- Messages
- 302
- OOC First Name
- Alexis
- Blood Status
- Mixed Blood
- Relationship Status
- Single
- Sexual Orientation
- Homosexual
- Wand
- Curly 10 1/2 Inch Sturdy Cypress Wand with Fairy Wing Core
- Age
- 32
The holidays were well underway and although Zara had many things to do at her grandparents home her mind always went to Darcy. She thought of telling her all that she hid and how the girl's reaction would be to her truth. Some were fantastical and some were awful but Zara felt lighter the more she imagined it. The tightness in her chest was manageable and it left her with only one conclusion: She had to tell Darcy. However, Zara knew that she could never tell the girl face-to-face because she was nowhere near as brave and bold as she would have to be for that. Instead she looked at the family owl and knew the only way Zara could be truthful was through a letter. Words were never her strong suit because she muddled them up and never got across what she wanted to but they would have to do today. So once everyone else had gone to sleep Zara wrote a letter and sent the owl off, hoping that if there was a response from Darcy it would be positive but more than that everyone in her house would respect privacy and not read any response she got. She wasn't ready to tell Lennon. Her heart hurt at the thought of losing him and one step at a time was the only way she could take this.
7/19/2044 said:Dear Darcy,
I'm writing because I have something difficult to tell you and I can't tell you face-to-face. It's far too hard to imagine doing so but I hope that even though I am writing this down you will do me a kindness and burn this letter after you've read through it. I trust you enough to know that you will not share this with people as I'm not ready to do so. Only one other person knows and it is Xavier Jeffreys.
The reason I caused a stir last winter/summer and sent you home was not because of anything you did. In fact, I'm not sure why you weren't more angry with me because there was nothing you did wrong. This was the reason I broke up with Asaiah too as I couldn't face lying to him even though I so wanted it to be the truth. I had to face the fact that I like girls. You're relationship with Olivia helped me to realize that I want what you two have but I'm not brave like you are. I suppose the reason why I caused our fight was because I knew that it was strange to have certain feelings towards girls and I lashed out at you for it. I'm sorry for that. I've tried so hard to hide this since I've found out that I can barely talk to Lennon and the only person I spend my time with has hobbies that are the most disgusting things one could imagine.I deserve it for being so immoral.I'm still not sure how to consolidate this but I felt I had to tell you.
I hope this hasn't furthered the wedge between us because you are my best friend and I want to remain that way but I will understand if this has.
Zara.