*lost and insecure, you found me, you found me WHY'D YOU HAVE TO WAIT? WHERE WERE YOU? WHERE WERE YOU?
JUST A LITTLE LATE. YOU FOUND ME.YOU FOUND ME
it was his second day back at hogwarts and sam was just as confused about riley as
he had ever been. seeing her for the first time at the welcoming party since the beach
didn't help either. it was just how he imagined it to be. awkware glances? check. little
to no social interaction? check. feeling like utter crap? check. check. he honestly did
not know what to do with himself, what to do that would make things better because
at this point, things couldn't get worse. he wasn't even sure if he could still call her his
girlfriend? the unaswered question was still deeply engraved into the back of his head;
did he even want her to be his girlfriend? it sounded bad but sam couldn't trust himself
like he used to, it wasn't fair to riley as much as it wasn't fair to indianna. it was only
a good thing that they didn't allow any transfers this year because sam wasn't entirely
certain if he couldn't handle all the drama that would unfold. the fact remained that
the sixteen year old did like another girl, but he wasn't even sure if the decision was
up to him anymore? he would be quite surprised if indianna and riley could still look at
him in the face without feeling like throwing a punch, or two, at him.
and so instead of trying to solve this whole ordeal, sam took to the idea of clearing
his head by taking a stroll beside the lake. the teenager walked at a slow pace, his
mind concentrating on kicking a small pebble with the side of his shoe, trying his best
not to misfire it into the deep lake. as much as sam was good at quidditch, he was
brutal at soccer so the whole pebble thing wasn't really working out for him and soon
enough, it plopped itself into the lake. sam dug his hands deeper into his jeans pockets
and let out a tired sigh. he was both physically and mentally exhausted from the winter
drama that unexpectedly landed on top of the three foolish teenagers. he hated girls!
well, he didn't hate girls, but they were damn confusing at times! why did everything
always have to be so complicated with them? but sam knew that as much he kept
pretending and shifting the blame onto them, it would all eventually come down to
him. it was his fault. all of it. and he honestly didn't know how to clean up the mess.
what he needed - and as much as he tried to deny it - was a girl. confusing as they
were, they were bloody good at solving these type of problems.
'' take your past and burn it up and let it go , c a r r y on i'm s t r o n g e r than you'll ever know ''
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jennifer was relieved to be back at school where she didn't have to see matthew
everyday and could feel truly at home and not like she was intruding in the reed
household. claire and paul were very sweet and she thought of them as her parents
but they were not and she was just intruding on their family, so with all that in mind
she was happy to be back in her dorm room where her pride had not been struck down
by some tart in an obscenely short skirt. the thought of the girl still made jenn livid and
distressed because she had been a fool to fall in love with matthew reed when she
shouldn't have. her mind had told her to not do it, that it was wrong but she was a fool
who listened to her emotions. the sixteen year old wondered if her heart would have been
broken if she stayed at hogwarts and with sam prince and as she thought more on the
subject, she doubted it would have been because sam was the best guy she had ever
known. sure the pair of friends had their ups and downs but she felt in her heart that if
she had not left without a word that she would be happier than she was today.
thoughts of what could have been filled the angsty blonde's head as she walked along
the grounds, smiling at the people she recognized but not stopping to say hi because
she was in auto-pilot. finding herself walking along the water front, jenn put a hand in
a pocket of her jean shorts while the other fiddled with her red bag that was the same
shade as her lip deep red stain. looking up ahead her cerulean blue eyes spotted the
young man she had been thinking of and smiled, there had been quite a change in their
relationship over the years just as there had been changes in themselves. ''hey sam,''
jenn said to her best friend, who she was thankful that she was friends with even if she
was sure that she would have been happier if she had not left for salem and jeopardized
her friendship with the group that had crumbled in the past few years with hoshi and
scorpius' departure. flicking her blue eyes from sam to her peep toe heels, jenn began to
dig her heel into the ground before looking over to the water and seeing her reflection in
the clear water. her white blonde hair contrasted with the dark make up around her eyes
and it seemed to make her look harder to approach, as did the leather jacket and fishnet
stockings but sam knew better, he always had.
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*lost and insecure, you found me, you found me WHY'D YOU HAVE TO WAIT? WHERE WERE YOU? WHERE WERE YOU?
JUST A LITTLE LATE. YOU FOUND ME.YOU FOUND ME
sam continued his stroll near the tired lake, where first years students eagerly threw in
pebbles attempting to try and skim them on the waters surface. the prefect old had to
admit, he was damn awesome at skimming pebbles on the lake and could already point
out several flaws in how the group of youngsters were throwing in the unsuitably large
sized pebbles. but sam kept his lips tightly shut and continued to follow the course of
the edge of the lake. the thoughts of his situation with riley entered his mind once more
plaguing him to figure all this out. the hufflepuff tried his very best to think of a period
of time where things were much simpler, and to be perfectly honest, struggled to think
of such an easy time. it was only when sam heard his name being spoken that he perked
his head up and these worriying thoughts were thrown aside. there standing beside him
was jenn, one of his oldes friend, one of the few that remained. she had changed though,
appearance wise, but sam could easily see through the heavy eye make-up, her strong
personaility had never really changed which was something he loved about her. he could
always rely on jennifer wilkonson simply because he practically knew the girl inside out.
and he knew she would never let him down.
"hey", sam said through the smile that formed on his dry lips as he faced his best friend.
he was glad that she was here of course, but his tone was tired and strained. sam slid
his hands out from his jeans pockets only to adjust his beanie hat to cover his ears a
bit more, although it was spring, the air was still quite cool. trying to restrain the familiar
feeling of guilt from churning inside of him he glanced to the dark eyes of jenn, "so, how's
life?" he asked her bluntly. with not a decibel of happiness in his voice it was all too clear
that there was something up. but he wasn't going to put on the same happy act that he
displayed around others, especially riley, not to jenniffer. he was pretty certain the girl
would pull it out of him at some point. she always did.
'' take your past and burn it up and let it go , c a r r y on i'm s t r o n g e r than you'll ever know ''
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jenn frowned at sam's question. he didn't sound too happy himself and she couldn't lie
to him. ''crappy, matthew cheated on me.'' a short breath entered jenn's lungs as if
this was the first she had heard of his infidelity and that she was shocked. but she was
shocked at the causality at which she had spoken of it without breaking down in tears. ''i'm glad to be back at school, if you can believe it,'' she laughed darkly in spite
of herself. ''you?'' without speaking another word and without waiting for the dark
response that sam would soon answer, jenn slid her hand in his for comfort. in the warm
hold that she had on her best friend, jenn brought herself to bare her teeth in a wince of a smile.
the blonde teen wasn't sure if she wanted to know what had happened between sam and whoever
because as his best friend she wanted to protect him from any hurt whether it was self-inflicted or not.
so she just held his hand in her own tiny one, her thumb running along his knuckles carefully and
soothingly. she reveled in the physical contact that they had as best friends for she had not had a kiss,
a friendly hug or even a hi-five for a long time now and jenn needed the interaction as if it was her
oxygen. the hufflepuff girl closed her eyes in thought, thinking back to when she had sat on the
stool and waited for the sorting hat to put her into her house and she wondered, for the first time,
what made her be a hufflepuff because she had made so many mistakes that she didn't think that
she could be considered kind and caring. she was just stupid and she had to change things for
the better so she could get her schooling done and become the healer that she wanted to.
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*lost and insecure, you found me, you found me WHY'D YOU HAVE TO WAIT? WHERE WERE YOU? WHERE WERE YOU?
JUST A LITTLE LATE. YOU FOUND ME.YOU FOUND ME
it was as if cupid himself had a vendetta against jennifer wilkonson's love life, there was
no denying it the girl never had any luck. sam felt quite angry at this matthew character,
who the hell did he think he was hurting his best friend like that? if sam ever got to meet
this guy he would....well he would do nothing, seeing as that was what sam practically
did to riley with indianna. he was no better than matthew so sam couldn't do anything
about it. his stomach sunk as he realised what kind of person he was now associated
with. his eyebrows furrowed and his lips frowned moreso for jenn than for himself. with
a slow shake of his head, he replied, "jenn...i'm so..." taking a pause, sam looked up from
the ground to meet jennifers eyes. with a changed expression he said "ah i never liked that
guy anyways." not that sam had ever met matthew but he had to keep the conversation
light. he was never good at giving advice and so if we went down the path of asking how
she really felt about it things would get awkward and he could in no way help her. with a
small smile breaking onto his tired face, jennifer said she was glad to be back at school and
he nodded. simply because he too was quite relieved to be back in the sanctuary of the
castle.
''you?'' and there it was, the uncomfortable question that would soon lead to a serious
judgement from jenn. surely she would hate him for practically doing what matthew did
to her, to his own girlfriend. he wasn't even sure if riley and jenn were friends, sam was
kind of praying that they weren't though. but it was the touch of jenn's hand against his
own that allowed him to put his thoughts at ease for a couple of seconds. the soothing
touch of her fingers tracing his knuckles was enough for him to just want to forget about
all that had happened and just stay in this moment with his best friend. his calloused fingers
squeezed her small hand lightly before looking down at his best friend with a tender smile
growing on his lips. "come here," he said dragging jenn closer to him and letting his hand
slip from her own before enveloping her in a comforting hug. he knew he was awful at
giving out advice but giving a hug was a universal skill that everyone had. he liked to think
it had the same effect as giving advice. and so sam stood there, ignoring her question and
any thoughts of that day because he simply could not avoid the hurt that had taken over
jenn caused by matthew. the obvious was that she needed a hug and for once in a long
while, the sixteen year old thought about someone other than himself.
'' take your past and burn it up and let it go , c a r r y on i'm s t r o n g e r than you'll ever know ''
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jenn knew sam would react this way but that didn't mean she wanted to hear him be
upset with matthew because that was her job. she had been, and a large part of her
still was, madly in love with him but there were things that she was not ready for and
no matter how 'respectful' he had been she had found out and now she was listening to
her best friend insult him out of pity or anger or whatever he was feeling, jenn honestly
couldn't tell for this one time because she was just too emotionally exhausted to read
into his eyes further then what was on the surface. "don't," she murmured under her
breath, the only person that she wanted to hear insult matthew was his sister because
she had always done it in a sisterly way. matthew may have made a fatal mistake in their
relationship and jennifer may have decided she would never take him back but she couldn't
stand for sam to insult him when he and sam had never met. thinking about how excited
jenn was talking to scorpius about matthew she felt like an idiot, a perfect idiot. she had
wanted scorpius and sam to meet him because they were the three most important males
in her life aside from her relatives and she knew that she should have pressured it further,
sam would have been able to figure it out, right?
with her mind moving a million miles an hour, jenn barely noticed that sam didn't want to
answer her question and instead gave her a hug. in fact, all the thoughts disappeared and
she just reveled in the hug. if there was one thing that her best friend was good at, it was
giving hugs. it didn't matter how many people would disagree with her, jenn thought that
there were certain people that gave the best hugs. sam prince just happened to be one of
those people. her slender arms hooked under his arms and her hands held his shoulders as
she barried herself in sam's protective hold. the blonde girl felt weak and she hated this side
of herself, the side that cared about boys and this led her to say, just as she was thinking it, "maybe i should become a lesbian. it would be so much easier, right?" it wasn't
exactly a secret how much crap jennifer had gone through when it came to the opposite sex
and she was sure that if she was at all attracted to girls she probably would have given it a
go but she wasn't. jennifer lydia wilkonson was fatally heterosexual.
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