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Eloi Kristiansen

eldest brother; homeschooled
 
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21
Blood Status
Mixed Blood
Relationship Status
Single
Sexual Orientation
Gay
Age
16
Eloi had been waiting for this eagerly. He didn't have anyone else to tell, anyone else to talk to. He had Zerrin and he always felt like he was annoying him, being too much. After all, his life, his whole everything was too much, to ask someone to become involved was a lot, though he had appreciated that Zerrin's family had really pitched in to help. It just...he couldn't always. His mother didn't love it, no matter how much he reminded her that it was not for her. He hadn't told Zerrin's family about what he'd found out, though he was sure telling Zerrin would make them find out, but he was just, he just needed to tell someone safe before he told anyone else. Eloi had tried to dress nice, he wanted to make a good impression, but his hair was all over the place, his trousers had paint stains, and his shirt was old. He had arranged for them to meet at the park, thankfully without the kids for once, but he didn't exactly have money or any places he knew. So this was it. He was sat on the swing and waiting to spot him, half convinced the other boy wouldn't show.
 
Zerrin was eager for a break. He'd been so busy at school, trying to focus on being a good example, but it was hard. He had thrown on his favorite pair of jeans and a cute, form hugging ribbed sweater. It was light enough to not be too hot. He was running a little behind, but he'd hurried down as soon as he'd noticed he was late. He jogged up to the park, his hair a mess, smiling and waving when he spotted Eloi on the swings. He picked up the pace, half jogging and half running over, sliding to a stop a few feet away. "Hey!" He greeted, smiling brightly. "Sorry I'm a little late,"
 
Zerrin was late. That wasn't a particular comforting thought, the longer he was late, the more Eloi thought he had misread the relationship, the more he thought he had misjudged this. it didn't matter that all of the letters he'd received pointed to the opposite, it didn't matter that he was sure it was just that he was running late and would be there as soon as. He felt relief flood him as Zerrin turned up, and he smiled at him. "It's okay," Eloi stood up to greet him, almost going for a hug, but stopping, unsure of himself. "It's good to see you,"
 
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Zerrin saw Eloi start to move for a hug and he fell into it, immediately leaning in and catching up his friend in a tight, pick-him-up hug. "It's really good to see you," He agreed, leaning back from the hug. He smiled, reaching up with one hand to try and straighten Eloi's hair while the other stayed loosely around him. "You're really rocking this disheveled look," He teased gently. "How many kids had you waylaid this time?"
 
Eloi near fell into the hug, holding on tightly for as long as Zerrin would allow before leaning back and letting Zerrin adjust his hair. He near leaned into the touch, into the affection shown to him. He gave a tight smile at what he said. "It's just me, they're with my mum for some of the day," he said, and there was a tightness to his tone. "How was the end of your semester?" he asked, not wanting to get straight into it.
 
Zerrin raised a brow, seeing how much Eloi seemed to need the attetion. He ignored the question and shifted slightly, looking around. Spotting a tree nearby, an idea hit him, and he turned back to Eloi with an almost impish grin. "What do you say we go curl up under that tree and cuddle a while?" He offered. "You could use some rest."
 
Eloi followed his gaze to a tree, and then looked back at Zerrin. He wanted that, wanted just a moment to exist without his head telling him all the different things he needed to now think about. Eloi gave a small nod and then wrapped his arms around himself. "I'd like that," he said. He smiled softly motioning a little with his head for Zerrin to lead the way, "But, before we rest, there's something I gotta tell you," he said, if he rested, he knew there was every chance he just didn't tell him, and he needed to tell someone.
 
Zerrin had started towards the tree but stopped when Eloi spoke. He turned back, brow raised. He offered out his hand. "Then tell me," he encouraged, looking around and spotting a bench between them and the tree. "Wanna sit down with me?" He questioned, wanting to give Eloi the option to have a little more comfort for whatever news he needed to share.
 
Eloi had been following Zerrin and then gave a little frown. he moved to sit at the bench and then looked back at Zerrin. he hadn't answered the question, and had just sat down. His leg began bouncing under him immediately, even as he pressed a hand to his own knee to make it stop. "My mum's pregnant again," he said, ripping the bandaid off by just saying it. "She promised me that she'd be more careful, Tyr wasn't exactly easy for her...and now...we don't have the space....I just...She promised me,"
 
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Zerrin sat with Eloi, though he paused for a moment as his friend let it all out. "Well, damn," He murmured. He shifted, reaching out to offer both hands for Eloi to hold. "Hey, breathe," He encouraged. "Look at me." He waited until they'd locked eyes. "We're goig to make it through this. You're not alone this time. I have one more semester, more or less, and then I'll be back full time. And my parents are around. You're not doing this on your own anymore." He hesitated for a second before he pulled one hand back and reached up, cupping Eloi's cheek in his hand, brushing his thumb over the skin. "I've got your back. I promise."
 
Eloi looked at Zerrin's outstretched hands, and took them, he took in a long deep breath and after a moment met Zerrin's eyes as instructed, and then he nodded. He wasn't alone in this sure, though he couldn't burden Zerrin with it, even when he was done with school. he could rely a little on the boy's parents, but they already had enough of their own kids to worry about. He leaned into the hand on his face and sighed softly. "I know, but, I just, I'm worried, and I'm tired,"
 
Zerrin smiled softly. "I know," He murmured, his thumb rubbing gently against the boys cheek. "I know, Eloi. We'll get through this somehow, I promise. It'll be easier and easier as the rest of the kids get older." He promised. "I'll steal you away more. You just need to rest. Come on." Zerrin stood, trying to pull Eloi up with him. "I believe I promised cuddles. You could use a nap."
 
Eloi leaned into the touch and smiled, letting himself just believe what Zerrin said, to believe that it would get easier, as he had always thought, it just with another kid, even as they got older, he still had plenty to take care of. He let himself be pulled up and nodded. "Tyr hasn't been sleeping well, will only sleep if I'm next to his crib, and then the twins love waking me up all too early by jumping on my chest," there's a fondness in his tone even as he complains. Eloi loves his family, his siblings even when they're ruining his sleep.
 
Zerrin chuckled, walking over to the tree. He conjured up a few pillows to lean against as he sat down, and once he was comfortable he held open his arms so Eloi could curl against him. "Well its just us, and I promise to give you a decent nap before waking you up," He teased. "And I'm sure we can figure out a few mornings where you can sleep in,"
 
Eloi followed Zerrin to the tree and then moved to sit with him, to curl against him when he let him. He felt relieved, happy to have finally told someone, to know he had the support from him. Even if he felt bad. Zerrin was a head boy, he was successful, there was no way he really wanted to be dragged down by a kid with so many siblings. "You're so nice to me, I'm sorry every time we meet up or write, all I can talk about is the kids," he said with a sigh.
 
Zerrin chuckled, wrapping his arms around Eloi and playing with the boys hair. "Hey, don't worry about it. I talk about my siblings all the time, too. I just have extra support at home, so I can get away more." He hummed. "I can understand how overwhelming it must be. But I've got you, it's alright. We'll figure this out."
 
Eloi leaned into the touch, leaned into him, and sighed softly. Part of him was so grateful for him, for him wanting to help out. For providing him with the support he had needed. He was and had been for a while just truly overwhelmed, and only now with the help of his family was it easing. "Tell me about school," he asked.
 
Zerrin hummed at the question. "Well, it's been a little stressful, honestly. Being the head boy is a little... overwhelming for me, but it's entirely my fault. I just want to have this really good speech, you know? My siblings are bound to read it in the yearbooks eventually. I just want it to be something they can be proud of," He sighed. "I'm probably just, I don't know... I guess I just feel like the outsider sometimes and I'm trying to earn my place." He admitted, voice soft. It had been more than Fraser had asked, and Zerrin was a little embarrased to realize he had teared up a little. He reached up and swiped at his face in what he hoped was a subtle movement.
 

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