Looking back on my 2024 feglection and keeping a few quotes.
hmm. I didnt post or record my resolutions for 2024. but i did see a reflection on 2023 i had written that has called that a year of stabilisation and grounding...
so if 2023 was grounding (which is a sort of autumn sounding word), 2024 was lonely (defiantly a winter word). my goal for 2025 is going to be scaling back and building myself back up (a spring phase if you like).
as we don't have a resolutions thread yet i am going to put them here.
1) i am going to take time to look after myself. build myself back up to where i was in the past. and make sure i am not harming myself to look after others. (if that means finding a new GP and booking an appointment today to try and get on top of said mental health then that is it).
2) each month i am going to do at least one activity just for me. and not feel like i am missing out because I don't have someone to do it with (it doesn't mean i have to do said activity on my own. just that i should do it and not wait around for someone to join me)
3) make sure I donate something to charity each month.
4) not leave all my work CPD to the last minute (again)
my 2025 was definatly an improvement on 2024 in regards to my wellbeing. letting go of a lot of the stressers of 2024 has left me the chance to take 2025 to nurture myself and grow. (and grow is definatly a spring word, so does that mean my reflection word for 2026 be bloom?)
as for my resolutions. how did i go
1) yes. I met that one. I went to a GP (who i didnt like) got a mental health refferal. and have been seeing a psychologist. (and also found a different GP who i like) and the psychology sessions have definatly helped.
2) I think i mostly hit though i wasnt keeping tabs on that.
3) absolutely failed.
4) umm. could be better. and should probably unofficially be a resolution again for this year.
when i saw my psychologist this weekend she asked if i had made any resolutions (not that she necesserily believes them to be a good thing) and i said i had. and when she heard them she was like actually they are pretty good ones.
3) Rennovate my kitchen - it has needed doing ever since i moved in but the stress and pressure of all the decisions needed to do that was overwhelming me to make any. but at the end of last year i decided what i wanted to do. and even baught an oven in the boxing day sales.
2) get back into swimming. at the end of last year i went to an open swimming training which was good fun. and i do like swimming it is good for you. and i liked that swim club, so i might join, and i like how it can be a bit of a social in the club. but, unlike basketball and team sports, how you perform is just for you. if i wnt to swim laps at my own pace for fitness, that doesnt impact people who want to beat personal speed records or who are training for a large open water swim. (plus i think i have put on quite a bit of weight this last year or so so swimming should help)
3) bring some whimsy back into my life. there is something with whimsey tht is good for the soul. nospecific frequency or action with this. but you know what whimsy is when yo usee it, a cute outfit, a cup of tea and a book i na park. or a wlak along a river. whimsy is good (this one was definatly liked)
(come to think of it i should also add in a 4) not leave my CPD to the last minute, and to reply messages and pay bills in a timely mannor)