah agreed to not address her as Lily around others. She didn't want people to know her. She was finding it hard coming to grips that one person knew if it was more, Lily knew she would eventually tell people. But for now she was going to have to be okay with Shaylah, her ex-enemy. How strange. And to think they'd be enemies around others but friends. Somehow that didn't sound too bad. Lily nodded. She stood up. And held a hand out to her new friend.

"Yeah we should." Lily said with a real smile to her first real friend. "Our dorm should be fast asleep now."
 
Shaylah took Lily's hand and pulled herself up. She started walking out of the forest and up to the doors of the castle. The moon was starting to get lower in the sky now so Shaylah guessed it was probably about 3.00. It wasn't a problem to Shaylah. She'd spent her whole life with next to no sleep so she found it easy to get when she had only had a few hours. "Yeah probably. It's really early so I'd be surprised if anyone was awake." There was a possibility that other people were awake but Shaylah didn't care.
 

Lily nodded. She didn't sleep much as it was. She slept more than before she came to Hogwarts but this wasn't much more. Lily wasn't much of a sleeper. She did guess that no one in there dorm would be awake. And Lily was almost positive that Ava was asleep. She seemed like the type of girl who believed in Beauty sleep. Lily started to walk back towards the school.

"I would too." Lily looked around to Shaylah. "And we're enemies as soon as we come across other people."
 
"Yeah. Of course we are." Shaylah joked with a grin on her face. She was glad that she had made friends with Lily. Being enemies with her in front of other people was going to be fun because nobody would know their little secret.

As the two of them reached the dorm, Shaylah looked under her bed to make sure her cats were still asleep in their bed. They look so adorable when they're asleep. Shaylah put her muddy trainers next to her bed then took her jacket and trackies off showing her top and shorts which she wore as pjs. She then snuggled up under her duvet and tried to sleep-unsuccessfully.
 

Lily nodded and smiled. She walked back up to the school and back to the dorm room. She couldn't say that she didn't like the friend she had made in Shaylah. Lily watched Shaylah slightly as the girl easily just slipped off her jacket and trackies and was got into bed. Lily took off her shoes and placed them neatly at the end of her bed. She got changed, throwing the pair shorts into the bin as they were now ruined. She wasn't going to wear them again. She knew they'd probably learn a spell to fix things but Lily throw them away anyway. She got changed into her pj's which were just a supergirl vest and matching shorts. Lily was ready for bed quickly, but didn't feel like going to sleep. She was still very much awake. But Lily forced herself to bed, and began to try to get to sleep.
 
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