Missing Our Fights

[Ai Nightray]

Ai had been walking around the castle for more than an hour or two now but she really couldn't care less while she had her mind blanked out, perhaps it was fine. After all, it was already late in the night, and she was doing patrols, though her mind was far from patrolling. She just let her feet take her wherever. The Hufflepuff had changed a lot ever since she had first entered Hogwarts. Before, during her first year, whenever she was frustrated and depressed, she took her anger and sadness out on the wall with her hands taking major damage all the time because she would just keep on punching till she was satisfied or till her hands hurt too much to make contact with anything. Now, she was letting her feet take the toll. She would walk and walk for hours and by the end of the day, her feet ended up sore and blistered though she didn't care. It was her fault that Heath had broken up with her after all. She should have given him more of her time. And maybe if she did, she wouldn't be hurting. Maybe she wouldn't have lost the only person she thought would never leave.

After a few more steps, Ai took a look at her surrounding to try and figure out where she was and she dreaded the answer she had gotten. The Fifth Floor Corridors. The Puff had to wonder if fate was mocking her like this. She wanted to move on from Heath, but she still found it hard too. And then her feet brings her to the place where everything started between them. This was where she met Heath and they fought, they made up and started that cycle. And this was where they confessed to each other. Ai tried to avoid this place as much as she could, but now, she was there and facing her regrets. She missed his sweetness. She missed his occasional grumpiness. She missed his complaints of being in Hufflepuff. She even missed their fights. But out of all things she missed, she missed him the most. She missed Heath James.

 

[Heath James]

Heath James liked being a Prefect. He could stay up late because of patrols. Sometimes they were a hassle, but thy were fun, except when he ran into Ai. The two could only be so far apart from each other. They were prefects in the same house. There were going to naturally see a lot of each other. There was only one person he could not stand. Conan. He was a noisy little brat. He dared ask why he and Ai had broken up. He snorted. Conan needed to get himself together. It was either he wanted to be a properbrother or not.

Heath tried not to let the boy get to him. It was it's last year, and he was ready to leave and get tons of sleep. His fifth year was the worst. He couldn't sleep because of exams. It was ridiculous. He still didn't do so good.
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[Ai Nightray]

Ai found herself just standing in the middle of the corridor. She really wanted to leave, but her feet was against her as it was already sore and painful to move. Her patrol had finished already for some time but she didn't want to go back to her dorm yet for she knew what would happen should she enter the room which provided her solitude. She would once again think about all her regrets and let them pile up in front of her so the silence could shove it in her face and she would break down in tears to wish that everything would just go back to the way they were before. She should have cared for the other people more than her responsibilities as a prefect, as a captain and whatever else it was. Then maybe, just maybe, Heath wouldn't have broken up with her and left her alone. Ai took a deep breath to try and regain herself, but when she saw Heath doing his patrol just ahead of her, she found it all the more harder to keep calm. But she knew, she definitely knew, that she couldn't be found breaking down on the floor now. Head Girl or not, she was merely a sixteen-year-old and she didn't want to guilt-trip Heath for what he did. She deserved it after all. And so, she decided to stand against the wall and press her back into it without Heath noticing her. Maybe he wouldn't see her, and maybe she could go back to her room and pretend that this didn't happen.

 

[Heath James]

Heath refused to believed anything Conan had been correct. It was not his fault for Ai being the way she was. A relationship went two ways, and Heath was the only one that was putting time into the relationship. Ai had been busy with all of her responsibilities. So, he was not going to be in the way of that. It would be easier for the girl to focus without worrying over her boyfriend that she kept pushing to the side. He simply had made a decision for her. She would be able to focus without worry without him trying to put in. It was better for her. Heath saw her leaning against the wall. It was as if she was trying to phase thorough it so she wouldn't be seen. He stopped in front of her, still facing forward. Heath sighed loudly. "I thought becoming Head Girl would make you walk with pride," he turned his head to look at her, "I guess I was wrong." Heath gave a small smile. They could still be friends, hopefully.
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[Ai Nightray]

Ai wanted to slap herself as soon as Heath stopped right in front of her. Of course he would notice her. How could she be so stupid to not think that he wouldn't see her?! Yes, she was a typically small Asian girl, and yes, it was dark, but that didn't mean she was invisible! She should have thought this through more. Or even better, she should have avoided this part of the castle or maybe at least force her sore and aching feet to run away before he had seen her. But alas, she was not that smart to come up with that kind of plan with her befuddled mind. And now, there was no turning back as Heath was now talking to her and trying to pretend as if nothing had been wrong between the two of them. She scoffed at his words. Being Head Girl had done nothing good to her, in fact it had only cause her troubles, especially in that dread of a prefect meeting. It had been the worst thing that she had caused and blamed herself for. "I was wrong about it too," she said, her tone was monotonous and her voice a little raspy from not speaking for hours and crying for nights. "I thought it'll help me. Turns out, it just makes things worse," she muttered as she leaned her weight more on to the wall as if she were trying to sink further in to the wall. In fact, she hoped that she would sink in and drag her away from her mess of a life.

 

[Heath James]

Heath frowned. His presence clearly was not wanted. Their breakup had not been that bad. He thought he had told her in the nicest way possible. Ai was being depressed again, which made him worry. She must be truly lonely to get so sad after a breakup. It had been his first, and he had dealt with it well. That was probably because he was the one that initiated the talk. He had been straight to the point. He had made sure to explain his training too, but he still loved Ai. Seeing her like this made him sad, and ultimately, he missed his ex girlfriend. "Just because the Prefect meeting was horrible does not mean that you are." he stated and he moved closer to the girl. Did she really not want him to be here? Did she hate him. It made his heart ache that she was moving away from him.
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[Ai Nightray]

Ai missed Heath. And now that he was right there, right in front of her and within reach, she missed him even more. She missed everything about him. About them. His complaints of being a Hufflepuff that had faded away over time. Their little banters and teasing moments. His warm comforts and his big encouragements. Their stolen kisses. Everything. She loved him and when they broke up, it had torn her apart, cause she knew that it was her fault. She was always at fault after all, wasn't she? And that meant her relationship with Heath ending was because of her too. She should have given him a lot of her time. Maybe she did, she wouldn't be like this right now. Her feet wouldn't be always sore and blistered and bleeding from all the hours of walking she would do to forget, her walk would always be full of pride and confidence and her heart wouldn't be breaking and clenching painfully in her chest every single time that he was near and within sight. "I'm the one who arranged those patrols. I could've done better. I was stupid," she muttered as she looked him in the eyes and found it painful to bear that she looked away moments after. She didn't hate him. How could she ever? Heath was the one she loved and the one she was currently moving on for. But with him right there, moving on seemed to be the hardest thing to do in her lifetime and yet it was something to be done for the sake of the both of them.

 

[Heath James]

Heath sighed. Ai always blamed herself for every bad thing that happened to her. This had to be the girl's worst trait. She had always had it, and it made Heath mad. He had grown out of that stage a long time ago. It seemed like ages ago to this day. He could barely comprehend why he thought he was so useless and unworthy in his younger years. His parent had played a huge part in his development, but they were no longer apart of his life, so he had no need to worry over what they thought anymore. The Hufflepuff shook his head, "No one left because of the patrols, Ai. It was cause Raziel passed out those stupid cards!" Heath tried to open her eyes to what was inside the prefects heads at the time. The meeting would have been fine without the cards. Heath probably would have stepped up and tried to get the Head Girl to calm down. Ai looked away from him, and he stood even closer to the Hufflepuff. He placed a hand on the girl's cheek and gently turned her face so that they were seeing eye to eye. How could have he even thought of breaking up with such a beautiful flower? He had been so selfish to let this girl go. She needed him. He needed her. "I miss you so much, Ai." he admitted softly. Heath rarely admitted he was wrong. Today, he was admitting that he had been in the wrong this entire time. He felt so stupid.
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[Ai Nightray]

Ai listened as Heath explained to her that it was because of Raziel's cards that the meeting had gone downhill. Of course, she had a passing thought that that was still her fault. If she didn't even arrange those meetings that way then it wouldn't have been chaotic in the meeting and the Head Boy wouldn't have been totally pissed at what was going on around the place. She could have handled it a whole lot better and then Raziel wouldn't have had to pass those cards. "If I had fixed those patrols then the meeting would have gone smoothly and Raziel wouldn't even have the need to pass those cards. I should have even stopped him from doing that," the Asian muttered with a sigh. That meeting was probably the worst thing she had done and caused. It was definitely a great way to start her final year in Hogwarts. She flinched though when Heath had touched her cheek so gently. How long has it been since someone had held her so tenderly, as if she was a china doll that could break at any given minute? She looked at him sadly, her eyes pleading him not to do this to her. Doing this would only bring them both more pain and while she was sure that Heath could handle himself, what about her? Could she really handle it? And Heath had to tell her that he missed her and it had pained her. He was the one who left her and while she was also to blame, she couldn't be able to live with herself for holding him back. They couldn't do this and yet it hurt her so bad to know that she'll have to let him go despite knowing that he missed her just as much as she missed him. But maybe, just maybe, for tonight, if she was honest with herself, then she could truly let him go. She prayed to Merlin, she prayed to the gods, she prayed to the heavens. This was the last time because when they part ways tonight, she'll truly let him go and she won't hold him back ever again. Their relationship ended for a reason and she needed to be brave enough to face that, but for now, she was going to be honest with him. "I missed you too Heath. I missed you so, so much," she whispered.

 

[Heath James]

Heath just wanted the girl to stop blaming herself. She could not control everything that happened in this school. He wished she would stop blaming herself. The girl would always find a way to make something completely unrelated her fault. That was just in this girl's nature. He always scolded her for it. He must have not scolded the Head Girl enough. However, now was not the time. The prefect had something else in mind, something much sweeter than his bitter scolding. To hold Ai like this, it made him happy. He had missed so much their past relationship had. He was still in love with this girl, but he could not have her back. She wanted to move on. Heath knew that much. He had to let her move on. If it was he fate to watch her love from afar, then so be it. He was willing to go any length for this girl. He was willing to do any deed for this Hufflepuff maiden. Her words were like honey. Oh, how he had longed to here those words. He felt as if he had matured even more. He leaned down. He looked in the girl's eyes before he went for her lips. They had not changed at all. He remembered the first time he kissed Ai. He had long hair then. Now, he had cut it to symbolize self reflection. It symbolized how Ai had helped him after all these years.
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[Ai Nightray]

Ai didn't know how long she looked into those eyes of his. Those green orbs of his that had been so full of anger six years ago and so full of loneliness right now. They probably equaled hers. She searched his eyes for answers. Answers on why he was doing this now. Answers on why he had chosen to leave her. She wanted to move on but every single time, she couldn't bring herself to do so. And it was probably because she still held feelings for him. Feelings that she knew she had to bury as soon as they part ways tonight. Her thoughts were a swirl and before she knew it Heath was kissing her as she continued to lean against the wall. Her mind was subtly telling her that this was wrong, that this was what she didn't need to move on, that this would only bring her and him more pain. But for now, he couldn't even bring herself to care as she wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him back with more passion than she had ever given in their kisses before. She stroked his hair as they kissed and the rational part of her had known why this boy had cut his hair. He was turning into a man. But that thought was pushed to the very back of her mind almost instantly. To be honest, she didn't want this kiss to end because Merlin knows, tonight was the last time she would feel his soft and, at the rarest of times, forceful lips against her own.

 

[Heath James]

This felt so right. Heath did not want this moment to end. He kissed Ai passionately. He did not want to let go of this girl. He hated that he had to let go of his feelings of loved for the Hufflepuff. He had cherished her friendship, and she had been the only one that really had faith in him while he struggled through his years at Hogwarts. He wanted to cry, but he still had his pride to hold on to. Reluctantly, he pulled away from Ai, ending their kiss. He knew she had to move on, and he was not going to hold her back. She deserved someone who would help her move forward. "I need to go now, Ai." he told her sadly. He could not look at her any longer, or he would surely lose all of the composure he had. He hated to leave her like this, But what else was he going to do? Have regular conversation with her? He knew that now that could not be. They couldn't be friends. He'd have to watch her happiness from afar and end up moving on himself. Heath stepped away from the girl he turned on his heal and started to will away. Why had be been subjected to such a fate?
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[Ai Nightray]

Ai wished their kiss would never end, because in those moments, she felt special, she felt loved. She didn't want to let go of Heath as they kissed so passionately like they had never kissed each other before. This was the first, last and probably most passionate kiss that they would share. Was it befitting to be the last? The Hufflepuff would never know as her mind was almost a puddled mess because of the heat of what they were sharing right now. It felt so right, and yet wrong at the same time. And then he pulled away. Much sooner that she would have liked and yet she did not stop him. She looked up at him, his lips were now slightly swollen, probably as much as hers. Ai's cheeks were flushed and her eyes were nearly glazed with tears, dazed and pleading, though pleading to what? Pleading to stop? Or pleading to go on? She didn't care at the moment as she just looked into his eyes. His green orbs that she loved to looked upon that she frequently would get so lost into, were now filled with sadness as it seemed as if he was at a total loss at what to do. She hated knowing that it was she who caused him to be like this. And then he spoke, his tone of sadness almost deafening to the Asian's ears and as he turned on his heel and started to walk away. She nearly reached out to him. Grabbed him. Told him to stay. But that was not to be. He needed to move on and so did she, otherwise, they'd just bring each other more pain. Besides, she told herself that this was the last, didn't she? She had to uphold that. And so, she pulled her hand back and watched his retreating form while her heart clenched painfully in her chest. Why did they come to be like this? They never asked for much, and yet it seemed that time was too much to ask and too hard to bring back. When Heath was nowhere in sight, Ai couldn't help but break down into a silent cry. A silent sob. It was ironic really, that tonight when they ended everything between them with a kiss, the moon was shining brightly just like the night when they had gotten together and kissed for the first time. Perhaps, it really was in her fate to be like this and that she had to understand that when it came to her, everybody will leave.</COLOR></FONT>

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<FONT font="Verdana"><COLOR color="#fff">F I N I S H E D​

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