James was totally not crying. There were absolutely and categorically no tears whatsoever. He smiled as he realised that he couldn't deny it: yes, there were tears. He may be holding them back, but his eyes were certainly moist as he looked around at his surroundings. There was his dorm room, some of the beds tidy, some not so, and there were also the memories. As he gazed around, he was thankful that the room was empty, because he didn't really want anyone to see him like this. He would forever cherish his memories of this place, he knew that, and so as he looked at himself in one of the floor standing mirrors, he dabbed away a tear near the corner of his eye, straightening the collar of his silk dress robes with his other hand. He looked smartly turned out, and he did a small pirouette to admire the flare of his robes. Then he started to laugh at how ridiculous he must look. Smoothing his black hair down once more, he had a last sweep of his eyes around the room, attempting to remember all the details that he never wanted to forget, before heading for the door.
On his slow way down to the Great Hall, he stopped at a few of the portraits and had a chat to one or two that he knew well, wondering whether he would ever see them again; he doubted it, despite his yearning to come back and help around the school. Jobs were few and far between, and he hadn't exactly kept up most of his classes to NEWT level to even attempt to justify applying for a teaching post. He smiled at a few of the people he saw on his way down, most younger students for whom graduation was still a long way off yet, talked to a member of the Quidditch team, but otherwise just took in the splendour of the establishment. It amazed him how wonderful the buildings looked in the warm sun through the windows, and he was unsure just how he had managed to miss so many of the beautiful features of the castle. Instead of taking his usual shortcut straight down to the Great Hall, he decided on taking the main staircase, once or twice meandering through the long corridors that he would so desperately miss. After seven years of his life, this place would always feel like home, no matter where he decided to set that up. Then he began to wonder who he might set it up with, and thus his thoughts turned predictably to Dominique. He had of course invited her by owl, but he had yet to see if she had turned up, and where she might be if she had. He had yet to forget her beautiful features, but he did miss her humorous quirks that made her such an amazing person to be around. Despite himself, he felt an urge to quicken his steps, hoping that he might catch her before the ceremony itself began.
Entering the Great Hall, he was struck by a wave of noise and commotion, last minute preparations being made, and the seats beginning to fill up with guests. Looking around, he tried to spot Dominique's blonde hair, but he was unable to catch sight of it over the heads of the crowd. Taking his seat in one of those reserved for graduates, he looked around at those nearby. They were sorted alphabetically, and he didn't know any of those nearest him particularly well, but he nodded and smiled, recognising at least one by name and the others by sight. As Professor Cliffeton walked on and the Hall quietened, James listened intently, his natural curiosity to hear what was being said overruling any boredom that be might have felt. In reality, it wasn't boring this graduation scene, it was gripping and emotional, and he felt a fresh wave of tears threatening to break through. He wasn't given to emotional outbursts much, but this was too sad a moment to not well up, even very slightly. As the Head Girl Clara took over, James felt a stirring of recognition at the phrases she used: certainly 'madness' seemed to apply to him. He looked back on the last few years and smiled ruefully at the havoc he may have caused. There had been the food fight, of course, taking precedence at the beginning of fifth year (to think how long ago that had been!) and then the incident with the fireworks; he felt a twinge of remembered pain as he thought back on that first night in hospital, barely able to comprehend everything going on around him. Then of course his prefect's probationary period, and the curfew that he may have helped bring down on Gryffindor. Now there was a point - he fondly remembered the good memories too: becoming a prefect, succeeding in school, becoming Quidditch captain, even for so short a period as he had held it, the varied snitch catches he had made, the wild Gryffindor parties and his relationship with Dominique. Even his punishments, looked back on through the rose-tinted mask he could now apply to them, were memories to be cherished. By contrast, Vladimir's speech was brusque and to the point - clearly he was not devoted to the finer points of rhetoric. For a moment, James thought that he had been mentioned with the use of 'scorched', but then his thoughts darkened as he recalled the attempted murder which had taken place. Still, graduation was no place for such dark thoughts, and he thrust them aside to instead concentrate on enjoying what little time he had left.
As Professor Cliffeton returned to the podium, James tensed, knowing what was about to come. Since his name was the front of the alphabet, he expected to be called relatively early on, and he composed himself, attempting to wash out all thoughts to concentrate on getting through the next few moments without welling up. Then, on a whim, he remembered the famous Muggle mic drops, and suddenlh he knew exactly what he was going to do. Careful to avoid detection, he conjured a replica similar to his, and then he pushed it into a pocket for a few moments later, knowing that to the Wizard audience, a wand would make more sense than an actual microphone; he wondered how many people would actually get the joke. Smiling, he almost fell of his chair when he realised his name had been called. Laughing, he got up as the final words died on Professor Cliffeton's lips.
"Adams, James"
Climbing quickly up the steps he walked calmly over to the deputy headmaster and accepted his certificate, smiling up at the man. He may not know him particularly well, but he had a great respect for him regardless, and he shook his hand firmly. Then, turning around to the hall, he stepped forwards and drew out his fake wand. Holding it out in his left hand, he stopped and surveyed the scene. Finally, he caught sight of Dominique grinning at him, and he grinned back, relishing the happy memories that were swarming around him. Then opening his mouth, he spoke out. "Thank you all. James out!" As he uttered those words, he dropped the fake wand on the ground and half ran, half walked off the stage, dropping lightly onto his feet on the ground out of sight. Then, laughing, he looked briefly at his certificate, the only indication of having graduated, and slipped it inside his robes. He had somebody to find after all, and although he had to watch the others receive their certificates, clapping loudly when a friend of his was up on stage, his mind was far away, wondering exactly how to meet Dominique, and what exactly he was going to say.
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