I ran from that boy

[Jessame Rose Trewelly]

((This occurs after the dance))

JR heard Tohoru call out to her, but ignored him. She ran outside, into the night. She'd kicked off her shoes and was running barefoot. Her long floral dress was restricting her movement, so she hitched it up above her knees and ran faster, not watching where she was going, just running to get away. It was the first time she'd run since returning to Hogwarts. She felt the old feelings coming back. The hot tears ran down her face and she ran across the wet grass in the cool summer night.

Every step was a reminder of all the times she'd used her magical powers, an brought with it the violent feeling of nausea deep within her. She knew she couldn't run far enough though. Not far enough to get away from magic. And not far enough to get away from Tohoru. How could he have done that to her? And the other girl too. Even if she had called JR a tramp, JR knew it was wrong of Tohoru to have cheated on her. What a low thing to do!

Suddenly she found herself at the cliffs, the place she'd run to last time she'd lost it here at Hogwarts. She remembered her talk with Sam and wished he were here again to comfort her. She knew he'd been curious about her good mood of the past few weeks, but she hadn't told him about Tohoru. She wondered if he knew now. If he'd seen it all, like nearly everyone else in the school. She crumpled onto the ground and curled in on herself, wishing she could turn back time. It was so embarrassing. And it was all Tohoru's fault.

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden had heard and seen everything that had happened at the dance there as no way she could not have. The poor girl being dragged into this and deep down Eden knew she was to blame. So when she had seen JR run from the hall with Tohoru right behind Eden followed at her own pace there was no way she was running her dress would not let that happen but she could still move fast. Seeing the girl fall to the ground Eden walked over to her and took a seat in the grass next to her. Gently lifting the younger girls head Eden placed her head in her lap and brushed her hair aside so that she could wipe away the tears with a tissue.

"Your not the only girl that Tohoru has made cry but I can assure that it is a small club of girls that have had there heart broken by him as we have. I know who you are but I don't know if you know me. I feel like all this is my fault and if it really is than I am truly sorry." Eden could feel the tears gathering in her eyes but she would not cry not right now when this younger girl was in a great deal more pain than her.

 

[Jessame Rose Trewelly]

JR felt someone lift her head. The hands were so gentle, they reminded her of her mother, so she let whoever it was hold her and dry her tears. When the other person began talking, the words came to JR as if from far away, like a voice-over to a sad story. "You're not the only girl that Tohoru has made cry but I can assure that it is a small club of girls that have had their heart broken by him as we have. I know who you are but I don't know if you know me. I feel like all this is my fault and if it really is than I am truly sorry."

Sniffing back her sobs, JR lifted her head to look at her strange comforter. She had no idea who the girl was, so how could it be her fault? "How do you know me? I don't know you. But it's not your fault. It's no-one's fault but Tohoru-Bloody-Koshiba." She thought the girl would surely agree with her if Tohoru had indeed broken her heart as she said.

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden nodded her head. "I am Eden Koshiba, Tohoru's first girlfriend. We where engaged our third year his family adopted me and my little sister Lilith because both of our parents have passed on. I changed my last name to his becuase I figured we would be married in a few short years so why not." Eden paused for a moment. Taking a deep breath before she continued. "Tohoru and I started to grow apart. It was to late we ended up breaking up and ever since than he has been like this telling girls what they want to hear and than breaking there heart. Until you and Hilde he started dating her and than he met you and you became his girlfriend. You where different to him. I have never heard of him standing up to protect the image of a girl other than myself before tonight." Eden wanted to say that she thought Tohoru was in love but this young girl had been through so much already that it seemed almost cruel to say it.

 

[Jessame Rose Trewelly]

When JR first heard the girl's name, she looked at her in shock. How could this girl be a Koshiba? She looked nothing like Hoshi and Tohoru. Then she suddenly realised what a judgemental thing that had been to think. After all, she was a Trewelly, and she looked nothing like her parents. But then... she was Tohoru's first girlfriend? What kind of family was theirs?

Eden quickly explained away most of JR's confusions, but also created more. The first thing she said was, "I'm sorry about your parents. I guess Tohoru's parents must be nicer than he is, to take you in... I think Lilith is in my year. I've never talked to her though." At this last bit she hung her head in shame. She hated to think someone was going through the loss of their parents and JR had done nothing to help. "Why don't you change your name back?" At the same moment that she asked the question, she suddenly had a thought, and felt she knew the answer. Surely the only reason to keep his name would be that she thought she'd end up with Tohoru eventually?

So why was Eden telling her that Tohoru felt differently about her? Little tramp-on-the-side-JR? "I hold no illusions that I'm any different to him than... Hilde if that was her name. Well, he probably liked me less, because he wanted to keep everything about us a secret. Everything he said was a lie. Why should what he said in there just now be any different?"

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden smiled. "Yes the Koshiba family is very nice indeed if not for them Lilith and I would not have been able to continue to go to Hogwarts. Lilith a strange one she tends to keep to herself always scared of getting hurt by someone so she has no friends except for me and her boyfriend." Eden felt bad for Lilith ever since there mother had died she had become even more withdrawn.

"I keep the name out of love and respect for his mother and father. They have given both me and Lilith so much that I feel more like a Koshiba than I have ever felt like a Luna." Eden would not lie at times she wondered if her and Tohoru would end up together again but the time for that was long gone. She was engaged to another now and to break up with him would be stupid.

Eden sighed. "I do believe that by him standing up for you and not taking off the sweatshirt it was his way of saying it. I know it seems like he liked you less than Hilde because he hid it but I saw him chase after you. He's hurt badly but he still chased after you. Never have I seen him ignore his own needs for others. I am not saying what he did was right it was most wrong and Hoshi and I will deal with him once we are back in Japan. It's a shame he told me about you and how he could not wait for you to meet mother." Eden pushed the thought away and continued to run her fingers through JR's hair. JR needed someone right now and Eden was most likely the only one that understand what was going through her head.

 

[Jessame Rose Trewelly]

JR stifled her sobs. They were less violent now and she managed to open her eyes and look out at the sea as Eden stroked her hair. She had loved Tohoru. He was the first boy who'd ever paid any attention to her romantically, and boy! was he romantic! She'd always felt so sure in his arms. She'd felt like she was someone special, and all her other worries melted away when she was with him.

But the events of tonight had cut her deeply. She didn't think she'd ever felt so betrayed, even when she thought about her biological parents and how they could just abandon her. Listening to Eden, JR wondered how Tohoru had turned out so awful if he had such a nice family. She wished she could go back in time and tell him to bugger off the moment she'd met him.

She was feeling bitter, but she had loved him so strongly, and so recently, that what Eden said next made her burst into a new set of tears. Had he really loved her? If he had, how could he be so heartless as to have treated her like that? That Eden said she'd never know him to put anyone else before himself shocked her. In JR's eyes, Tohoru had only ever done things for her over himself - well, except for the fact that he had a whole other - real - girlfriend. "He really told you about me?" she managed to ask through tears and hiccups. She wasn't sure if that her feel better or worse. She had honoured his request to keep their relationship a secret, even from her closest friends - but he'd obviously told who he wanted. But was it true what he'd said? Did he really want to introduce her to his mother? She gave herself back to the tears and let them flow down her face. Her chest heaved with the sobs. She realised it must be almost midnight - almost her birthday.

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden sighed all the things that where most likely going through this poor girls mind. Eden hated Tohoru even more so in that moment of all the girls that he could have toyed with he had to pick the one who's emotions where so fragile that the smallest thing would break her. O Eden would be having a talk with that boy this time she would not play so nice. If he thought that a dip in the Lake had been bad just wait till he saw what Eden had in store for him this time around.

Sighing deeply Eden looked up at the night sky. She was not sure what to say to help this girl or even if there was a way for her to do that. Eden heard JR ask her a question and Eden was not sure how to answer it the truth was what Eden wanted to give the girl but than again could the poor girl handle it? Deciding that she had not lied to her yet Eden was going to tell her the truth. "Yes Tohoru did tell me about you. Even though we hate each other once upon a time we felt something for each other and we still care. He told me all about you and how he felt bad about what he was doing but he just could not seem to stop. He knew in the end that you would find out but he was hopping that maybe he could find a way to fix everything." Eden paused she did not know how to continue nor was she sure if she even wanted to. Was it really her place to say what was in Tohoru's heat and mind? Deciding against it Eden continued to set there and play with JR's hair it was easier this way. Maybe if JR came right out and asked it Eden would tell her but until than she would keep somethings a secret.

 

[Jessame Rose Trewelly]

As Eden explained how she'd come to know about JR and Tohoru, a new hatred grew up within JR. "If he really cared he should have broken up with Hilde! Now she thinks I'm a tramp and she told everyone at the ball, and everyone thinks that now and it's all Tohoru's fault!" she cried, sitting up abruptly. "I meant what I said in there: I wish I'd never met him." JR sighed. "Maybe that would have been better for both of us."

Looking at Eden in the starlight, JR wondered what had happened between her and Tohoru. "Was he always like this? Why did you two break up?"

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden sat there as the girl all but screamed in her face. "Hilde does not think you are a tramp nor dose anyone else. A little but silly for believing everything that Tohoru told you but a tramp no. As I was leaving Hilde was realizing that you where just as much as a victim as she was even more so because you kept everything hidden." Edens heart went out to this young girl it really did but she would only take so many outbursts before she had, had enough and JR was reaching that limit. "I think that
Tohoru now knows what it feels like to hurt and for that I am glad that you met. I wish you had not gotten hurt but if it will teach him a lesson than so be it."

Eden closed her eyes for a moment this girl really wanted to know why her and Tohoru broke up. That was a secret that only her and him knew. To everyone else it was a mystery and Eden had hopped to keep it that way but it did not look like that was going to happen. "No Tohoru was not always like this when him and I first got together everything was perfect never in a million years would I have broken up with him if I had known this would happen." Eden did not want to tell this girl why her and Tohoru had broken up that was the last thing she wanted but she had no choice. "Well last year I decided to do something very foolish that Tohoru did not agree with he did everything he could do to talk me out of it but I refused so he gave me a choice him or what I was doing. I chose to continue on with what I was doing and he left. I was heart broken but as time went on I realized that Tohoru was starting to act like his father and it was all my fault." Eden knew this girl would hate her but Eden did not regret the choices she had made.

 

[Jessame Rose Trewelly]

JR sulked as Eden said matter-of-factly that no-one thought she was a tramp. She agreed that she was a little bit silly for believing Tohoru - not just silly, idiotic! She'd never believe another nice thing a guy ever told her! "Well great," she thought, sarcastically, "So long as poor lickle Tohoru learned his lesson!" She chose not to say anything, though. She could tell by Eden's tone that she was wearying of being the sensible, unemotional shoulder-to-cry-on. JR sensed she might still need this dark-haired girl yet.

She listened to Eden explain what it used to be like with her and Tohoru. It sounded like they had been very very happy. JR couldn't imagine what Eden might have done that Tohoru didn't approve of, but it sounded like they'd never really wanted to break up, rather that they'd been forced by Eden's choice. If that was true, then Tohoru probably still loved Eden, and that was why he was such a **** to other girls. JR wondered momentarily if she should hold this against Eden, but she still felt too much resentment towards Tohoru. "At least someone made him suffer," she thought. "Just a shame it wasn't in front of everyone, like it was tonight!" She was confused though, when Eden said Tohoru was starting to act like his father. The way she'd said it made it sound like a bad thing. "I thought you said you like his dad?" she asked. "And what did you do? Was it rally so bad that you had to break up." She was sitting next to Eden now, pulling herself together.

 

[Eden Silverback]

Eden rolled her eyes. She was starting to wonder why she had come out here. Her dress was slowly starting to get damp around the edges and her father had paid a lot for it. Eden would never wear the dress again but still she did not like to get her things dirty. Pushing a strand of hair out of her face Eden sat up a little straighter. Eden would force herself to stay calm thou she might need this girl sometime down the road and pushing her away now would not solve anything.

Eden waved her hand in the air. "I do like our father. He is a very kind man and he treats me like his own, but he likes to go through women like they are tissues. A new one every month if he can have it his way." Eden looked down at her hands why did JR have to continue to so many questions. "I can not tell you some things are best left unsaid. Just know that I was the one that broke him down and made him what he is. You broke that all down and maybe just maybe he will start acting how he used to be." Eden stopped talking she was not going to say nothing more on the subject.

 

[Jessame Rose Trewelly]

JR considered Eden's words. She seemed very grown up, and Jess wished she could be a little more like the older girl. Sometimes, and especially tonight, she felt very much like a stupid child. Never mind what everyone else thought of her, JR thought herself a right fool for having believed anything Tohoru had ever said. Well, she wouldn't make that mistake again. "Thank you, Eden," she said, softly. "I'd be a complete mess, with millions of unanswered questions if it weren't for you coming out here." She didn't really know what else to say, but after a moment, made up her mind. "Tell Tohoru I never want to see him again. I really loved him, but I won't let him walk all over me like that." Until then,she hadn't been sure. Perhaps if Tohoru had followed her out and told her all those sweet things he was so good at saying, she'd have forgiven him, but she decided she had to be strong. Eden had obviously made a hard decision, and she seemed like a strong person. That's what JR was doing now. For all her words earlier, she wasn't sure. But now she'd made up her mind.

She'd made up her mind, and it was going to be hard, but it was for the better in the long term, just like the decision she'd made to come back to Dumbwarts. JR resigned herself to the fact that nothing at this stupid school would be easy, and she would be tried, but she was now determined not to give in. "Well, now that Tohoru's ruined all our nights, let's go back and at least make sure he isn't dancing with anyone else. If he is I'll kick him harder than Hilde did." She allowed herself a small smile at the thought. "I hope you and Hoshi do make him pay during the break. I'll be stuck here." "Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday!" she thought, sadly. It was time to put this episode of her life behind her. Tohoru was history, and so was that stupid, innocent JR. Time for the older, wiser JR to shine through. She wasn't a kid anymore, she was a teenager.