Why Am I Such A Loner?

[Ryan Moon]

Ryan walked through the common room an out through the portrait into the dungeons.He walked with his head down as usual.Life was the same as usual.Thankfully he wasn't be bullied any more that had just been terrible and for two years he had hated school.Third year hadn't been too bad.He hadn't told anyone about the bullying not even Star who he usually told everything to.During the past four years he had grown distant from all his family.He had kept in touch with the family but he just hadn't really been there with him.He didn't know if it was permanent or was it just a teenage stage as his parents said.Ryan had a feeling it was more permanent.He just felt depressed all the time.He hadn't made any new friends in the four years he had been here.He and Danielle had also broke up but that had all been his fault.He just didn't talk to anyone anymore.It was sometimes more peaceful and he could just think to himself.But then he did feel very lonely at times and sometimes he just wanted to go up to someone and say hi but ever since first year he could trust any students because some Slytherins had taken his away that trust in people.

Because he was quiet people didn't notice him which meant he could observe people.He had been very worried about Kate last year,she had been really sick and he had done his best to make her feel comfortable.The two magazines that had been released had made him very annoyed because no ones secrets should be put on paper for everyone to see,that is why they are secret .Ryan wasn't your average Slytherin.He was cunning but not sly and he was actually nice.Not that SLytherins weren't nice,some were very nice but Ryan just didn't fit in with the house.He didn't fit in with them.Ryan had now made his way up to the North Tower it had taken him the bones of fifteen minutes.He hated the fact it was all the way at the bottem.Ryan had spent a lot of time with his music.He was now an excellent guitarist and drummer.When on holidays,practicing his music was what he did all day.If he wasn't playing his guitar or drums he would be playing basketball or soccer.It was because of that he was very tanned and was fit.

He walked up the final steps and then he was in the tower.The sun was shinning and the tower was full of light.There was a warm breeze blowing and the air was a comfortable heat.He walked to the edge and looked at the grounds.There were people walking along the grounds.He sighed and kept on looking.

 

[Spencer Todd]

Spencer was enjoying his freedom at Hogwarts. It was much different from being under the watchful eye of his mother. He liked being able to do things without worrying about getting caught. He used be scared to get a glass of water without his mother scolding him. The only reason his mother was so tough on him was because Missy usually surpassed him in everything. Genevieve hated the little snot despite giving birth to her. Spencer personally thought it was cruel. His father did the same thing to Missy. He pushed her to be better than her older brother. The two siblings were always pitted against each other for no valid reason. Rafael was just the loner. He was nothing like his twin, Missy, and he wanted nothing to do with the girl. Spencer understood why of course. She was spoiled brat, rude, and inconsiderate. That was all that could be said about the girl. Spencer headed up the stairs that lead to the North Tower. He wanted to take a breather from all his family drama. It was horrible that he had to live with his younger siblings, but it was even worst that he was in the same house as them. "Esos niños darme pelos grises." he complained.

He entered the North Tower with aching legs. He saw he was not alone in the tower. A familiar looking guy was looking out the window. He walked up to the boy, but he made sure to keep his distance. "Are you okay?" he asked with genuine concern. The kid did not look so good. He looked very sad.

 

[Ryan Moon]

Ryan wasn't really noticeable.There was nothing special about him and he always kept his head down and didn't try to socialize with anyone.He was always restless he didn't know what he wanted to do with himself.He didn't want to be so sad and depressed all the time.He wanted things to be the way they were before he was sorted into this stupid house.If he had ben sorted into any other house he would probably have a load pf friends and he wouldn't be so depressed and be a loner.If those stupid people hadn't bullied him in first and second year he would probably be okay and e would have adjusted to being in the Slytherin house but instead he had to be bullied into not trusting a single person in this school except for his three sisters.Ryan didn't talk to anyone he didn't even go to class some days.he just couldn't be bothered.But he wanted that to change he wanted to be able to talk and trust people but he didn't think that was gonna happen any day soon.

Ryan looked up when someone spoke to him "Oh am no I guess I'm okay"He said a bit flustered,he couldn't remember the last time anyone had asked him that other then his family.It was actually a surprise to be approached by someone other then a family member.Ryan looked at the guy,he looked older then him,maybe the same age as Kate and Sara,he wondered did they know him.Ryan wasn't sure whether this guy was just playing around or was he genuinely concerned "What's it to you anyway?"He asked quietly and suspiciously.He didn't really mean offence it was just that he had under gone so much bullying that he didn't trust people anymore.They could easily have deeper motives.

 

[Spencer Todd]

Spencer rolled his eyes at the kid's last question. He just hated seeing anyone down. Unless it was his brother or sister. He loved seeing those two gremlins sad and depressed. He was sure that his mother especially loved seeing Missy when she was down. Rafael always looked sad and dreary, so he did not count. "I don't like seeing people looking so sad and down, okay?" he admitted to the boy. He honestly liked to keep his caring nature under wraps. He would get bullied immensely if other students in Slytherin found out he cared about people. He usually did not talk to people that would not benefit him, but this kid could be like a little brother to him. Someone he could mold into something great. The thought reminded him of his mother. She saw the possibilities in people, and she was great at bringing out others potential. Except when it came to her son of course. Spencer was about horrible in everything. "Would you like to talk about something?" he asked the boy and took a step forward. He placed a hand on the boy's shoulder. He truly wanted to help this kid.

 

[Ryan Moon]

Ryan say the rolling eye gesture and he looked down at his hands.His people skills were at an all time low because of his lack on contact with anyone.It was quite saw really and it was another reason he wanted to stop being a depressed fruitcake.He should be enjoying life in school,he should have friends and a girlfriend but he had let himself get left behind and now everyone was ahead of him.It was something he was going to have to accept because he didn't think he would be catching up any time soon.Ryan looks up at the kids next statement with wide eyes.Now he certainly hadn't been expecting that.Ryan wondered what house he was in,if he was in Slytherin he would probably under go the same bullying he had gotten,he hoped no one found out about this caring side because if they did he was fecked.Ryan didn't his best not to flinch when the boy put a hand on his shoulder.Getting beaten up had been one of his treatments ,it was still hard to let someone touch him because he immediately thought he was going to get hurt.This boy seemed genuine though but he was going to be careful "Nothing really,life just sucks to be honest"He said sighing looking out at all the people below,life had been sucking for a while and Ryan waited in vain for the day he would be happy.

 

[Spencer Todd]

Spencer nodded and crossed his arms over his chest. He always tried to be positive about life because there were some many people that were not able to have a life. Either because they were dead or lived in terrible situations. He leaned against the wall next to where the boy was standing. "Our lives are luxury compared to other people's lives, dude. I always keep that in mind when I thing life sucks." he said the him. He and this kid had so much to smile about. Both boys had probably not gone through the same things, but, still, both had much to smile for. Spencer had annoying siblings and a boldness that could have landed him in Gryffindor. He was able to eat several meals a day, and he had a great place to sleep and relax. He had so much to be happy about. He could not understand how anyone could be depressed at Hogwarts. Spencer held out his hand to his peer. "My name is Spencer. ¿Y tù? And you?" he introduced himself, and he invited the boy, he assumed was younger than him, to introduce himself.

 

[Ryan Moon]

"Yeah well that stopped working a long time ago"He mumbled,he had tried lots of things to try make his life better again but everything kept failing and now he was just to lazy,selfish and fed up to do anything about it.He would probably stay like this for the rest of his life and to be honest at the moment he didn't even care.The boy beside him seemed like a happy person which annoyed him a tad because he was so lucky but thankfully he seemed to appreciate it which Ryan respected.Some people could be recklessly happy and take it for granted.Ryan turned "Ryan"He said more loudly this time,he shook Spenser's hand and then looked out at the grounds again. "I'm guessing you are older,fifth year maybe"He said,his voice quiet again

Out of Character:

I'm sooo sorry!

 

[Spencer Todd]

Spencer shrugged. At least he had tried to cheer him up. He must have been through a lot if he was that down and in the dumps. Spencer never would get that depressed and he lived with two crazily annoying siblings, an overprotective mom, and a unsuccessful father. He did not know what Ryan had been through, but it must have taken a huge toll on him. Spencer was definitely willing to help Ryan out of his depression. He hated seeing people mope around because he himself never did so. He nodded. "You are correct. I am a fifth year. What are you? Second year? Third year?" he guessed. Even though he had just met Ryan he already saw him as a little brother. With this mindset he could not see Ryan as a fourth year.

 

[Ryan Moon]

Even though Ryan didn't want to admit it he actually quite liked this kid.He was nice to him which was a first and he seemed to actually care about how he was feeling,other then his family and Danielle he had never felt like that before.It was almost a foreign feeling for him.Ryan wished he could be that happy,fun loving twin and brother he used to be but some scars just run too deep.Once again he cursed the stupid Slytherins which had made him like this.It was second year the attacks had begun,things hadn't been that good at home which hadn't helped.He wished he had Star,she had always made him feel better but he had been distant from her and he wasn't sure whether she would forgive him or not.He almost felt like a small piece of him was missing when she wasn't around.It was a feeling he had gotten used to.Ryan was surprised that Spencer didn't guess his year right,Ryan didn't think he looked eleven or twelve.He had done a lot of growing up in the past few years "No,I'm actually in fourth year"He said in a surprised tone.

 

[Spencer Todd]

Spencer laughed to himself after Ryan told him his year. He felt stupid for not guessing right. "Lo siento." I am sorry. he apologized to Ryan. He hoped that he had not offended his peer by guessing his year wrong. He would feel insulted if someone did not think he was a fifth year. "Do you have any family that attend here with you?" he asked. He did not know anything else to talk about. The topic of family reminded him of Missy and Rafael,. It reminded him of all the pain the two put each other through. Missy was harsh and cruel towards her twin. Rafael just lets her push him around. He had never seen his younger brother yell at his twin, and he thought this was very strange. If Missy was the way she was to Rafael to Spencer he was positive he would be in Azkaban for murder.