Zander Ellison
doing better | travelling
- Messages
- 214
- OOC First Name
- Emzies
- Blood Status
- Mixed Blood
- Relationship Status
- Married
- Wand
- Curved 10 1/2" Flexible Ivy Wand with Meteorite Dust Core
- Age
- 5/2007
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If there was one thing that Zander always struggled to understand was when even the slightest thing started going well, and that was it with Sanctuari, he didn't understand most days why she even wanted to be within five feet of him, or his bad luck, terrible personality and blunt nature. Not to mention it took a lot out of him to sort of just hide who he was, how bad he felt on just so many days, with her he was always trying to be better, he wanted to be happy, he tried to smile more around her and there were some days with her, when he would be able to go to bed and sleep soundly the entire night which for Zander was a huge achievement. But then in other ways things had just gotten as bad, there were some days when the only thing that got Zander out of his bed was the fact he had to take Abby to school and once last month he had called Sanctuari and asked her to do it citing that he was unwell but it was just that facing the day was too hard. The man was always trying, he knew that he needed to speak to someone, but after a brief discussion with a muggle doctor he had told him to seek out a specialist, and that had prompted to head back to magical healers and he was just waiting to get the appointment. Perhaps that was the most important thing that had changed, Zander wanted to know why he woke up some mornings feeling able to face the day, sure he didn't feel happy or good but he could face the day and other days he just wanted to stay curled up on his bed even though it was always unlikely sleep would ever come.
Today, or well this evening, Abby was on a school trip with her school, they'd be gone a whole four days and he hadn't wanted Abby to not be able to do it, but the prospect he now faced of four days alone, completely alone was not something he wanted, and so he had sent a message to Sanctuari hurriedly inviting her over to spend the time with him, and worried that she might figure out that he was deeply afraid of being left alone, of at the end of the four days Abby not returning that he was going all out for her coming over, he had set up the living area so they could watch some trashy films, he had even gone to the store to pick up some specific food types that he knew usually went with such a night and he had even bought some beer. He had washed properly, been sure to pick out the least creased and crumpled clothes, and had shaved so he'd look more presentable. Spending time with Sanctuari was some of the best time in his life, she was worming her way into his life and he liked being able to date again, Abby loved her, he didn't want to screw it up and he didn't want her to realise that he wasn't all that good for her, that she could do far better than him. He heard the doorbell just as he finished up making some tea in the kitchen and in a quick pace walked to the door, "Sanctuari!" he greeted a slightly genuine smile on his face as he greeted her, "Come in!" he told her with a definitely forced brightness, but it was clear that he was really trying, he really just wanted to be happy all the time again, he was thirty five, it felt like it had been years since he'd last really felt happy.
Today, or well this evening, Abby was on a school trip with her school, they'd be gone a whole four days and he hadn't wanted Abby to not be able to do it, but the prospect he now faced of four days alone, completely alone was not something he wanted, and so he had sent a message to Sanctuari hurriedly inviting her over to spend the time with him, and worried that she might figure out that he was deeply afraid of being left alone, of at the end of the four days Abby not returning that he was going all out for her coming over, he had set up the living area so they could watch some trashy films, he had even gone to the store to pick up some specific food types that he knew usually went with such a night and he had even bought some beer. He had washed properly, been sure to pick out the least creased and crumpled clothes, and had shaved so he'd look more presentable. Spending time with Sanctuari was some of the best time in his life, she was worming her way into his life and he liked being able to date again, Abby loved her, he didn't want to screw it up and he didn't want her to realise that he wasn't all that good for her, that she could do far better than him. He heard the doorbell just as he finished up making some tea in the kitchen and in a quick pace walked to the door, "Sanctuari!" he greeted a slightly genuine smile on his face as he greeted her, "Come in!" he told her with a definitely forced brightness, but it was clear that he was really trying, he really just wanted to be happy all the time again, he was thirty five, it felt like it had been years since he'd last really felt happy.