If there was one thing that Stefan had realized at Hogwarts, was
that life wasn't fair to him. Not in any way. Yes, he was no longer
completely alone. He had people he counted as friends, but this
did not shift the loneliness that the young slytherin boy felt. Out
of school, he knew what awaited him. Worse than being ignored,
worse than having nothing. Having someone who did not care, who
treated his own son, as if he was an animal. Stefan did not want to
go home for the holidays, but he had no choice. He did not want his
father to come looking for him. Hogwarts was a sanctuary. And the
moment his father came even remotely close, it lost that. Stefan was
unlike most others. He had no siblings, to which he was at times
thankfully for, he had no grandparents, none that he knew of. And no
mother. The only light in Stefan's life was in mother. A woman, he
did not know. A woman, he did not even know the look of. Stefan had
been 2 when she had died. And he only knew this because his father
blamed him. But Stefan had no idea how his mother's death could've
been his fault.
Something within Stefan told him, that it was the colourblind thing. The
fact he could see in Black, white and grey, had deterred his mother from
living life. It was a silly thing, and Stefan had to believe this to be untrue.
His mother, had she lived would've loved him, more than anything. She
would've protected him. And she would've reassured him that the colour
blindness, was not a curse. But rather a gift. Something to be proud of.
But, Stefan could not see it. It was a curse, plain and simple. It was why
Stefan never really knew what colour of clothing he was wearing, and while
he might have been told that it was the usual colours, he might actually
be wearing some bright neon colour. Stefan had no idea. He did not even
know what neon colour was. But it did not sound like something that would
be in fact enjoyable. Or that would help Stefan blend in. It was the thing
that Stefan held dearly onto. The fact, that he could blend in. That he
kept his head down, and kept silent. It was just how he was. And this was
no different after his potions lesson as he walked up to the student lounge.
Neither hungry enough to go to the great hall, nor bored enough to return
to his dorm. It was too sunny outside, so Stefan could not go out. He was
stuck to the indoors, something the pale slytherin did not mind. In his uniform
he looked abnormally pale. It did not help, that the school was warm, and so
he had rolled up his shirt sleeves and loosely done his tie, while purposely leaving
the robe in the dorm. Overall, although not visible to Stefan, he was close
to the same colour as the white shirt.
Stefan looked around the room. His startling dark blue eyes, skimming around
the room. The dark blue eyes stood out clearly against the dark circles around
his eyes and the paleness of his skin. He did not notice these little things. He
did not he had dark blue eyes. Or that they were clear as day in light. He did
not know what blue actually was. One thing about Stefan that was no longer
as clear as it had been upon first arrival, were the scars upon his skin. Not so
clear, as the small colour that Stefan had gained was beginning to mask them.
His hand, however, did not tell the same story. His left hand, was a maze of
different scars, that intertwined and blended together to make his had look
like it had a million veins all at the surface. It was as Stefan placed his bag
upon a table, that he noticed the girl sitting in the colour. Stefan was scared.
Although most would have no been bothered by another person, Stefan was
afraid. As he always was, with people he had never seen before. She did not
look much older than him, but, she still seemed older. Stefan did not know what
to do. SHe looked upset. Stefan wondered if it would be better to just ignore
her, and get on with his life, or at least go over and say something. Stefan
wondered what the girl would be upset about, if she was even upset. After
thinking it over in his head, Stefan walked over. He, in his mind had decided
to just go over. With not the intention of asking if she was alright. He did
not know her. He wanted to at least check.
Stefan cleared his throat as he got closer to the girl. He could not which
house the girl belonged to. He could not see a crest, and the colours of
the four houses were annoyingly similar. So, Stefan was praying that she
wasn't some b!tch slytherin. "Excuse me," Stefan began, his eyes
glued to the ground. It was an odd thing colourblindness. And although he
did not notice it, he had a stare, which almost gave away that he did not
see everything. I see you, but I don't type thing. It was hard to explain,
but Stefan had a stare. "Do you have a pen I can borrow?" Stefan
asked. His voice quiet, and just above a whisper. Stefan was not at all
confident and not being able to see the house she was in, really made him
regret walking over. Even if it was just for a pen. A pen, he actually did not
need. Stefan looked to the girl, as he waited nervously for a pen, his left
hand (the scarred one), ready to quickly take one if she had one.
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