Dear Kalif,
I am so glad that you have answered my letter. You dont know what that means to me. I want to understand you, I really do. You surprise me very much, every day. Perhaps this is one of the many reasons I am proud to be your wife today. I will continue to write as I worry about you and all the children, even those that arent mine. I care too much to let you all go just like that, and I really need you all in my life. I am unsure if you really understand this at all, but it is coming from the bottom of my heart. I have lost too many people, and I refuse to give up the ones I love dearly. This is why I am still writing to you, to let you know this, and to let you know that I still care.
I never would have thought that Namina had left you like that. I am terribly sorry for the pain you had been through, how much pain she had caused. I had actually forgotten that she had ever existed because that is how happy I am with you and I had you all in my life and since she is dead, I never really thought about it. I suppose after much thought, that would give you a right to do what you did. You didnt want to go through whatever you did again. I dont blame you. I got an earful from my mother in spirit, about how stubborn I was, and it really opened my eyes. I have also learned what James had done, what really happened the day James decided to murder off my family and take me hostage instead of leaving me to die with them. I didnt do anything against him, which I should have. But you took care of him, accidentally, but nonetheless though. When I think about it, I think that we need to give this all a second chance. We can make this marriage work.
I really miss you and your cold attitude
- Nicolette