He did not hate her. She should have been thrilled but when at one time his request from her had been for her heart and now he was merely craving her form, Andromeda merely cast saddened eyes up to his. Then as he began to kiss her, he punctuated each brush of his mouth with words like strong, beautiful, giving and brave. She felt her insides ignite, whatever pheromone was at work on him, her own teenage werewolf hormones were also in chaos. Knowing she would have probably been strongly attracted to any boy around her at that moment, the fact that it was Crispin made the feelings raging in her doubly strong.
Desperately she wanted to do the right thing, after messing up with just about everyone already this school year, she sincerely didn't want to mess up with him. Andromeda wanted to do the right thing no matter how much it hurt her. She had her chance and had blown it. As his lips claimed hers again, she moaned in agony and pleasure of the situation. Visions of him being with Lily came unbidden to her thoughts. Her mouth hungrily kissed him back, a tear sliding down her face, as images of her with Crispin came too. She stepped back to look up at him as all these visuals bombarded her and she was left with one conclusion. She was some hidden forbidden desire of his, some undisclosed desire that he could not and would not share with his friends or in public. Every time they had kissed, had been any way intimate it had been far away from prying eyes; the restricted section of the library, the prefects bathroom, late evening by the lake and now here in the dark depths of the forest. Whereas with Lily he had been happy to let everyone at the school see them together, hands all over one another. A stark contrast to how he had danced with her, rigid and obviously unable to wait for it to end. Holding her hand as he walked her to Gryffindor House had merely been chivalry as he had been in too much of a rush to get back to Lily.
"You'll regret this" she told him and had to stifle a sob as she recalled herself saying similar words to Bruin at the Borely. He had turned into a bear to get away from her, when Crispin realized it was just a lunar phase, her lycan lure casting it's net about him, he would hate her then. He may not think he did now, but he would.
"Time is passing Crispin, we need to get the mistletoe and willow leaves and get out of here" the less he was distracted by her the better, her amber eyes tore from his as she looked at the mistletoe. It was as if every magical influence was against her, was it tradition, superstition or a love charm interwoven that made people want to kiss one another underneath it. The impulse was too strong and yet she tried her hardest to fight it - she couldn't have him hate her.
"Please Crispin".