Ai Nightray
mum • all of it was worth getting here • loyal
- Messages
- 8,627
- OOC First Name
- Marga
- Blood Status
- Mixed Blood
- Relationship Status
- Married
- Sexual Orientation
- Demisexual
- Wand
- Straight 14 1/2 Inch Unyielding Redwood Wand with Augurey Tail Feather Core
- Age
- 11/2018 (33)
As Ai Edogawa lay on her bed, she couldn't help but think about how much of an idiot she was. It was nearing the end of January and the second semester was already starting. Normally, she would worry about all of her duties. Quidditch, Heta Omega, Head Girl. But right now, those were the least of her worries. How could she have been so stupid to fall for him? She even refused to say his name anymore than necessary. After she had given everything to him, he had just left her like he didn't even considered their relationship or he didn't even acknowledged the friendship that they had before everything. And even knowing her current condition, he still refused to accept her, refused to acknowledged that she needed him. He had chosen Arianna over her. It just wasn't fair and she couldn't even bear to look at both Gryffindors anymore. They had left her alone through all this, and now that she needed someone, anyone, most, nobody was there with her. With a groan, she stood from her bed and opted to take a walk on the school grounds.
Ai had decided on casual clothes for today seeing as she didn't have any classes yet anyway and it was still too early in the year. But for Ai, her childhood and teenage years had already disappeared before her. All that was left was a girl desperately trying to become a woman for her own sake and her child. Yes. She now bears a life inside her and though she was young, she could not bear the thought of just ending her problems. No. Even if the father had left her alone to deal with this, she would try her best for the child at least. But as she walked and eventually arrived at the lakefront, her hand rubbing her tummy where she knew the child was, she couldn't help but think if she would be able to handle this. How could she? The child would grow up without constantly having a father, she didn't have friends, she didn't have a family. She would not give Ryuuji-niichan or Grace or Shiloh the burden of caring for her. She knew they were disappointed at her, and truth be told, she was disappointed at herself as well. She was such a disgrace and now she knew that she really wasn't right for any kind of status that had been given to her. As she sat herself on the grass by the lake, her hand lazily wandering on her belly, she couldn't help but ponder on her thoughts and one stood out amongst all others. She was an idiot who never deserved any achievements in the first place.
Ai had decided on casual clothes for today seeing as she didn't have any classes yet anyway and it was still too early in the year. But for Ai, her childhood and teenage years had already disappeared before her. All that was left was a girl desperately trying to become a woman for her own sake and her child. Yes. She now bears a life inside her and though she was young, she could not bear the thought of just ending her problems. No. Even if the father had left her alone to deal with this, she would try her best for the child at least. But as she walked and eventually arrived at the lakefront, her hand rubbing her tummy where she knew the child was, she couldn't help but think if she would be able to handle this. How could she? The child would grow up without constantly having a father, she didn't have friends, she didn't have a family. She would not give Ryuuji-niichan or Grace or Shiloh the burden of caring for her. She knew they were disappointed at her, and truth be told, she was disappointed at herself as well. She was such a disgrace and now she knew that she really wasn't right for any kind of status that had been given to her. As she sat herself on the grass by the lake, her hand lazily wandering on her belly, she couldn't help but ponder on her thoughts and one stood out amongst all others. She was an idiot who never deserved any achievements in the first place.