Closed Just You and Your Anger

[Blake van Houten]

Blake laughed and easily deflected the pillow, wincing slightly as it knocked over a jar sitting by the fireplace, though thankfully it turned out to be empty of its usual paint water. He snorted with laughter, rolling his eyes at Tyler. "Never said you didn't." He smiled, then paused. "Arrogant, insufferable jerk, thinks he's funny..." He paused. "You're basically dating me before I sorted myself out." He said, unable to hold back another laugh.

 

[Tyler Lee]

Tyler grabbed the next pillow, raising it to throw when Blake dropped a bomb on him. In his mind, he compared Fabian to Blake, especialy the Blake he had been friends with in school. Instead of throwing the pillow, he lowered it onto his face as realization hit. "F*ck." He said. Blake was right.

 

[Blake van Houten]

Blake had only meant his words in teasing, but it was obvious that they had hit Tyler differently, and he winced slightly. Just when they'd been.... almost good with each other. "Hey, guess you've got a type." He said, trying to lighten the mood again. "And he might cool off a bit with time."

 

[Tyler Lee]

Tyler huffed out a slight laugh, even as the realization still made him feel slightly dizzy. "I never said I liked you- so no, I don't have a type." He muttered half-heartedly. "I don't think so, unlike you I don't think he's going to completely flip his personality." He paused, silently adding that he wouldn't want him to. "Was it Lars that made you change?" He asked out of genuine curiosity.

 

[Blake van Houten]

Blake hesitated, pausing as he actually thought back. He didn't much like thinking about the person he had been before Lars, but with enough distance he could see so much more of what had actually been going on inside than he had been conscious of as an angry child. "Yes and no." He said hesitantly. "I think I was... putting a lot of that sh*t on, because I thought it was how guys are supposed to act. I... don't remember how much I actually told you about my dad, but.." He shook his head. "I basically had nothing but bad role models. I didn't know how to be anything else. So it's not that Lars made me into a different person, more... he showed me how to make those kind of decisions for myself, and... do stuff because I wanted to, not because I thought that was how guys have to act." He shrugged slightly. "I mean, I definitely changed a bit as well, but... a lot of it was already there. He just showed me how to find it."

 

[Tyler Lee]

Tyler listened quietly as Blake spoke. He understood a little what he meant, but he also felt a bit frustrated by the way Blake was dismissing everything he had been before as bad. Tyler had liked him back then, and he had liked Tyler. They had been similar. So was Tyler bad too? It was a bit silly, they'd been kids. Stupid kids who did stupid stuff. But he didn't want to ask Blake what he thought about him. He suspected Lars had more influence on Blake's opinion than he thought. "I see." He said. "I don't know if I get it, but I'm glad you're happy." He said after a bit "But I think you were fine before, at least when you weren't being insufferable."