Need you now

[Eden Silverback]

Eden walked through the castle, her cloak was pulled low over her face. So far this year was even worse than the her last term as a fifth year. First she had gotten into trouble and than forced to make a fool of herself in front of the whole school. Now she had just gotten back from Chase's trail and he would be gone for eight year at the very least. Her world was crashing down around her. No matter how hard she tried Chase still held her heart and it was destroyed. As Eden walked she thought about the other person who held a piece of her heart.

As her thoughts drifted back to Selwin, Eden remembered her vision of him and Lexi together and the child that she carried. As she thought about him she started to hurt more. Could it be that she still loved him. "It doesn't matter he has Lexi and he loves her and there engaged and they are having a baby together. Realizing where she was and the feelings that where taking over her. Eden stopped and sat against the wall so she could send a letter than she had been writing in her mind ever since her and Selwin and broken up.

Dear Selwin,
I know it had been a very long time since you and I have talked. I know the last time we did talk I broke your heart with my vision, but since that day I have heard of your happiness. You are engaged and a baby on the way. I am so happy for you and Lexi. I just returned to the castle from Chase's trail and I have to say that it did not end well at all. Chase has been sentenced to at least eight years but who knows just how long it will really be. I don't know how to say this any other way but to just say that I feel so alone here in this castle. I think about you everyday and I miss you very much. You where there for me when I really needed someone and I wish that you could be here for me right now. Things have not been going very well for me I have gotten in trouble with my head of house and I feel like I can't do anything right. I can't even tell anyone else how I am feeling cause they would not understand. I don't even know if you understand but I hope you do.

I am not sure what else to say so I am going to close this now by saying I hope everything is going well for you and I hope that I hear from you soon.

With Love
~Eden Koshiba

Sealing the parchment Eden tied it to the leg of a school owl and sent it off.

 

[Selwin Snape]

Things weren't going too well for Selwin right now. With his recent changes in his future plans, Selwin and Lexi had split up. Knowing that Lexi was now carrying his future child, he wasn't going to care much for that situation right now because he knew those two would be able to hold off on their own, for the time being that is. Right now, Selwin had more important issues to deal with, such as one of his muggle professor's being a complete idiot towards him and that the professor won't raise his grade. Selwin felt that he was being cheated out of his grade. Not only that, Selwin just had an argument with his roommate, who never really was home, but Selwin got sick of his roommate partying all the time and getting drunk and what not. He just couldn't take it anymore. Selwin was now getting to a point in his life where he was getting more and more serious as the day's passed. With his being away from Lexi, he was feeling now feeling lonely. Selwin didn't understand why Lexi decided to leave him, or if this was a temporary leave, he didn't know, but one thing was for sure, he was very lonely. The only reason Selwin didn't take any action was because his own flesh blood was growing inside Lexi and Selwin would never want to harm his own flesh blood.

With keeping these things in mind, Selwin apparated himself with a bit of anger from the muggle world straight to his room. He was a bit filled with rage right now. Not a lot was going the way he had planned. It was as if Selwin's life was falling apart again and he couldn't bare to see it. He started to put stuff up with his own hands and threw it across the room. He started to destroy things inside his room to get all of his anger out. A few moments later, he noticed an owl next to his window, holding a letter. Selwin took a few deep breaths and calmed himself down a little bit. Noticing the aroma coming from the letter, he guessed that the letter was from Eden, but to his surprise, why was she sending him a letter, at this time of year. Was she in trouble? Did she need some help? Did she just want to talk? He opened the letter and started to read it. After reading it, he started to write back to her.

Dear Eden,

It has been a while since we last spoke Eden. I'm not in the best mood as I write this letter. My life has just took a twist and I don't know why this is happening, or if this is temporary. I just feel a bit enraged right now and I need someone to comfort me and I have no one right now. I can feel that you are in the same sort of situation as well, and know this, I'm always here for you, no matter what. You're my best friend Eden and will always remain my best friend. Just that things for my right now aren't going so well. Starting with one of my filthy muggle professors, who won't give me the grade I deserve and I can see that he's cheating me out of it. I feel that I should take some sort of action, but then again, I don't want to go to Azkaban for doing something stupid, when I could control myself, which is what I'm doing right now. Secondly, Lexi and I have pretty much broken up. She is on her own path and so am I. I don't know how this happened or why this happened, but it just happened all of a sudden. She just left and I don't know why. That's another thing that's making me very angry. I don't know why all of this has happened, but it just did.

Now, enough about me. What's bothering you Eden? Let it all out and tell me everything. I'm here for you and always will be. I'm your best and closest friend and always will remain one. I won't care if you hate me or like me, I will always be there for you no matter what. In happiness or sadness, I will always will be there. Anyways, I have to clean my room. I made a big mess in my room throwing stuff and what not, so I have some cleaning to do. Write back asap. I want to know everything.

Your Best Friend,

Selwin S.

After finishing up the letter, he packed it up and gave it to the owl to take back to Eden. He just hoped that Eden would be fine. If only he wasn't limited right now, he really would like to meet her, but he couldn't.

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden found herself spacing out as her sister talked to her. Eden normally had no problem listening to Lilith go on and on about nonsense things. Eden wondered if Selwin had gotten her Owl and if he had did he even care? Tapping her fingers on her bed post to the time of the claws on the window. Eden shook her head a bit harder than she meant to. Looking to the window she saw a Owl. "He wrote back." Eden told her sister with a smile on her face.

Reading the letter Eden felt like she was going to cry. How could she not had seen this coming? In the vision Selwin and Lexi looked so happy and in love. This was not right. How could she be wrong? Pulling out a quill and a piece of parchment Eden got to work.

Dear Selwin,

I am so sorry to hear that everything is not going well for you. I can not help but feel that this is my fault. I feel like I should have kept my visions to myself. I am sorry to hear that your muggle professor's are cheating you out of your grade. I hate muggle's who think they are better than they really are. At the end of the term if it looks like things are going to go bad for you I say drive him insane or something. As for you and Lexi I wish there was something I could do. Even though all this is happening and it feels like you are not in control remember that when your on your knees and you can't be any lower the only way to go is up. I tell myself that everyday when I hear someone calling me a freak as they walk past.

If you want to know the truth here it is. I wish I had never broken up with you. I have been so sad since I left you that day in the ice cream shop. I love you Selwin and if I had just kept my mouth shut than maybe it could be that you where engaged to and we could be planning on getting married and planning a family. I hate that I am such a good person. I hate this school. All these people who don't understand what it is like to be different. If they knew half of what I saw when I had a vision they would run in terror. Every time they call me a freak I just want to curse them through a wall. I wish you where here I could use someone that cares for me. I feel like I don't even have my mom anymore. She is so caught up with my baby sister right now that I am pretty much just going on my own trying to figure everything out. It's getting late over here so I am going to end this for now and go to sleep and try to have a better day tomorrow.

With Love
~Eden

Giving the letter to the owl Eden climbed over her covers and tried to fall asleep.

 

[Selwin Snape]

Selwin found himself in a bind again. With the fight with his roommate a few days ago, Selwin found himself sitting alone in his house. His roommate decided to move out and go somewhere else to live, which didn't bother Selwin at all. Though, the thing that did bother him was that he was now alone in the house. Sitting at his study desk, leaning back in his chair, he felt like he was reaching at the end of his life. He didn't know why this was happening to him. All of a sudden, everything was slowly breaking apart in his life and he was losing control. He wanted to take everything back in control. He wasn't really all alone right now. Not to far away, there was one person thinking about him and right now, he was thinking about her right now as well. This person was Eden and he just couldn't stop thinking about her right now. He felt very lonely and he got the feeling that the only person that could make his sad feeling's go away right now was Eden.

His eyes starring hopelessly towards the ceiling, he was trying to think of way's to get everything together and under his control in his life. He just couldn't believe how quickly everything was breaking apart and he was slowly losing control. Selwin wasn't the type of person to lose control easily and he had the will power to gain it all back and that's what he was doing right now. Thinking of way's to get everything back together, he heard something flying through his window. He instantly grabbed his wand and pointed it towards the spot only to notice that it was an owl who was holding a letter for him. Selwin for a moment thought it could be from Eden, and he was proven right. He opened the letter and started to read it. He couldn't believe his eyes as to what he was reading. As soon as he was done reading, he started to write back to Eden.

Dear Eden,

First off Eden, none of this is your fault. I suppose it's mine for letting everything in my life get loose and out of my control. So now, I'm trying my best to get everything back in control. You are my best friend Eden and my closest friend. I could never consider you a bad person or anything. As for the muggle professor, I could just threaten him or something, but then again, I don't want to do something that I would regret and be sent to Azkaban. I know what Chase did and I'm not going to make the same mistake he did, for the sake of you. I don't want to leave you and I don't want to be apart from you because pretty much, I'm the only closest person you have right now that you can talk to. I know the feeling now on losing a person very close and dear to you, so don't worry, I'm not going anywhere and I'm defiantly not going to leave you, count on that.

Wow Eden, I didn't know you still felt that way about me still. Truthfully, in the back of my mind and my heart, I still had strong feelings for you and I very much regret leaving you that day as well. I know you saw me with Lexi, but I suppose the future can change, since we have already experienced this. I still love you very much as well Eden. I wish I could just apparate myself right next to you right now, but you already know I'm not permitted to, which really ticks me off. You have no idea what I went through after that day when we broke up. I had so much anger built up inside me. I caused a lot of destruction, not to people, but in forest's and what not. Link Black was there on one of those occasion's when I was very angry at myself and almost got myself killed with all the anger built up inside me. Though, after a certain period of time, I started to gain control of myself again and then I regained control of my life. I don't blame you for ANYTHING Eden, so please, take those thoughts out of your mind. I'm still very much in love with you and would love it if we were to give each other another chance. Well, I'm gonna go and work out for a little bit and then I'm gonna head off to bed. Write back asap. Can't wait to hear from you.

Love,

Selwin S.

After finishing up writing the letter, he put it together and gave it to the Owl to take it back to Eden. He put a small smile on his face thinking that there was still a person out there who loved him. Now he knew that he wasn't alone in this world again.

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden was wrapping presents. One was for her baby sister Nozomi the other was for her brand new sister Bex. She had gotten the girls matching outfits and she was sure that her mom was going to love it. As she watched owl fly away Eden stood at the window to look at the stars. It was a peaceful night. Her jasmine plant rested on her desk. Breathing in the scent Eden felt like everything was right in her world if only for that moment.

Seeing a owl make its way to her window Eden took a step back to let it in. Grabbing the letter from the owl Eden started to read it. As she continued a smile crossed her face. Grabbing a quill and parchment Eden started to write. There was so many things that she wanted to tell Selwin.

Dear Selwin,

Never think it is your fault things happen for a reason and you can not control everything no matter how hard you try. It makes me very happy to hear that you think of me as your best friend because I think of you that way as well. As for your muggle professor don't let it stress you out. One day he will get what is coming to him. Just don't go and get yourself tossed into Azkaban like Chase did. I can't stand the idea of losing two people to that horrid place. I hope that you never leave me. I don't know what I would ever do without you. You really are one of the few people that I can trust with my secrets.

I must say that I am very glad that you feel the same way about me. I must admit I was scared to tell you at first but now that I have I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my chest. Everyday we where together was perfect. I am sorry that i hurt you and caused you to become so angry. I never want to do that to you again. Promise me that as soon as I go on break you and I will be spend time together. I still love you as well and I want for us to have another chance at love. I think that you and I could do it. So does this put us together once more or not? If so than I can tell you that I am so happy and I can not wait to fall back into your loving embrace.

With all my heart
~Eden.

Eden finished off the letter. As she attached it she gave the owl a jasmine flower as well to give to Selwin.

 

[Selwin Snape]

Things still weren't looking too good for Selwin right now. Still feeling a bit depressed about being all alone, he could still cheer himself up with the feeling that there still was someone else out there waiting for him. Besides that, right now, he was working out like a maniac. Trying to get all of his anger out, he was lifting weights that he wouldn't normally lift and was putting himself at risk of making himself injured, but he wasn't too worried since he could easily heal himself with magic. The only reason he was working out right now was because he wanted to get all of his anger out. He was tired of having so much anger bottled up inside him. He wanted to feel free, he wanted to feel relax. He just wanted to feel normal again. He already had enough of a horrid past that he just wanted to have a good future. That is why he has been working so hard so far in his life to make a better future for himself. While working out, he saw an owl flying in through the window with a letter. Opening up the letter, he put a smile on his face as he read it and then started to write back to Eden.

Dear Eden,

Don't worry Eden, you're not going to lose me. You're the closest person I have to me, so why would I want to be away from you? I can't bare to stay away from you any longer. It's such a torture for me to be away from you. I want to hold you in my hands, I want to hold you in my arms, spend day's light with you and what not. I'm defiantly NOT going to make the same mistake at Chase did. You can always trust me Eden. For you to trust on me is a very big deal because only those people who consider another person a close friend are the ones who put trust on another person. I have my full faith trust on you and it really makes me happy that you have your full trust on me as well.

Giving ourselves another chance seems like the right thing to do. I'm willing to give both of us a second chance and hopefully, thing's will turn out right this time. Do note one thing Eden and this is a very big deal to me. No matter what the news or whatever vision you may have about me or about yourself, please, do share it with me. Even if it's a bad one, I would like to know so that I can mentally prepare myself for the good or bad future that is to unfold. You don't need to be sorry for anything. I guess everything happens for a reason and right now, I can see our future being filled with the light of joy. Yes, this does put us together once more, to answer your question. I can feel your happiness, even if we are vey much apart, I can still feel it and I am very much happy as well. I cannot wait to see you Eden. I have to finish my work out, so write back to me.

Love,

Selwin S.

As soon as he was done writing, he wrapped up the letter and gave it to the Owl to take back to Eden.

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden was laying on the grass hidden by the rose bushes. Open in front of her was her book of dreams. She was just flipping though the pages stopping every now and than to read a passage or two. There was not a whole lot on her mind. There was someone on her mind. Eden hopped that he was doing alright she really could not wait to see him again. The time counting down to break was taking way to long. All she wanted to do was be in his arms.

Dear Selwin,

I have always trusted you Selwin if I had not than there would have been no way I would have told you all my secrets. I have not even told my sister all my secrets and her and I have been together since her birth. I don't even think I trusted Chase as much I have trusted you. You make me so happy for so many different reasons. I can not wait until I am back in your arms and I don't have to worry about anything.

I will always tell you about my visions I find it helps a lot when I talk about them after I have them. This is a big thing for me after I break up with someone I do not get back with them but there is something about you that calls to me and I know that if I do not give us a second chance than I know for the rest of my life I will always wonder what if. I am so happy that you and I are now together once again. I can not wait to tell my parents. I know my mom is going to be happy about this. She always liked for you and was sad when I did break up with you. It is getting late and I need to get back into the castle so I shall close for now.

I love you
~Eden

 

[Selwin Snape]

Wanting to just take himself out of this world, Selwin wanted to give himself a break. At times, he got thoughts of just wanting to kill himself because he just couldn't handle the stress, but when those thought's came into his mind, he thought about Eden. Sitting in his backyard, Selwin was laying down on the grass, trying to catch some fresh air. Locking his mind out of the stress and the event's that are currently happening in his life right now, he was wanting to just relax. With his eyes closed, he thought about Eden. While he was thinking or ways to improve his life, thinking about Eden and several other things, he could sense an Owl coming from not too far away holding a letter. Selwin had a feeling that the owl was coming towards him, and so, that proved true when the Owl landed right next to Selwin. Opening his eyes, he took the letter and started to read it. After he was done reading, he took out muggle pen and paper from his pocket and started to write back to Eden.

Dear Eden,

You having a lot of trust and faith on me really mean's a lot to me. Don't worry, all of your secret's are very safe with me. Whatever we talk about, discuss, or whatever happens between us will always stay between us, no matter what. I cannot wait either for you to come back into my arms, so I can brush your hair, looking into your beautiful eyes, kiss your forehead and share my love with you. I very much missed those previous day's when we first started to date and we were pretty crazy about each other. Hopefully those day's will come back to us soon enough.

I just hope your parent's do like the idea of us dating again, especially your father Koaru ,and your mother, Haruhi. I have a feeling that your mother will be pretty happy, I can't say the same for your father though and I don't know why. I don't know him too tell, but as far as I know, he is a pretty strict person and very picky to say the least. I don't know if you know this Eden, but I grew up with out a family of my own. Sleeping on the hard, dirty, and disgusting wooden floor, my childhood was pretty harsh. My parent's left me when I was very young and me growing up without a family, I know how high value a family has in a person's life. Your family is my family as well, and I treat them like my own.

There is one thing I want to talk about Eden. I want to tell you this now and not give you any surprises in the future. I don't know if this will change your decision to date me or not, but I believe you have the right to know this. Lexi right now is pregnant with my child. When she gives birth to the child, I will take over custody and raise the child myself. I know that I'm a DE and people in general might think that me being a DE will influence on how I will raise my kid's, but I will not put a bad impression on my children, nor will I let anyone else do it either. I will love my kids forever and they will be very important in my life. I have errands to run for now Eden, so I cannot right further. Hope to hear back from you very soon.

With Lots of Love,

Selwin S.

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden felt like something was not right. What it was she could not put her finger on but she knew that something was not right and it was driving her up the wall. Continuing to clean her room. Eden started to let her mind wonder hopping that she would just figure it out. Maybe there was something wrong with Selwin. As Eden thought about it she realized that was the only thing she could think of. Looking out her window wondering if maybe she should send him an owl. Eden saw one fly right into her open one. "Wow perfect timing." Eden said with a smile as she realized that the letter was from him.

Deat Selwin,

When that day comes I know that you and I will be so happy. I think that during my midterm break I would like to spend a few days with you alone if that is alright with you. I want us to have time to really get to know one another and make up for all the time that we have lost. I know that I have never stopped loving you and I already feel like we where never apart.

I do not know what my family is going to say. Father is father, and one moment he will like something and than the next he will change his mind and heads will roll.We have all learned to just tell father what he wants to hear and go and fix it later. As for mother she is a tricky creature. She says one thing but it could mean so many other things. I love her but she has mastered the art of deception. Someday I wish to do it as well as she can.

I have no problem with you being a father. I knew that you where going to be a father soon. I will be there for you and even help you to raise this child if you like. My birth father was a DE for all I knew and my adopted father is the same. My adopted father is a great father and he never lets his DE status take away from being a father. I know that you will be a great father. I hope that whatever it was that you needed to get done went well for you. As for myself I still need to get everything cleaned up in my room.

love
~Eden

 

[Selwin Snape]

Selwin is practicing his apparating and battling skills today. Standing in his huge work out room, he was practicing his dueling and battling skill's all at once. Apparating himself from corner to corner of the room, he was punching, kicking and hitting large bags and workout gear all around the room. Trying to make himself stronger and stronger, he was hitting and working out so hard that he could see some blood coming out of his arm's and leg's. He would instantly mutter some word's that healed his wounds and he pushed himself further and further. Finally taking a small breather, he opened to window to let some fresh air in when he saw an owl coming to the window and handing him the letter. He apparated to his study room, grabbed a muggle pen and paper and then apparated back to the workout room. He read the letter and started to write back to Eden.

Dear Eden,

We can surely spend some quality time with each other and that's exactly what I want as well. Getting to know you better is a great way for us to get more attached with each other. I feel that there is a lot I still don't know about you and I do wish to know. Honestly, I never felt like we were apart either. Even when I was with Lexi, I still felt like I should come back to you, and reason was this because my heart kept telling me I shouldn't have let you go in the first place. I agreed with my heart and I suppose that's what's destiny is doing to us right now, bringing us back to each other again, like we are mean't to be.

Your mother mastering the art of deception? I must see this for myself. As you already know, I can sense easily when someone lies to me and what not, so I want to test this with your mother, if that's alright with you of course. I want to see if I'm able to catch her or not. If I'm not able to catch it, she certainly will be able to bypass anyone easily. But I just hope when you do master it like your mother, you won't take advantage of it over me. Last thing I want is being lied to.

It's great to hear that you are going to be with me all the way. It's so great to hear that from you because I was a bit worried at first on what your response may be, but you just completed me. I've been working out like crazy right before your letter arrived to my house and I've been sharpening my apparating and dueling skill's. Though there was a lot of blood that came out from my heavy training, I can easily heal myself, so no worries there. I need to finish up my workout, so I have to close this. I hope to hear back from you soon. If there's anything you want to discuss with me, please do share.

Love you,

Selwin S.

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden was putting her books away. She had made a mess out of her and Lilith's room now it was up to her to clean it and it was sort of relaxing. As the days went by she was missing Chase less and less. Taking her headphones out of her ears. Eden looked up to see an owl just hanging out on her bed. "Oi could you at least hoot or something next time please?" Eden asked as she crossed the room and took the letter from the owl.

Dear Selwin,

I have already cleared it with my father and he is fine with me spending time with you. As long as we do not do anything that would make father look bad. Mother is worried that I will come home with child but I have promised her that I am waiting until I am married and I will not change that for anyone. I just want to let you know that before I do get there. I am so excited to be back with you. I didn't know I missed you this much.

In less you give mother a reason to lie to you than she will not. She does not like it. She says that it is below her but I know she has done it. She has done it to father and a few others that is why he does not know about his youngest daughter nor will her ever. There is something special about Nozomi and she must be kept away from father and his evilness maybe even me if a few years. I will never lie to you I hate lying I don't see a point to it. When you lie to people you end up lying to yourself as well.

I hope that your workout goes well and I will keep an eye on Lexi and make sure she takes care of our child. I want nothing but for you and I to be happy. I am going to finish cleaning my room. Lilith is a bit mad at me for messing it up but I could not help it I lost a book and I really needed for class. I am counting down the days until you and I are together and happy once again.

With love
Eden

 

[Selwin Snape]

Selwin was in a bit of bind right now. He had two important exams tomorrow for his muggle university and was studying like crazy. 'Gotta study, gotta study, gotta study. Selwin kept thinking to himself over and over again. There was a lot of material to cover, but Selwin was determined that he would pass his exams with ease. Studying for nine hours straight, he wanted to now take a little break. Right then, he noticed an owl standing at the window and just starring at Selwin. "Right then..." Said Selwin as he took the note from the Owl, read it and then started to write back to Eden.

Dear Eden,

It's good to see that you have made it clear to both your mother and father. I understand the concern your mother has, so down worry, I'll keep you safe and we will not be doing anything serious. I know the reputation your family has in Japan, so not to worry. Like I said before, your family is now my family as well, so it's now also my responsibility to keep up with everything in the family as well. I cannot wait to see you either. There isn't a moment which passes by where I don't think about you. Truly I am VERY much excited to see you again.

I suppose lying can be done for a good reason such as protecting herself or her children. I see that as being a valid reason. I can see that Nozomi is a very special child as well and keeping her away from your father's evilness is the right thing to do. Just out of curiosity, why don't you or your mom want your father to find out about Nozomi? What's he going to do about it? I mean, I know he's the leader of the death eater's in Japan, but he can't do everything. I know he's really evil and everything, but he can be stopped. Nothing is impossible. Well, I have two exams tomorrow and I'm studying like crazy right now. I'm gonna get back to studying again and hopefully will pass the exams tomorrow. Hope to hear from you soon.

Love you,

Selwin S.