It had now been a few days since Demi had made her comment about a rumour of Lilith's best friends well one of them was her boyfriend now too so that added fuel to the fire. Lilith had lost some sleep over it, the first night being the worst. She was so ashamed that comment had sent her head spiraling in the wee hours of the night, it wasn't like her to trust someone else's word of someone else's actions. Lilith had been spiraling and albeit she'd never really admit it, she had pulled herself away from the people around her. She went to lessons and meals, but then she'd return to her bed with her cat to study or to just daydream for hours on end. Another reasoning for that had been the writing circle, she had thought it to be a good idea, to share her writing but had come to discover it was the farthest thing from a good idea. She hated sharing her writing, not only because it opened a window for the others into her world but because it opened the window for judgement and her own anxiety. In other words the second year had been socially drained for the past few days.
That morning though, Lili had decided for it to be enough. She'd put herself back out there and if nothing at the very least go find Antares and Asterope, if only to get a peace of mind herself and give them the chance they deserved to tell her what was going on. After the initial hours of despair and confusion, Lilith had come to a conclusion that it had to be no more than a silly rumour from someone who quite disliked Eoghan. Lilith walked into the student lounge, feeling as nervous as she had during her first days at the castle. As soon as she walked in her eyes fell on the duo she'd been looking for, to her horror they seemed to be very close. Almost in the exact position Demi had described them to be in. No, do not go there Lilith. You know better than this so get a grip and get it over with. The Ravenclaw internally reprimanded her brain for going there, this was nothing more than two best friends just as she and Eoghan had been, but then again there that was. She and Eoghan had started this way too, what was to say Tori and him weren't headed that way too. Realizing she had been stuck in the same spot for a few minutes Lilith took a few steps towards the two and involuntarily found the comforting surface of her locket.
"Hi, I'd like to talk to you two about something. If that is fine by you of course if this is a bad time I can just we can do it some other time." The brunette spoke out with a shaking voice and wandering eyes. She refused to look at either of them in the eye, not from the fear of what she'd find there, but of the fear what they'd see in hers. That they'd see the internal battle she had with herself, the shame she felt for letting herself spiral for a moment. They deserved more than that and Lilith had failed the two in spiraling. She should have sought them out right away instead of hiding away with her own preexisting problems, but she really had been too tired. Her green eyes landed on the floor staring at a certain spot, waiting whether they'd turn her away in hopes of spending time together or if she could finally figure out what had been going on and apologise for letting Demi's words affect her in anyway.