Lucan White
father; poet; couturier
- Messages
- 191
- OOC First Name
- Claire
- Blood Status
- Pure Blood
- Relationship Status
- Married
- Sexual Orientation
- Homosexual
- Wand
- Knotted 15 Inch Whippy Rosewood Wand with Mermaid Scale Core
- Age
- 3/2004
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If it was my fault, I'm sorry...
Lucan pressed his tear streaked face into the warmth of his cotton lined pillow and pulled himself into the foetal position. It was there, tucked up under his navy blue quilt, and with a trembling knuckle pressed to his lips, that he allowed himself to cry. They weren't silent tears: they were body racking sobs that drew from his lungs and erupted from his mouth in a series of choked splutters. How he'd even managed to get from the kitchen to his bedroom, undress, and crawl into bed, Lucan had no idea. His memory of the intervening steps was almost as jumbled as the contents of his stomach. Not that there was much in there, mind; he'd excused himself from dinner on account of the fact he felt so sick.
It was difficult to believe that less than six hours ago, Lucan and Gregory had been strolling blithely through the streets of Napier, their biggest concern whether or not that-pair-of-jeans matched this-pair-of-shoes. Now, blanketed in the faded-pearl moonlight of his bedroom, the youngest White was plagued with worries far greater than clashing fabric colours. "Why are you being so unkind?" Lucan choked into his damp, salty fist, another tear dissolving into his pillow. He'd thought he'd known who his brother was. No, he'd been sure of it. So why did that stone cold face, those spiteful, icy blue eyes, feel like they belonged to a complete stranger?
Amongst all of this, there was another, more sinister concern brooding in the back of Lucan's head. As he'd stood outside the kitchen door, he'd unequivocally heard Keevan yell at Greg for leaving the manor without his permission. But the staff didn't need permission to leave. And what in Merlin's name did making the unbreakable vow have to do with any of this? Hard as he tried, Lucan couldn't find any correlation between the two. Perhaps the most confusing thing of all, though, was that Gregory was the gardener. Lucan felt like he'd just put together a jigsaw puzzle, only to find that the last piece had been missing all along. The worst part was, it all could have been prevented if Lucan just hadn't asked Greg to go shopping with him.
Eventually, after all of his tears had been wrung out of him, Lucan flipped to the dry side of his pillow and drifted off to sleep.</FONT>
Bang, bang, bang. Lucan's head was pounding like a jack-hammer. Bang, bang. Two more reverberated through the darkness before he realised it wasn't his head. Bang, BANG!
Lucan sat up with a start. Well, he would have done, had every muscle in his body not been aching like he'd just run a marathon. In reality, he gingerly peeled himself from his sheets, which, along with every inch of his skin, were drenched in fresh sweat. Bang, bang. The pounding wasn't letting up. If anything, it was becoming more desperate.
"Luc.., get ba.. .... ..e door!"
What? Lucan couldn't hear over the sound of his own coughing. Strange. Maybe he was sick, after all. That would certainly explain the prickling heat on his forehead. What it didn't explain, though, was why the air felt so thick. Lucan reached out a hand in the darkness, fumbling for his wand, but found nothing except the hard wood of his antique bedside table. No, that wasn't his bedside table. Or at least, it hadn't been, for over twenty years.
The final jigsaw piece slotted into place. This was a night terror.
No! He didn't want to do it. He didn't want to see it. He didn't want to feel it. Lucan thrashed, flailed, screamed, but his dream body stayed incorrigibly still. None of it would make a difference. Now that the terror had started, there was no escaping its vice like clutch on his consciousness. Not until he had relived every last one of those awful memories. Every. Damn. One.
Right on cue, the door burst open, followed by a billowing of dark, black smoke. Then, Keevan's slippery hands were tugging at his wrists, his back, urging him to move. Face caked in ash and sweat, he looked nothing like the twenty year old man he was supposed to be. "Lucan, get up, get up, there's a fire," Keevan was shouting, practically dragging Lucan from his bed. "REGIUS, IN HERE!" Now that Lucan was standing, Keevan had released his grip on him and bolted to the window, searching for something to smash it with.
"I can't find Rose!"
Lucan snapped his neck to see Regius, daughters draped across his arms and chest, enter the bedroom and slam the door shut behind him. The pouring of smoke halted a little.
Keevan momentarily stopped his searching to look at his elder brother seriously, his expression twisted with agony. "Regius, we need to get out." Lucan couldn't tell if Regius's eyes were brimming with tears, or just smarting from the smoke. Finally, he nodded - probably because he was coughing too violently to argue - and joined Keevan at the window.
Please don't say it. Please don't say it. Before his dream mouth had even opened, Lucan already knew what was coming. Of course he did - he'd heard it hundreds of times before. "Where's Synnove?"
Despite the sweltering heat, the look his brothers gave him turned Lucan's blood cold. He tried desperately to shut his eyes, but his body was disobeying him. He tried screaming again, but not a sound left his parted lips. He wouldn't, couldn't go without his sister, and nothing he did was going to change a damn thing.
But he had to try.
"Don't tou-" Keevan had started, but Lucan's hand was already on the searingly hot doorknob. His arm flung back in reflex, the scalding pain in his palm as vivid and real as the night it had actually happened. Lucan cursed the worst curse a fourteen year old would know. Fortunately, Keevan had already broken the hinges, so he used several fingers of his good hand to prise open the splintering wood and belt into the hallway.
The reality hit him like a brick. The coughing was instantaneous. The heat horrendous. He had a few minutes, at best, to find and rescue Synnove. He vaguely registered Keevan yelling behind him before he was off, legs tearing down the blazing, smoke engulfed hallway with an animal instinct to get down the stairs before the groaning wood gave way beneath him. He made it, too, but not without pressing his disorientated body into the flame-licked wall once or twice for support.
Ignoring the excruciating pain in his side, and the scorch of his convulsing lungs, Lucan kicked at the crumbling basement door and shoved inside. For a second, there was a wave of relief: the air down the stone basement steps was thinner and slightly easier to breathe than it had been in the foyer. But it was still thick enough to choke him, and he was running out of time.
I DON'T WANT TO!
Knowing what he was about to see didn't make it any less painful; nor did having seen it a hundred times before. It still tore through his chest like a dagger, infinitely more agonizing than the burns on his skin or the smoke in his lungs. With the beams of the basement roof, Lucan's entire life was crashing down around him. Again.
"NO!" Lucan yelled as a pair of arms ensnared him from behind. He was kicking, screaming, tugging himself from Keevan's grip, but to no avail. Lucan's small frame was no match for his brother's adult strength. "WE CAN'T LEAVE HER!" He screamed, his throat blistering in the heat. If he was just a little bit stronger...
For Lucan, the night terror was almost over. For the residents of the White manor, it had only just begun.
If it was my fault, I'm sorry...
Lucan pressed his tear streaked face into the warmth of his cotton lined pillow and pulled himself into the foetal position. It was there, tucked up under his navy blue quilt, and with a trembling knuckle pressed to his lips, that he allowed himself to cry. They weren't silent tears: they were body racking sobs that drew from his lungs and erupted from his mouth in a series of choked splutters. How he'd even managed to get from the kitchen to his bedroom, undress, and crawl into bed, Lucan had no idea. His memory of the intervening steps was almost as jumbled as the contents of his stomach. Not that there was much in there, mind; he'd excused himself from dinner on account of the fact he felt so sick.
It was difficult to believe that less than six hours ago, Lucan and Gregory had been strolling blithely through the streets of Napier, their biggest concern whether or not that-pair-of-jeans matched this-pair-of-shoes. Now, blanketed in the faded-pearl moonlight of his bedroom, the youngest White was plagued with worries far greater than clashing fabric colours. "Why are you being so unkind?" Lucan choked into his damp, salty fist, another tear dissolving into his pillow. He'd thought he'd known who his brother was. No, he'd been sure of it. So why did that stone cold face, those spiteful, icy blue eyes, feel like they belonged to a complete stranger?
Amongst all of this, there was another, more sinister concern brooding in the back of Lucan's head. As he'd stood outside the kitchen door, he'd unequivocally heard Keevan yell at Greg for leaving the manor without his permission. But the staff didn't need permission to leave. And what in Merlin's name did making the unbreakable vow have to do with any of this? Hard as he tried, Lucan couldn't find any correlation between the two. Perhaps the most confusing thing of all, though, was that Gregory was the gardener. Lucan felt like he'd just put together a jigsaw puzzle, only to find that the last piece had been missing all along. The worst part was, it all could have been prevented if Lucan just hadn't asked Greg to go shopping with him.
Eventually, after all of his tears had been wrung out of him, Lucan flipped to the dry side of his pillow and drifted off to sleep.</FONT>
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Bang, bang, bang. Lucan's head was pounding like a jack-hammer. Bang, bang. Two more reverberated through the darkness before he realised it wasn't his head. Bang, BANG!
Lucan sat up with a start. Well, he would have done, had every muscle in his body not been aching like he'd just run a marathon. In reality, he gingerly peeled himself from his sheets, which, along with every inch of his skin, were drenched in fresh sweat. Bang, bang. The pounding wasn't letting up. If anything, it was becoming more desperate.
"Luc.., get ba.. .... ..e door!"
What? Lucan couldn't hear over the sound of his own coughing. Strange. Maybe he was sick, after all. That would certainly explain the prickling heat on his forehead. What it didn't explain, though, was why the air felt so thick. Lucan reached out a hand in the darkness, fumbling for his wand, but found nothing except the hard wood of his antique bedside table. No, that wasn't his bedside table. Or at least, it hadn't been, for over twenty years.
The final jigsaw piece slotted into place. This was a night terror.
No! He didn't want to do it. He didn't want to see it. He didn't want to feel it. Lucan thrashed, flailed, screamed, but his dream body stayed incorrigibly still. None of it would make a difference. Now that the terror had started, there was no escaping its vice like clutch on his consciousness. Not until he had relived every last one of those awful memories. Every. Damn. One.
Right on cue, the door burst open, followed by a billowing of dark, black smoke. Then, Keevan's slippery hands were tugging at his wrists, his back, urging him to move. Face caked in ash and sweat, he looked nothing like the twenty year old man he was supposed to be. "Lucan, get up, get up, there's a fire," Keevan was shouting, practically dragging Lucan from his bed. "REGIUS, IN HERE!" Now that Lucan was standing, Keevan had released his grip on him and bolted to the window, searching for something to smash it with.
"I can't find Rose!"
Lucan snapped his neck to see Regius, daughters draped across his arms and chest, enter the bedroom and slam the door shut behind him. The pouring of smoke halted a little.
Keevan momentarily stopped his searching to look at his elder brother seriously, his expression twisted with agony. "Regius, we need to get out." Lucan couldn't tell if Regius's eyes were brimming with tears, or just smarting from the smoke. Finally, he nodded - probably because he was coughing too violently to argue - and joined Keevan at the window.
Please don't say it. Please don't say it. Before his dream mouth had even opened, Lucan already knew what was coming. Of course he did - he'd heard it hundreds of times before. "Where's Synnove?"
Despite the sweltering heat, the look his brothers gave him turned Lucan's blood cold. He tried desperately to shut his eyes, but his body was disobeying him. He tried screaming again, but not a sound left his parted lips. He wouldn't, couldn't go without his sister, and nothing he did was going to change a damn thing.
But he had to try.
"Don't tou-" Keevan had started, but Lucan's hand was already on the searingly hot doorknob. His arm flung back in reflex, the scalding pain in his palm as vivid and real as the night it had actually happened. Lucan cursed the worst curse a fourteen year old would know. Fortunately, Keevan had already broken the hinges, so he used several fingers of his good hand to prise open the splintering wood and belt into the hallway.
The reality hit him like a brick. The coughing was instantaneous. The heat horrendous. He had a few minutes, at best, to find and rescue Synnove. He vaguely registered Keevan yelling behind him before he was off, legs tearing down the blazing, smoke engulfed hallway with an animal instinct to get down the stairs before the groaning wood gave way beneath him. He made it, too, but not without pressing his disorientated body into the flame-licked wall once or twice for support.
Ignoring the excruciating pain in his side, and the scorch of his convulsing lungs, Lucan kicked at the crumbling basement door and shoved inside. For a second, there was a wave of relief: the air down the stone basement steps was thinner and slightly easier to breathe than it had been in the foyer. But it was still thick enough to choke him, and he was running out of time.
I DON'T WANT TO!
Knowing what he was about to see didn't make it any less painful; nor did having seen it a hundred times before. It still tore through his chest like a dagger, infinitely more agonizing than the burns on his skin or the smoke in his lungs. With the beams of the basement roof, Lucan's entire life was crashing down around him. Again.
"NO!" Lucan yelled as a pair of arms ensnared him from behind. He was kicking, screaming, tugging himself from Keevan's grip, but to no avail. Lucan's small frame was no match for his brother's adult strength. "WE CAN'T LEAVE HER!" He screamed, his throat blistering in the heat. If he was just a little bit stronger...
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<FONT font="times new roman">For Lucan, the night terror was almost over. For the residents of the White manor, it had only just begun.