Now or Never

[Felix Urie]

Felix didn't want to listen to Link, honestly he didn't, but what he'd said about Carter had really struck him. He knew Carter had spent some time in Germany just after Kiera's death, he'd learned that much already, but he hadn't really sat down to talk to the man. Maybe what Link was saying had some merit, maybe Carter really was so far gone that Lyra feared doing the same to him. Still, Felix needed to see this for himself. Better still, Carter and Kiera had been apart for two years and somehow they'd managed to forgive each other and get back together. Felix didn't know the details of course, but maybe Carter could give him some advice about it. Anything at this point would be helpful. He stepped up to the door and knocked.
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[Carter Kaster]

Carter couldn't believe that Kamryn and Kingsley were almost four months old. Carter couldn't believe that he had lost Kiera only four months ago. At times, it seemed as if ten years had passed. Others, it was like it was yesterday. At all times, the pain was like someone had forced him under the cruciatus curse and left him there. If it weren't for Sean's help, Carter wasn't even sure he'd remember to do anything. His leave of absence was almost over and he knew he would have to get back into the grind eventually, but he didn't know if he would ever feel up to it again. Carter kept replaying the day in his head, trying to figure out where it had gone wrong, but it just wasn't there, there was nothing there. It was all so sudden. He'd spent many days locked in his room, the anger he'd felt for Kiera that night subsided to plain and undiluted sorrow. The pain of losing Kiera was something he would never wish on anyone and Carter often found himself wondering how Kiera had survived losing James. Had it been like this for her too? Carter suddenly felt his heart swell with renewed love for her. She had survived this pain and and even come to love someone else. Maybe there was hope for him yet. Still, Carter could not think about it for too long, because the moment he did the shock and guilt of every decision he'd made up to this point floored him with renewed vigor. He would never be free of this pain. Carter heard the knock at the door and waved his hand at the door, muttering as it opened. "Felix Urie." It wasn't exactly hostile, but he wasn't exactly wanting any visitors today either.
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[Felix Urie]

Felix stepped into the house, it didn't look any different to what he remembered, but there was a lack of warmth that he used to associate with it that was clearly non-existent. Kamryn and Kingsley were in little cribs near the fireplace and Felix, looking to Carter for permission first, headed straight over to them. He hadn't attended the funeral, he hadn't thought Lyra would want him there and he'd been back in Australia at the time so it was hard. He couldn't just apparate or use a port key, he had to actually book a flight and stuff, which was a pain in the ass and was the reason he'd decided to stay in New Zealand. He was still looking for a place even now. "I'm sorry to intrude on you, Mr Kaster, but..." What was he even supposed to say, this wasn't a normal visit, he actually had questions to ask and he hoped they wouldn't make things worse. He could see that Carter was greatly affected by Kiera's death, as much as anyone that knew her. Even Felix was devastated, she'd helped him with his proposal, given him confidence. She'd been such a comfort to him whilst he was away from his mother, so it was almost like he'd lost second mother. Almost. He couldn't imagine the pain of Lyra, Carter, Link, Kiera's family, her friends, it must have been terribly painful. "How are you?"
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