She felt so out of place here. She always had. Tori's grip on Rory's hand tightened as they walked up the path, her stomach twisting itself into knots. She'd spent the entire journey here trying to psych herself up, but now, standing in front of the manor, all she wanted to do was turn and run in the opposite direction. Back to mum. Back to something more familiar. The weight of everything—the new babies, her father, the family she didn’t feel part of—pressed down on her shoulders and she felt like she couldn't escape it. She'd never felt like she belonged here entirely, but everything had been changing so much recently, and now this just added on... she felt like everything was passing her by, and she didn't belong in any of it. She'd never strictly felt like she wasn't welcome in the manor, but it wasn't her home, she didn't feel like she could just... drop in unannounced, not like when she was with Mum. She swallowed and kept walking, trying to keep her features schooled into a mask of indifference. She couldn't risk letting her face tell everyone how she was feeling, it was too intense for something like this. Just grin and bear it, Tori, come on.
The door flew open before they’d even reached it, and Fayre's voice rang out, cheerful and welcoming. Tori shrank back slightly, instinctively putting Rory between herself and the attention. Fayre wasn’t unkind, but she was just so… bright. It made Tori feel even smaller in comparison. She zeroed in immediately on the empty space beside the girl that wasn't actually her sister. He wasn't there. Her father’s absence stung, though she tried to tell herself it didn’t. Of course he wasn’t rushing down to see her. He had the twins now. They were probably perfect—everything she hadn’t been. If she'd been so perfect he wouldn't have spent so much time away from her. Tori forced herself to speak, though her voice came out quieter than she intended. “Hi, Fayre. Thanks for… opening the door.” She glanced at Rory, hoping he’d take the lead.
Tori swallowed hard, her nerves making her voice wobble. “I—uh, I guess we should go up?” Her eyes darted toward the stairs as if they were some insurmountable obstacle. Part of her wanted to see these babies, to see what had stolen her father’s attention. But a bigger part of her was terrified. She couldn’t shake the feeling that standing next to them, so tiny and loved, would only make her seem even more unwanted. She hesitated at the door, her knuckles white as she held tighter onto Rory. “Are they… are they really that cute?” she asked Fayre, her tone guarded. It was easier to ask about the twins than to think about the fact that her dad hadn’t even come to say hello.