Lights and Shadows

[Sianna Djordjevic]

Sianna was pretty happy with her new position, though it was more work, she was very happy with it. She couldn’t help the smile which graced her features every day that she was able to pin the badge to her uniform and walk around the school showing it off. Today she had decided that she needed to brush up on her photography skills, she’d said in a letter to Gavin that she wanted to do something more with her pictures and given that she was deciding between what to do with her life following school. The teen wasn’t sure if she wanted a real job, she wanted something that would guarantee her money and a safe future or photography, and because he had mention just sending in picture, Sianna was deciding that this would be a good thing for her to do too. Sianna knew she had to pick soon, and the moment of leaving school was fast approaching. She had done well in all the previous year, she’d been doing well, and her work on the yearbook opened up a lot of things to do with photography, but she wasn’t certain of any of it. If that was what she wanted. The girl was just glad she helped run it too, that at least gave her new and better experience.

The prefect just needed more than portraits and specifically portraits of the school students, there was so much she could take of the school, some landscapes of the castle, the lake for reflections, the common rooms, but she liked the gardens most. There was so much of her time spent in the school a little out of it was good, so the gardens was where she was. The teen had decided to dress casually, she had her normal clothes on as she wandered through the garden. It was still winter and only the smallest of flowers were growing, but she smiled at it. Moving her camera so she could as close as she could without ruining it. Ensuring that she could take the picture she wanted and different sorts of them. The teen smiled to herself as she moved it, really enjoying the cold air the winter air provided. Sianna was happy, this was a good thing, she was happy. These picture would help her, they would help her decide the future and these beautiful little snow drops pushing up through the earth would help.
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[Aminia Rosendale]

Aminia Macksimov had determination and fire in her eyes this year. Besides wanting to acieve grades fit for someone of her intellectual level, she also had a goal to become more human - at least towards Lennon. However she'd been unable to locate him, as if he wanted nothing to do with her since she'd sent that letter. How could he not still be pursuing her. He'd been infatuated with her since day one. Over the break Aminia thought maybe it was because he had been interested in her looks, but her personality faltered - but she tried not to listen to that voice that told her such. It wasn't her that wasn't good enough for Lennon - it couldn't be...

Aminia was released from her thoughts when she locked her eyes on a familiar figure - one she'd studied. It was that of Lennon's "close friend" Sianna. Maybe she had something to do with the reason her friend was not still pursuing her. She didn't even mean romantically. She wish the way he assuaged her fears of incompetency - the deep insecurities fed on the darkness that was there when someone wasn't complimenting her. Aminia's pace had quickened before she found herself by Sianna's side. The blonde, in her thick Russian accent, spoke. "Where is your boyfriend?" Her eyes narrowed, a sneer in her voice. "

 

[Sianna Djordjevic]

Sianna was very lost in her own world when she heard a voice beside her. The voice was familiar and Sianna wondered what hellish devil had decided that he would ruin her great day, her going great day. The teen sighed slightly and turned to look at the girl. Of course this girl was looking for Lennon and accusing her of being his boyfriend. The prefect wondered for a curious moment if this girl didn’t know what Sianna had said to Lennon. She had been done with him by the yuleball of the last semester, she was happy to be Lennon’s friend but emotionally she wasn’t invested in him. Only as a friend, and it was fine to her, she was happy. Being Lennon’s friend was better and she wasn’t then involved with this mess. Although this didn’t seem to be true, since she was being dragged into it again. Sianna sighed, ”Come on, Aminia,” the girl said, with a roll of her eyes, she was so done with this girl.

”One, I don’t know where Lennon is at all times because I don’t stalk him or feel the need to know his every move, and two, he’s your boyfriend, not mine,” Sianna gave the girl a forced polite smile. She didn’t care what this girl did with the information, she wanted to be left alone now. The teen didn’t care. She hoped to whatever god that perhaps Aminia would not bother her any more with this, ”Now, please, I am busy,” She wanted to shoo the girl away, but she knew with this girl that would only cause more hassle. Sianna could admit that Aminia was pretty but boy Sianna didn’t think her personality was that great at all. She just hoped that was the end of it. Mostly Sianna just wanted the peace she had had to enjoy taking the pictures that she had been taking.
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[Aminia Rosendale]

Aminia angrily eyed the blonde before her with a mix of detest and curiosity filling her golden colored orbs. Her boyfriend? Why on Merlin's green globe would this photography amateur think that Lennon was her boyfriend? The russian ballerina wasn't anywhere near ceasing her questioning of the fellow Ravenclaw - she felt she deserved to know what had been happening to them. And if Lennon really had stopped pursuing herself, then why was he not with this other attractive teen? Was it perhaps because he knew it would hurt her feelings? Or was Sianna really so blind that she didn't see how amazing Lennon was. When did Aminia start thinking he was so great anyways? This whole situation shouldn't have mattered.

"Busy with what? Being..." Aminia stopped. "Who is it I'm kidding I don't even have the energy to be mean. What is going on between you and Lennon?" The tone in Aminia's voice changed drastically and while many would call it a mood swing - the truth was Aminia felt no threat from the girl at the moment and thus her guard began to crumble - leaving behind the true reason Aminia was questioning. She missed Lennon. He wasn't telling her things, telling her about his family or saying he was happy to see her. She missed that so much and frankly barely registered it. It wasn't even a romantic need. Aminia had mostly secluded herself with her icy behavior, scared to let her guard down and that people would take advantage of what little trust she had - she'd done that in ways with Lennon. She of course hadn't taken all her walls down, but he'd etched into some of them a friendship that meant more than Aminia had ever had the nerve to admit. That was why she ran, and what brought her here now, questioning the girl.

 

[Sianna Djordjevic]

Sianna didn't know what this girl was going to do, she was slightly weirded out by what was happening with her, they'd never really had a civil conversation, nor had they ever really talked about anything other than Lennon. The girl frowned at her, "Not the energy, that's a surprise," Sianna replied with a surprised tone. She didn't know anything about this girl, but it wasn't anything positive, it was just weird, empty and negative. However the girl's next question made her glare at her. This was stupid. How could she not realise that they were just friends, they'd always been friends. How could Aminia not even realise it. She was friends with lennon, how had Lennon not ever talked about the fact they were friends. It was stupid, "Aminia, Lennon and I have always just been friends," Sianna told her with a tone that expressed that it was obvious.

Sianna had looked back at her camera and towards the plants at the area that she'd been taking a picture of. The teen sighed heavily, "Look, I can admit, I had a crush on him," Sianna shrugged slightly, "But, I don't any more, I don't need that kind of drama in my life, I'm happier with him as a friend," the teen nodded at Aminia, hoping that would at least stop her from whatever this was. The teen was sure it wouldn't work, she was sure that Aminia wouldn't let it go at all. After all, why was she here with her, why on earth did she care about it. After all, Aminia was the one that Lennon was now interested in. The one he had always been interested in, "I thought you guys were already dating? Or at least that you were beginning to date," Sianna had been sure of it, of course, he hadn't spent much time talking to Lennon about it, they had other things to talk about, like her prefect position their respective positions in school publications, she guess but she didn't actually know at all.
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[Aminia Rosendale]

Aminia could easily understand why her lack of energy would surprise Sianna. Patiently the Ravenclaw listened, looking at her feet for a moment before glancing back at the pretty Serbian beside her. She shook her head and rolled her eyes at Sianna's observations. "He hasn't told you I'm the wicked b**ch of the west?" She inquired, using a muggle pop culture reference that was deeply ingrained by her Babushka whom watched old muggle films repeatedly. "No. I decided he would not be a suitor that would make me happy." The words were strained as they came out of Aminia's mouth and every fiber of her screamed that it wasn't her she was trying to please. "I figured he would have wrapped around you by now. After all he was wrapped pretty cosily with you at the dance." There was a spiteful tone to her voice, and in a way she sneered inwardly at her accusation - almost getting a kick out of making someone explain themselves.

 

[Sianna Djordjevic]

Sianna looked at Aminia from the flowers and was surprised that she honestly think that he would talk about her with him, ”Why would we?” the girl responded with a look of surprise, ”Our conversations were about other things, the world doesn’t revolve around you Aminia,” the teen said with frustrated expression. Why on earth would she talk about Aminia with Lennon. She was even surprised that the girl hadn’t latched on to the boy, she had figured she’d be setting what ever plan she had into motion, she wasn’t sure she believed what she said at all. Sianna was sure that Aminia was pursuing him, she could definitely see that. The girl shook her head at her, ”Oh no, his eyes were all on you, the moment you started doing whatever theatrics you were doing, he was gone,” The girl told her honestly, ”And what does it matter anyway, I liked him then of course I was cosy with him, but given the fact that even being a little close to him brings your possessive hellfire upon me, I’m not interested,” Sianna stated bluntly, ”Nor will I ever be, as long as Aminia the banshee is somewhere close,” Sianna had just been looking for a quiet place to take some pictures, forget about the boys in her life, but this girl was just bringing it to her. God, she couldn’t understand what Lennon saw in this girl.
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[Aminia Rosendale]

Aminia looked down at the ground and listened to Sianna's words. Was she really that bad? Of course she was why wouldn't she be. She was just like her mother, but without a bird face when she got angry and without emotions of steel. the blonde swallowed thickly and felt a hot tear spill over her waterline. Aminia had spent every year of her life after she found out what perfect was trying to reach that. Her Mother always said friends and enemies were nothing in the long run - you were the person all eyes were on. And Lennon's eyes had been on her. But did he look at her as a Banshee too. Is that how everyone saw her? Aminia's shoulder shook and another tear followed closely. Aminia didn't dare look up as she found herself speaking. "I'm sorry." She spoke in a voice that wasn't as mature, wasn't as calculated. It cracked under the pressure of tears. "You don't have to worry about me anymore. I.... I only came over to pick apart at whatever Lennon saw in you. I'm sorry." she continued to apologize transparently, before turning away and raising her head. She needed to walk with pride even with tears on her face. Whether Sianna accepted the apology or not it didn't matter - Aminia knew that her emotions, jealousy, and perfectionism would never change anyways. What was the point in trying. No one would ever believe it anyways.

 

[Sianna Djordjevic]

Sianna was almost surprised by the emotions that appeared to be on Aminia's face. Sianna had clearly finally managed to strike a nerve. Sure, Sianna didn't feel particularly good at it, but god, this girl was just so frustrating. She got angry and was trying to push her buttons and got upset the minute that Sianna had said something. The teen shook her head at her, she wasn't looking for any apology, she wasn't going to apologise for making her cry or making her upset. After all, the emotions crossing this girl's face could just be fake, she could be just trying to fool her into believing that the girl was upset so she'd get an apology when really she wasn't at all upset and was just looking for the attention. She was sure that in part she was just looking for the attention. "Well, if you're all done, then please go away," Sianna said, hoping that at least now she would leave, and it appeared that she was doing just that, "Thanks for ruining my morning Aminia with your awful presence," she called after the girl, just happy that she was seeing the back of the girl and that she was leaving, hopefully going to bother someone else. She had tried to be kinder to her, to try to just be nice because she didn't think this girl was worth her time, but that hadn't helped anything. Instead the only way to really get Aminia to leave her alone was to be mean. She hoped that Lennon would know what he was doing with this girl.
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