Closed I'm half of who I used to be

[Isaac Kain]

Despite the fact that Isaac had moved schools, and become better acquainted with an education he enjoyed, he couldn't shake the feeling that something was missing. He knew exactly what the problem was but he refused to believe that it's cause was the sole reason for him feeling this way. He had been a different person around Sophie, by which it had been the only time he'd never had to pretend to be anyone else, and could outright tell her anything that was on his mind and know she wouldn't judge him for it. After dating for two years, they'd mutually decided it was better to be friends, and while Isaac knew in the long run it would be better for them, he still felt as though he'd lost a part of himself when they'd separated.

He sat on the floor in the Courtyard of Ilvermorny, a book in his lap as he was lent back against the bench, He'd been trying to reconnect with old memories but it wasn't going so well for the seventh year. All it was doing was making him miss the Ravenclaw even more. He had an attachment to what they used to have, and while he knew even if they were still friends at Hogwarts, able to spend their afternoons together, it still wouldn't have been the same as it once was. Absent mindly he was doodling on the pages, although of course nothing he was ever going to draw would compare to the images she'd made.

 

[Katy Miller]

As fun as holidays were, Katy always kinda missed being at school. It was more fun to be out and about and surrounded by people. Though she figured it would probably take like two weeks for things to get boring again. Stretching her legs, Katy cut through the school courtyard, slowing her walk as she spotted Isaac sitting alone nearby. She hadn't seen too much of him really since they met last year, but when she did he always seemed to be alone. He certainly looked like he could use some company now. Mind made up, Katy strode over. If he needed some more friends, she could probably set him up.
"Hey, Isaac, what're you doing over here all by yourself," She asked, perching herself on the bench next to his head and leaning down to catch a glimpse at whatever he was reading. "Are you doing the whole loner thing on purpose? I could introduce you to some people if it's not like, part of your whole mystique or something." She offered happily. Katy didn't have as many friends in the years above her, but she was sure she could convince someone to hang out with Isaac if he needed a little ice breaker, no big deal.

 

[Isaac Kain]

"It's nothing new," he commented once his eyes had met with the voice, realising it was the girl, Katy, from the ball he'd met last year. He was so used to being by himself that it didn't even bother him, in fact sometimes it was quite nice. "The whole loner thing, is what I'm good at," he stated, turning back to his work. As considerate as she thought she was being, he didn't need anyone trying to set him up with new friends. He had enough of those. Well, he had two. Well, one. Maybe. If Katy considered herself to be one that was. "I don't tend to talk to people unless I really have to," he admitted. He still wanted to work one day as a Healer but it wasn't as though he was going to befriend his patients. Talking to Katy had been a one off, and while it had been fun at the time he wasn't sure he had a huge amount in common that he would have sought her out, not that he was going to admit that to her face. Sophie had been different though, they'd always been on the same wave length, and was the only person who'd understood why he did what he did. "What are you doing out here?" he asked her, curious as to why she'd come out towards him anyway.

 

[Katy Miller]

Katy frowned at Isaac's response. She wasn't very good at reading him yet, but even if it was a joke, it was a sad one. "If you're already so good at it then you clearly don't need any more practice," she said keenly, entertained by her own logic.
"I'm talking to you, obviously," she said, kicking her heels against the bench. "You should try it more often, you might actually make some friends," Katy didn't know if Isaac was shy or antisocial or what, but it seemed a waste of a perfectly good senior year sitting around by yourself looking broody. "Why don't you have lunch with me and some of my friends?" She asked, already running through a mental list of the older students she knew. "It'll be fun!"

 

[Isaac Kain]

Isaac didn't really know why Katy was trying to help him. She'd only met him once after all and that was ages ago. The girl seemed to like getting involved with other people, and while he had to admit that last time they'd spoken their conversation had been interesting, what was to say their next one would be too? Isaac didn't usually do the whole friend thing either, he usually found it easier to be away from people who would judge him, just as Katy was now. "I don't want, to be friends with your friends," he said sternly, not looking up but trying to keep his eyes on his paper. It it were Sophie, she would have just taken a seat and accepted what he was going to do rather than try to change him. He didn't mean to be rude, but he didn't think socialising with a bunch of fifth years was going to do him any favours either. "You're kind of cool I guess, and I appreciate you looking out for me," he had to at least try and be polite even if he didn't fully mean it, "but I don't think that's a good idea."

 

[Katy Miller]

Katy shrugged, non-plussed at Isaac's protests. "Okay, we can find you friends I don't know, I'm not bothered. But you shouldn't spend your last year of school all alone," She said insistently. It didn't matter who it was, but Isaac surely needed at least one or two friends. It had to be awfully lonely switching schools so late and Katy knew he'd make much better memories if he had more friends. "Only kinda cool?" She laughed, shuffling from her spot on the bench to drop down next to Isaac. "It's the perfect idea, trust me," She said adamantly. "Everyone needs someone to hang out with and stuff. Isn't there anyone in your year maybe who you wanna talk to? I'm an excellent ice breaker, as you have seen in action." She said with a grin. She could figure out a way to help Isaac, she just needed him to give her a little something to work with here.

 

[Isaac Kain]

"What's wrong with that?" Isaac was starting to get irritated by the idea that Katy was always trying to involve herself with his issues. It wasn't even like they'd been friends for long at all and now she was acting like she knew him. "Why are you trying to solve my problems?" he asked, looking up at the girl who dropping down beside him. "Look, I don't know anyone in this school, and I don't really want to. Once I graduate I will be out of here and then there's no reason for me to keep in contact with friends I make. Friend's don't stick around, okay?" he said firmly, only now realising that he was saying these things because it felt like his friendship with Sophie had been lost. What was the point of him making friends, even the close ones, if you could just go back to square one with them. She had probably forgotten all about him by now anyway.

 

[Katy Miller]

Katy sighed when Isaac just got defensive. Some guys were just so stubborn. "Because it's school! You're supposed to look back on it with fond memories and stuff. At this rate, you're just gonna remember sitting alone in courtyards," Katy said, pulling a face. "I like to help," She answered simply, making herself more comfortable. Maybe Isaac would get the message she wasn't going anywhere. "We're friends," She added for emphasis. "Man, who hurt you?" She said sadly as Isaac went on. He seemed like he was talking from experience, and yikes. "Seems like the only reason you're not keeping any friends around is because you're not trying." Katy had never had trouble keeping in contact with friends. She had several friends and family even now on the other side of the globe and she was still keeping track of them. Isaac just needed to calm down a second, and he'd get it. Even if she had to drag him kicking and screaming into this friendship, she was going to make him lighten up before the school year was over.

 

[Isaac Kain]

“Yeah, well I guess some people are luckier than others,” Isaac hadn’t exactly hated his time at school, it had its moments, but he wasn’t going to force things to happen either. He didn’t want to talk about Sophie, it was like the only thing he had left that was separate to his current life. He knew he wasn’t trying, he didn’t want to put himself in shoes of caring about someone just for them to leave again, even if it was mutual. He was fed up of Katy trying to find him a solution, even she would leave him too when he graduated. How were they even meant to stay connected when school was just a stepping stone to the beginning of their lives? He turned to face the girl, angry and confused that she was still pushing the whole conversation. In an effort to get her to stop asking questions, he leant over and pressed his lips against hers for a moment. Either she’d stop pushing her inquiries or she’d leave him alone properly after this.

 

[Katy Miller]

"It's got nothing to do with luck-" She said exasperated, suddenly cut off when Isaac leaned over and kissed her. She let him linger there a few moments, too shocked by it to really react before putting a hand on Isaac's shoulder and gently pushing him back. "Wow, um, okay. Are you sure you're really committed to this whole loner act?" Katy said, laughing a bit at the sudden awkwardness. Isaac had kissed her. After spending this whole time telling her he just wanted to be alone he went and kissed her. He hadn't struck her as the type for impulsiveness, and he didn't quite seem like one of those weird kids who fell in love with the first girl who was nice to him, so Katy was completely blindsided. "If you do that again though, I might have to slap you." She added simply. She didn't mind giving Isaac a pass for now, still too caught off guard to be angry, but weirdo loner aesthetic or not, you couldn't just go around randomly kissing girls. Especially if Katy was planning on introducing him to some of her friends.

 

[Isaac Kain]

Isaac didn’t think he was doing so bad considering it had been years since he’d kissed someone. As soon as he felt her hand on his shoulder though, Isaac realised his plan wasn’t going to work. He turned away with a roll of his eyes, standing up and pulling his jacket a little closer as he reached for his bag, throwing it over his shoulder and shoving his hands in his pockets. “I don’t need your help,” he stated once again. He didn’t want to get slapped but if she was going to just keep asking him questions then it was his cue to leave. He didn’t realise that with this new school came a new set of people he’d have to avoid too. He wasn’t committed to anything and that was the beauty of it all. He was free to do whatever he wanted, the seventh year was going to make the most of it.

 

[Katy Miller]

Katy was still focusing on trying to lighten Isaac up when he got to his feet, walking away before Katy could even start to get to her feet. “Isaac, wait come back-” She called after him, but it seemed like Isaac was already intent on leaving and Katy dropped back onto the bench dejectedly. How was it that Isaac had kissed her and yet she felt like the one who’d just messed everything up. There had to be more to this than Isaac just wanting to be alone. Nobody wanted to be alone, not really. Katy just had to figure out why he was so dead set on it. Feeling better about her resolution to regroup, Katy hopped back onto her feet.