Hold On

[Indianna Lee]

the late spring air was like a warm breath, sweet and sticky against the soft curve
of indianna’s neck as she grazed a restless hand there, the other glued securely
inside her friend’s. or did she have to spell him out as something bigger now? indi
tried to keep the niggling thought at bay as her hand grew stiff inside of falcon’s,
uncomfortable as she allowed her thoughts to eat away at her mind. it weren’t as
if she didn’t like him because she did, a lot. though maybe it just wasn’t quite in
the right way, the way that falcon might have hoped. ever since the semester had
resumed though there had been an air of change about the pair and yet indianna
still wasn’t able to rid her mind of what had transpired between her and sam or
rather, what hadn’t. it had been so long, growing on several months since they’d
last shared a word. after all her canned attempts at scripting a letter and what she
was sure must have been his presumably successful restoration of his relationship
indi and sam had gone from forever to no more in the space of a flutter of eyelids,
the pucker of lips, a tilt of the head, the acceleration of their hearts as they had
sent each others racing so wildly out of control. they had almost kissed. almost.
and probably would have were it not for the intervention of his teary-eyed blonde
bombshell. even just thinking about her pretty face and all that she must take for
granted in sam had the sixteen year old verging on frustrated tears of jealousy. if
she had known what it would have done, what it would have ruined, indi would
never had let her heart fly the way it had done so that day. anything not to miss
him, anything not to still have him in her head every single day and yet not having
the chance to act upon it. she’d give absolutely anything to stop having to wonder
if she’d ever meet with those ocean blue eyes ever again. these thoughts had to
stop though, they would all too soon drive her to the tip of insanity. sam had riley
now and she had falcon and that was the way that things were going to be.

stepping out onto the cobbled path earned indianna a few unwelcome glances of
strangers whose attention had been caught by the latina girl’s exotic figure. it had
been a little daring of her to try out a cropped top in the midst of the sweltering
heat, gracing a thin slip of skin on her midriff with the coolness that came from its
bareness. under the heavy folds of wool of her form-consuming, old sweater back
in france, indianna had never been given any sort of look from anybody except for
falcon, audrey and a sparse few others. but now things were changing, indianna
was balancing delicately in between child and woman and with her seventeenth
birthday etching ever closer, the girl was beginning to notice things about herself
that she had never exactly paid attention to before. things that still made her as
subdued and as self-conscious as ever but in a different kind of way. indi curled
her petite 5’2” body into falcon’s as if attempting to hide from the glances and as
his arms came to curl back around her in return she pressed her lips oh so lightly
against his cheek. but the gesture just seemed to jitter her further so instead she
leant up on her tiptoes in her boots and fitted her chin over his shoulder. and all
of a sudden her breath was stolen away from her, her pulse danced excitedly in
her neck and her heart trembled, half way between falling and soaring. but it was
not because of falcon, it was a pair of bright blue eyes that swallowed her whole.

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[Sam Prince]

when the truth is, i miss you.

yeah the truth is,
- - - - - - THAT I MISS YOU​

enragement. bewilderment. jealousy. it all confounded the hufflepuff as he received exactly
what was coming for him for a long time now. but the sight of indianna strolling the almost
idle street hand in hand with some mysterious bloke hurt sam prince in more ways than one
as the seering hot coffee dripped onto his left hand which had remained in mid-air since he
spotted the enchanting girl. the same girl who plagued his thoughts, filled his stomach with
a herd of fluttering butterflies and who had he had unconditionally fallen for the moment he
laid eyes on her. it was only as he quickly shook the hot coffee off of his hand that pulled
his heartbroken eyes away from the sight that pretty much changed everything he planned
to do. it was pure naivity to think that a girl like indianna lee wouldn't find someone new in
an instant or that some boy wouldn't find her and realise how damn lucky he was to have a
girl like indianna. because for sam, even just knowing a girl like indi was enough to make
him realise how damn lucky he was. just being in her presence was enough. he figured that
it was something he should have seen coming but there was always that niggling thought at
that back of his mind, that indianna lee would wait for him. now he realised that that selfish
thought was just plain childish and unrealistic. at the time he had riley, they appeared to be
happy to onlooking students and more importantly to indianna. the truth remained though,
that the day indi walked into his life his relationship with riley had slowly fallen apart. it was
the reason why sam - after only officially breaking things with riley not more than a week -
felt only guilt as he now returned to a single status.

his long fingers tightened around the coffee stained parchment that he had been struggling
on for most of the glorious morning. it was the one reason that sam traipsed out of the
castle on a day like today searching for some sort of inspiration that would suddenly fix the
lack of fluidness in his writing that had barred him from making some sort of apology to his
'friend'. at this point there were far too many pursuits of writing to indianna to count, each
piece of paper crumpled up in balls that overflowed from his bin in the corner of his dorm
room. but the thought of seeing the girl in brightstone the day he decided to actually make
contact with was painfully ironic and with out any real command, sam's weary gaze now
returned to indianna. with every move she made closer to that boy, sam's fingers curled
into a tighter fist, crumpling up the letter as they did so. his heart thumped heavily and
firmly in his chest as everything became cloudy and unfocused around him, everything but
her soft lips against his cheeks, his arms as they curled around her petite waist, her breath-
taking eyes as they met his own. it actually took sam a couple of seconds to completely
become conscious of the fact that she was looking right at him. her eyes enveloping him in
a flood of feelings, clouding his senses completely. indi managed to look just as beautiful as
she always did, if not more now. but still sam panicked, it was all too obvious that he saw
her and her, likewise. so sam frantically, weighed out each possibility in his head of what
he should do in a moment like this but with his heart beating at his ribs and his stomach
churning to the point where he felt as if he was about to hurl, the boy decided to simply
just walk away from it all, from her. and so, with a slow blink of his eyelids, breaking all
contact with indianna, sam turned on his heels and walked in the opposite direction. the
sharp edges of the crispy crumpled page pricked at his palm, but it was the least of his
worries now for the seventeen year old had just got his heart broken for the first time.
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[Indianna Lee]

sam? her lips melded around the phonetics of his name, the very one that held the
keys to her heart, and yet no such sound parted her mouth. even if she had wished
to speak she wouldn’t have been able to, sam prince had stunned her into silence.
indianna’s gold flecked irises caught him, held him for another heart beat as she
began to subconsciously etch his handsome face into the walls of her mind. but his
expression had the girl fumbling all over herself. if a face spoke a thousand words
then sam prince’s spoke a million and every last one of them deafened her as if
they had been screamed into her ears. indianna chewed down on her lower lip with
pearly white incisors, a nervous habit some would say but it was the shattered look
upon his face and the way that it made her feel inside that had indianna wondering
if it was a guilty one instead. truth be told, that look wasn’t all too unfamiliar when
she herself had been wearing it but a few months ago. dare she think that he might
feel the same way that she had always felt about him? did he love her? because
simply just baring an interest in someone would not instil so much pain, hurt and
heartbreak in one’s wide rimmed eyes. the tips of her fingers dug desperately into
falcon’s shoulder as she tried to fish for the answers in sam’s eyes. but his eyelids
slipped over them and the ocean blue was no more as he turned to leave indianna
with nothing but the sore, lonesome sight of his dejectedly slumped shoulders. the
beat of her heart seemed to fall into perfect time with the strike of the soles of his
converse sneakers against the pavement, bruising a uglier shade of blue with every
step further that he took from her. and indianna realised then that she wasn’t over
him, she still wasn’t over him and by the ache in her heart she never ever would be.

sam! hot tears welled against the rims of her eyes, threatening their tell-all descent
down her cheeks as she stood there in falcon’s arms watching as the boy she loved
slipped further and further away from her. with a trembling jaw she mouthed his
name again, as if doing so might silently draw him back to her. but her efforts were
all in vain, sam wouldn’t just wander back to her. not now anyway, she had hurt
him. she had hurt him! if there was only one thing on this earth that she would not
vouch for, then it was that. muttering some plausible excuse about how she had
forgotten that her grandmother had wanted to meet her at madam puddifoot’s, indi
wriggled from falcon’s embrace and tried her hardest to keep the harmonies in her
voice strong and unwavering. even just to recall those broken blue eyes would see
the raven-haired girl in an incomprehensible mess. it only took a second to bid her
goodbyes, but a second was a second too long because as indi’s multi-hued gaze
glided over the scattered pedestrians in the street, sam was no longer anywhere to
be seen. the soles of her lace-up boots thudded urgency against the cobble stoned
ground, she needed to find him. it mattered not what she was going to say or do
when she did because it was all lost on her but she just needed to find him. she’d
have to say something, anything to make amends but what words could possibly
stitch up this most horrific case of bad timing? rounding a corner now, indianna’s
loose curls whirled about her shoulders as she swept her head around for a sight of
that shaggy brown hair that she had once curled her fingers into. and to her utmost
fortune, indianna felt her heart thud wickedly out of its own limits. meaning one
thing only – there sam prince was sinking further into the rows of stores that lined
the street. indi was unable to contain the shriek inside of her any longer, “sam!”

the twenty yard sprint towards him was so cinematic that indianna grace was just
waiting with baited breath for the director to yell cut. but no such cry came as her
heart beat exploded inside her chest or as the nervous butterflies inside her threw
themselves with suicidal strength against the walls of her stomach. no one stood by
to keep her from falling and there was no script that she could mull over the lines
of for hours until she had them perfect. and sam, no matter how handsome, sweet
or charismatic she knew him to be, was not a hollywood heartthrob. he was just
sam and she was just the girl that could be charged with the contempt of his heart.
just a few more paces and she’d be there. three, two, one. before him she stood
breathless, heavy breaths consumed her chest and the likes of her bare midriff, her
hazel green eyes bereft as they caught his shyly. so many emotions overcame her,
but none stronger than the guilt that shamed her or the love that had weakened
her. “sam, i don’t...” indianna could not bare it any longer, her gaze tumbled to the
ground and the distracting red canvas of his sneakers. “i don’t know what to say.”
the sixteen year old had never felt lower in her lifetime, nor as guilty or as sick to
the stomach as she did now before sam. “i-i’m sorry.” but all she really wanted to
say, and all that she was terrified of saying was, i love you, i love you, i love you.

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[Sam Prince]

when the truth is, i miss you.

yeah the truth is,
- - - - - - THAT I MISS YOU​

the giddy laughter quacking from the band of girls that bustled past sam on the street only
annoyed him further. the image of indianna wrapped around that boy was still plaguing him,
tempting him almost, to turn right around and punch the living daylights out of that guy for
even touching indianna like that. jealousy didn't cease taunting him either, it contorted and
twisted his thoughts into a burning rage until it came to a point where sam had to drop his
coffee into a nearby bin, just for his own safety. the soles of his converse banged against the
smooth surface of the street with each step he took while his shoulders became hunched as
his hands dug deeper into his jeans pockets. but if it wasn't for the disheartened blue eyes
of the young man it would almost be wise to avoid his path entirely. he bent his head low
now as the sun shone directly onto him, burning the skin of his neck through the strands of
his shaggy brown hair. all thoughts seemed to have filtered through until there was simply no
more left. until his mind went blank, cleared from his jealous rampage, his breathing slowly
resumed to normal and his pace reformed into a slow aimless walk. but sam wasn't realeased
from the lovesick knots in the pit of his stomach as the fact remained that indianna was now
presently with some other boy and he could do absolutely nothing about it. he just wanted
to keep walking, out of brightstone, back to hogwarts where he wouldn't see indi or her new
'boyfriend', he wouldn't have to continuously grieve over the fact that he had let her go all
those months ago. yes, because sam prince had finally come to the conclusion that he wanted
nothing more to do with indianna lee.

but if only things had worked out that way, for it was just a few moments later that sam heard
the definite exclaimation of his name from behind him. causing sam to freeze up as a whole. that
voice, oh that beautiful sweet voice. it was only there that he realised how much he ached to hear
that velvet voice as a dry lump in his throat began to swell. he didn't want to turn around, he just
couldn't. it would absolutely obliterate the promise that he just made to himself. yet the clamour of
footsteps running up to the street made sam push his pride to the side and turn around to face her.
there was a bubbling urge inside of sam to run and meet indianna only to whip her up in his arms
and to kiss those desirable lips of hers. yet sam's converse stuck to the grey pavement because
although that all sounded lovely, indi had a boyfriend and he had messed up too many things in her
life already. so he simply stood, practically frozen as indi made her way up to him looking painfully
gorgeous. was she doing this on purpose? did she want him to literally turn green with envy? care-
fully, sam's bright blue eyes slipped down indianna's fairy like figure all the way to her boots, craving
for the touch of her skin against his own once again. awkwardly sam took his hands from his pockets
and folded them across his chest making sure to leave the crumpled piece of paper in his jeans pocket.
she couldn't see that, not now, she had moved on, and so had he. well, at least he'd make her think
that. he took his eyes off of the ground and stared reluctantly into hers, cautious of how they'd make
him feel. and then she spoke, her words tumbled slowly and carefully from her lips and as she looked
away, sam sustained to watch her. it pained him to see her this way and to know that he was the cause
of it all once more. he stood, however, like a stupid mute, and refused to comfort indi as she helplessly
searched for something to say. "i-i'm sorry," were her words of choice and without any actual movement,
the guilt inside of him swallowed him whole, dragging him down so he felt about the size of goblins toe.
he felt just about the worth of a goblins toe too. "yeah...well, me too." he mumbled semi-grumpily and
removed his gaze from indianna and simply starred to the side, unable even to see her at the corner
of his eye. he was sorry. sorry that indianna had moved on to someone who definitely wasn't deserving
of her. sorry that she hadn't even tired to make contact with him over the past couple of months. and
although he didn't actually send her a letter, at least he had been trying. whereas indi on the otherhand
just made out with good looking french snobs. the fury blazed in sam once more but this time he couldn't
even look at her.

beneath all of his anger, jealousy and guilt sam knew he was completely out of line for blaming indi for
everything that happened, because if it wasn't for him, and him alone, they wouldn't be in this mess. the
fustration of it all made sam wonder if indianna was actually worth it? the answer to that question came
immediately to sam. yes, she was worth every bit of it. she was worth more than what sam had to offer,
or what he had offered her in the past, but that didn't mean he was just going to give up. she was standing
in front of him which was a clear sign that she wasn't entirely over him. sam's heart began to pound harder
in his chest, as a rush of feelings spread through him. electrifying him from the top of his head to the tip
of his toes. it silenced his feelings of anger and jealousy quite nicely. he looked back over at indianna as
she starred at the ground avoiding his eye contact. blinking slowly, sam tried to think of what to say that
would fix this, that would bring things back to how they were because even those times were better than
that present moment. "look indi.." he began slowly, his voice soft and steady with his signature british tone
trailing his accent. "i...u-um.." he stuttered still trying to find something to say that would show her how he
felt, or what he was thinking. but it wasn't all that possible seeing as his thoughts and feelilngs were far too
numerous right now to actually pinpoint a specific one. he spoke after a tired sigh and shrug of his shoulders,
"i've tried writing..apologising for how things were left off...um..at the beach and all." if there was a sentence
more awkwardly spoken than that in history, sam would be quite surprised. but then again sam was never
good at apologies and the fact that this time it was to indi was just making things that much harder.
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[Indianna Lee]

indianna didn’t need to see sam in order to sense the clutter of emotions on his mind,
the struggle with what to possibly say, to have to return her apology with something
that could sum up these past few months of broken hope and wishful thinking. and
after having been startled by the unfamiliar tone that had initially tumbled in the loops
of his british accent, not that dissimilar to her own, the sixteen year old wasn’t quite
sure that she wanted to see him anyway. where had sam prince gone? the one that
had undoubtedly and unknowingly caused her to fall so helplessly for? where was
that devilishly handsome smile, or the sparkle in the deep ocean of his eyes? what
about the laughter in his voice or the confidence in those strong shoulders of his?
where had that sam and all those pieces of him disappeared too? still, the girl could
not bear to look at him for she knew that she was guilty of not only stealing his heart
now but every last smidgen of happiness he had left to preserve. if only she had not
thought so foolishly to kiss him and if she had trusted her instincts, the very ones that
told her to run and take cover, then they would not be standing here in this awkward
fashion whilst other happy couples bustled by in blissful ignorance. and still even as
they seemed so detached, so alienated between themselves, indianna could not
swallow the urges that sent the butterflies in her stomach berserk. she remembered
how he had smelt when he had tucked her into his arms, just there against his collar
was the most freshest and purest scent indi could every remember inhaling and as
she darted her feverish gaze momentarily to sam’s neck she realised that it was all
so close and yet all so unreachable. his embrace seemed a million miles away right
now. and those very same arms had wrapped around her waist and spun her about
in joyous circles until he had gotten her dizzy and giggling, as if she were no more
lighter than a fallen feather from one of the gulls on the beach that day. she missed
them, she missed the way they could make her feel, the way he could make her feel.
to hell with it, she missed sam prince more than she could have ever imagined it
possible to miss one soul, one body, one heart and one boy that had stolen hers.

her name parted from his lips and indianna found herself hanging off every vowel,
every constant, each syllable in the affectionately shortened version as her doe eyes
lifted timidly. they hooked onto sam’s beautiful blues for the briefest seconds of a
moment and prayed that he might let that sweet sound echo from his lips once more
but he returned with a stutter, a fumble, just like the one she had made before. it was
so hard for her to speak when she knew that each word that wasn’t admitting how
she truly felt about him was doing collateral damage. but indianna wasn’t near brave
enough, she was selfish and she’d be the first to say it. she would lie most of the
blame on the drunken antics of her father though, things she had never shared with
anybody but audrey, not even sam. and how possibly could she? how could indianna
stare him straight in the eye and drown him in the reasons of why she was scared of
falling for him? it wasn’t moral and she wasn’t big enough to confess it and lay every
single last gritty detail of her past out to him. her hazel eyes observed the exhaustion
in the shrug that he gave, the tired sigh that escaped his chest and the raven-haired
girl couldn’t help but wonder if it was her that he was tiring of and the games that he
might perceive her to be playing. though all indi’s self conscious, degrading thoughts
seemed to simply fly from her mind at sam’s words. it were almost as if they were
coming from her own lips, awkward phrasing and all. because if indianna had gotten
a galleon for every piece of parchment she had wadded up and tossed into the waste
basket, then she might have been able to pay for the airfare to hop on an airplane
and fly across the world the muggle way just to see him anyway. “sam, no...” the girl
pleaded softly with wide and glassy gold-green eyes, just begging for him to let her
take the responsibility. “it was my fault, i shouldn’t have tried to ki-” indianna stopped
herself before her heart raced too far ahead as even the first breath of the word sent
back intoxicating memories. “i was out of line, i’m sorry.” she dared to meet his eyes
once again, her heart drumming a wicked beat inside of her chest now, just the sight
of sam set it racing. but now she shook her head at him, managing only a soft smile
that didn’t quite reach her eyes, or the corners of her mouth for that matter but it was
a smile nonetheless. “you have no idea how many scribbled out pieces of parchment
i canned back in france.” and suddenly her smile turned to a trembled, repressed
frown, one that had her fighting back tears as she remembered exactly why she had
never been able to finish the letters. “i didn’t know what to say to you sam, i didn’t
know if you were angry with me or upset or hurt. i thought things must have gotten
better with riley but i guess...” her teeth latched onto her lower lip, forcing back the
tears and the heartache she didn’t feel like letting go of. a deep breath shuddered
through her tiny body, thinking of what could have been if they had just sent one tiny
letter. “i guess i was wrong... right?” indi’s eyes shimmered in the blistering sunlight
as she tried to imagine what would break her heart anew; him having gotten back
together with riley or her having thrown away a perfectly good chance with him.

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[Sam Prince]

when the truth is, i miss you.

yeah the truth is,
- - - - - - THAT I MISS YOU​

what confused sam the most about all of this, was that indianna was apologising to him? it
didn't make sense in the young man's mind - albeit not a lot did when it came to the opposite
sex. she almost seemed to carry a certain level of surprise that he was apologising, when it
was all sam's fault that they were in this awkward phase of their, 'friendship' thats if it could
still be called that. now that their friendship was all but dishevelled memories, sam wasn't sure
wheter or not to piece them back together and start all over? or wheter to just leave them
with the pain and heartache that caused them to shatter entirely which would mean that he
would have to leave behind indianna and as he stared into those colossal worried eyes, he
was certain, that that was not at all a possibility. yet, as she carefully threaded the waters
of their almost kiss, sam had to look away. the guilt still haunted him, he had lead her on
without a single thought of his girlfriend - well, ex-girlfriend - in his mind. it was cruel to two
of the people he had cared about most, ultimately losing them both. a sense of gratitude
and relief shooed away the guilt that irked in the corners of his sinking stomach as indi,
dared not even mentioned what almost happened but instead admitted that she too, had
attempted at writing something which made sam so very, very happy at that moment in time.
she wasn't just making out with handsome french blokes afterall! was his immediate reaction,
his second one and most prominent one being that she still cared, cared enough to write him
those letters and for that, sam wanted to take that one stride that would close the small
distance between the two teenagers, and hold her in his arms, reminding her that he too,
still cared.with all this sense of elation warping sam, he managed not to become too ahead
of himself, and it all quickly faded as he spotted the trembling lip of the saddened indi that
stood before him. again because of him.

he opened his mouth to speak, to murmur a comforting input, reassuring her that he didn't
blame her for anything that happened. but when she spoke of riley, his mouth jammed shut
and his palms began to sweat against his jeans and so sam, awkwardly folded his arms
against his chest once more. but still, there was no way he was so easily dodging the
subject that he knew would've had to have been spoken about, if he had ever seen indi
again. he just wasn't expecting it to be so soon. her voice echoed in his ears rising at the
end of her sentence, initiating that it was a question that needed an answer. sam swallowed
the dry lump in his throat and simply nodded his head, his eyes found their way back to indi
and rested there as he spoke, "right." although it was just one word, it was enough. sam
tucked his lower lip in as he tried to think of something that would soften the obvious reason
for his break up with riley, but no words could possibly argue the truth, that indianna lee
had so oblivously stolen his heart the moment he laid eyes on her. but that was just it, she
had stolen his heart and she still had a hold of it so why were things so impossible? sam didn't
want to continue playing this game of 'whose fault it was' because, to be honest, it wasn't
all that fun. sam looked away before looking back at indianna where he found courage and
confidence from the frustrating situation at hand. "so where does that leave us then?" he
blurted out in annoyance with himself and the current circumstances, he shrugged his hands
and his shoulders abruptly along with this. he stared down at indi, but didn't allow her to
answer just yet, he was going to take charge of things because tip-toeing around the reality
just to save some awkward tension, was not how sam prince handled things. well, not
anymore. "indi. i...really, like you. so much so that these past few months have been killing
me because i couldn't stop thinking about you and....how we left things. but when it came
down to actually writing to you, i simply couldn't." sam briefly looked away from indianna,
pausing but not yet finishing, "and i don't know who that guy is-" sam waved his hand in the
direction where he had seen the pair, "but i know you still like me otherwise you wouldn't
be standing here right? so, here i am, pouring my heart out. and if you don't feel the same
way, just turn around and go, but stay if you think we stand a chance...being 'friends' with
you is just too damn hard..." his words were spoken with force, speed, and with heart. leaving
him totally breathless and trailing off by the end of it. he wasn't even sure if his rant made
much sense or wheter he just completely lost this last shread of dignity, but he didn't regret
any of it. his eyes gazed back into that of indianna's searching for some sort of reaction,
while his heart raced with anticipation of what she thought of the bomb he just dropped on
her.
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[Indianna Lee]

“right.” it was one word, one tiny little phrase and yet it spoke all the world to indi. it
was the cue that she had been wanting and wishing for since their situation on the
beach and now, almost six whole months later, it had been handed straight to her
on a silver platter. but as she stood before sam prince, holding it in her heart, indi
found that she no longer knew what to do with it. her eyes traced him, his perfect
face, his tall frame as it stretched up before her and god, those eyes were just like
a catalyst to her heart beat. sam was all she had never known she had wanted and
just because of that, his presence in her life seemed the one most frightening. no
other friend or loved one had ever made indianna feel this lost, this helpless, so stir
crazy or ecstatic in her life time. and it scared her witless that he possessed just so
much power over her and she was in every mind defenceless to stop him, not that
sam knew what he was doing in the least. he scared her in ways more imaginative
than the howl of a werewolf at night or the memories that loomed of her father in
the deepest and dreariest corners of her mind. he scared her because she knew in
the end that he would be the one that would make her or break her, indianna’s fate
was sitting there in the palms of sam’s hands and yet she was silenced to warn him
all she could do was to look on helplessly and pray that he wouldn’t accidentally
ball it up in his fist and toss it into the trash. but for some reason, something on the
edge of her shoulder was whispering the truth into her ear; sam would handle with
more care than she would ever be capable of and that, given half the chance, one
day he would know her completely, better than she would even know herself. but
was she prepared to give herself up just like that? to drop the keys of her heart in
to his denim pocket. for some, most in fact, it was really just that simple but the girl
was far from similar to most. indianna grace was tied up elsewhere as she recalled
all that her mother had told her about love, fretting, shaking, sick to the stomach.

it was much of a blessing that sam just didn’t stop at the question he had asked
because in all honesty indianna would not have had a single clue as to how answer
it. where indeed did that leave them? surely not as friends, they’d blown that right
open with their ‘almost’ kiss. and sam seemed to confirm that when the truth about
his feelings came tumbling out of his mouth. indianna’s jaw dropped open as sam
continued his frantic words, spilling out all the things she had wanted to say but
had just not been brave enough to do so first. a palpitation of her heart struck out
against her chest bringing the young girl to a conscious awareness of its beating,
leaving its wild drumming to drown out all else bar the words that he was speaking.
her timid frame of 5’2 began to tremble all the way down to the soles of her boots
as he pushed forward an ultimatum, one that indianna knew would she would have
to decide upon right then and there in the cluttered little brightstone street. but she
had been frozen, her body didn’t seem capable of physical movement from the
spot where she stood, all too far away from him in her opinion. she knew exactly
what she wanted to do and how she wanted to react but all she could do was play
it over in her mind, again and again and again. the spectacular blue of his eyes
washed over her and like a glass of cold water had been tipped over her head, indi
suddenly woke up to herself when sam obliviously instilled her with a confidence
she never knew she had had. there was one long step between them, just itching
to be filled, and indianna took it with a nervous jitter in her legs. the depth of her
breaths shallowed as sam’s closeness dizzied her silly and sent her whole body
tingling with nerves that cried out desperately for his touch. he was so close in fact
that she could just feel his breath and if she leant her head just a fraction forward
indi might have been able to tell if it was as out of control as her own. but as she
did lean forward, indianna was not focusing on sam’s heart but rather his lips. so as
her thick lashes fluttered to a close, the sixteen year old rocked up on the very toes
of her boots and pressed her lips against sam’s. it was a sensation like she had
never felt before, unexpectedly wet but more perfect than indianna ever imagined it
would be purely because it was sam prince that she was kissing. while she wasn’t
sure if she was doing it right, it felt right so she crept a hand up to curled into his
shaggy locks whilst the other braced against his chest, discovering that his heart
was in fact racing beneath it. it was so long and yet oh too short when indianna
finally broke away feeling as if she had just run a marathon, her entire body shook
as a result of the adrenalin pumping through her veins and still she smiled with a
twinkle in her hazel irises as bright as the sun as she gazed up at sam. “my first
kiss.” the breathless whisper left her and she curled her fingers into the soft cotton
material of his shirt, hoping that this was all the answer that sam needed because
she didn’t quite think she would be able to put all of these emotions into words now.
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[Sam Prince]

when the truth is, i miss you.

yeah the truth is,
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waiting for some sort of reaction on indianna's face to what he just said, was somewhat like
waiting for his owl results, except this was obviously, ten times worse. this time he couldn't
just shrug away the poor results and convince himself that he didn't need them for a career
in quidditch. no, sam could not shrug away the feeling of rejection that would instantly over-
whelm him if indi had choose to walk away. his heart continued to beat hard against his ribs
so much so that he could hear it like a thumping drum in his ears. a drumroll, that continued
mounting to it's climax. he still was in shock with the amount of courage that had just passed
through him to say all of those things, he wasn't denying that it felt bloody great to get it all
off of his chest, but he almost wished that he hadn't said all those things to indi but rather
to jennifer or anyone else that would listen to such a rant. but in that millisecond that indi
moved, instantly withdrew sam from his thoughts and worries and he became all too aware
with what was about to happen. sam's breath became shortened as he inhaled the most
beautifully sweet perfume of indianna lee as she stood so very, very close to him. his eyes
that were locked on hers soon plunged to her lips before resuming their focus on those green
brown irises that were just plain teasing him at that moment, enticing him to lean his head
down just that inch more. although it was just a mere couple of seconds that they stood in
complete stillness, it felt as if time had stopped around them until indianna planted her lips
against his own. marking their very first kiss.

sam ducked his head low, his arms curling around her in an affectionate vice. it was perfect.
soaring far past his high expectations on how this would feel. there was not a thing that sam
would change about their first kiss only that it would be longer. allowing him to dwell in the
pure bliss that it was, just for that bit longer. but opening his eyes to meet indi's sparkling
hazel ones was worth it. oh, it was worth it. his heart continued to beat in his chest underneath
indianna's hand. "my first kiss." came the silk whisper from indianna's lips causing a small
smile to reach sam's face. although there was a certain pride that rose inside sam that she
choose him to be her first kiss, he also had the familiar feeling of guilt boil inside him again
as his previous thoughts about those many french guys she 'made out' with, sparked in his
head. how he could have judged her so poorly was beyond him. as her fingers curled into his
white t-shirt it automatically brought him back to the present, it was almost like a dream,
but yet it was so real. this day was something sam had imagined for a long time but with
the illusion that it would never actually happen. but there he was holding indianna, her hand
still lingering in his hair after their first kiss. sam bobbed his head down once more and planted
a quick kiss on his lips, murmuring all the while a simple, "..second kiss". beneath that simple
kiss was lurking smile, she had choosen to stay with him. to give him a chance and sam
wasn't going to muck this one up. he pressed his lips against hers once more, the feeling
ceasing to fade, "third.." he pulled his head away completely now, his smile reaching his
eyes as he stared into hers. he looked goofy as hell, unable to contain his beaming
expression, but he didn't care, he didn't care if people stared. none of it mattered. because
there was not a thought other than that of indianna lee in his head at that moment in time.
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[Indianna Lee]

indianna lee began to feel her head spin as she melted into the warmth and the
strength of sam’s secure arms around her, and the entire street began to whirl with
it too. the pavement blurred into streaks of black and monotonous grey, the people
that passed by them wound up in a string of listless murmurs, the early summer
sun soaked into every inch of her olive skin and yet indianna was hard pressed to
notice any of it. everything had become splatters of paint across a canvas, all but
sam prince of course even if it did feel tauntingly surreal there in his arms. her eyes
followed the sparking smile that had begun to take a hold of his lips before letting
her own fall to the nature of the very same contagious expression. sam couldn’t
have made her a happier girl if he tried. ever since the day they had first met in this
very village, indi had been waiting and wishing for this moment and somehow, in
some way it had managed to measure up to the bar that dreams and fantasies set
impossibly high. and not only that but it had been even better than in the wildest of
her dreams. how he made that possible, indianna wasn’t sure. all she did know as
she stood in that street curled into the arms of the most wonderful boy that she had
ever know, was that she had the most spectacular times with him in store for her.

thrills and chills and other glorious adrenalin rushes pulsed through her tiny body
when she noticed that sam was leaning in again for another kiss, this one shorter
and more punctual than the last but it sent her already frantic heart into a frenzy
just as quickly. he marked it’s break with a murmur, labelling it as her second kiss
and then again she felt the soft warmth of his lips against hers, “third..” this stole a
bubbling giggle from indianna, one that pitted the sweet dimples into her cheeks as
she stared up into sam’s intoxicatingly blue eyes. so not only had he been her first
kiss but her second and her third as well which triggered a thought in indi’s mind;
she didn’t wanted anybody else’s kisses but his, she had always held herself too
far off from the opposite sex to even think seriously about this kind of relationship
before sam had bounded into her life and opened her right up. there was no doubt
about it, he was most certainly her one in a million. in curiosity her hands slipped
from between the threads of his soft hair and over the wild thud of his heart against
his chest, they skimmed over the tops of his sturdy shoulders and trickled all the
way down his arms, feeling their muscular form beneath the soft caramel fabric of
his cardigan. it wasn’t long that they lingered there by her own waist in the spot he
was holding her in but instead slipped all the way back up to his neck, where one
wound around the nape and the other traced delicate fingers across the strong line
of his jaw, rendering her breathless at his handsome features. how she had ever
found a boy as gorgeous as sam prince would forever be lost on the sixteen year
old but she was not in the least complaining. stretching up on the toes of her boots
once more, indi pressed her lips to his, then to his cheek and finally his ear as she
whispered silkily, “gracias cariño” in the romanticised tongue of her south american
roots, keeping in close for just a moment more as she took in all she could of sam.

excitement was apparent in her beautiful face as indi fell back onto her heels and
grinned up at sam just as he had beamed at her only moments earlier. “so this is it
then? this is us?” even just the sound of the inclusive pronoun on her british accent
had the girl giddy with prosperity, the thought of having sam as her boyfriend would
surely do her health some severe damage. so as their eyes clashed again, as she
wriggled in impossibly closer to him until their middles touched, indianna attempted
not to think about what the very near future would have in store for the both of them
but his precious blue eyes was making it a task far too much of a struggle for her.

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[Sam Prince]

when the truth is, i miss you.

yeah the truth is,
- - - - - - THAT I MISS YOU​

sam didn't want this moment to end, he didn't think he could let go of indianna even if he
tried, for this day, this very moment in fact, was what he had desired for the past three
months. the longest months he ever lived through, in his opinion. but that was neither here
nor there because he would gladly live through them again with the knowledge, that what
was once a simple wish, would become a reality. her fingers now traced his distinct jaw line,
her warm touch against his lightly stubbled cheek sent his heart soaring and the familiar
feeling of fluttering butterflies filled his stomach. it was a feeling that belonged to indianna,
caused by indianna. he didn't think it was something in particular that sparked it all off, he
believed it was her as a whole that did it. her beauty entwined with her melodic voice, her
sweet perfume, her smile. oh that smile. but above all, the very thing that attracted him to
her in the first place, that gentle personality. and so, as she leaned up once more and
kissed him tenderly on his lips, his eyelids slid over his great blue eyes, breaking their eye
contact from their perfectly passive manner, as he reveled in his luck that he was being
kissed by the perfect indianna lee. her lips spread to his cheek while his hands moved up to
her middle back, gently pressing against her dainty body.

"gracias cariño" came the silky purr in his ear of a tongue he didn't recognise but it lingered
in his ear for seconds afterwords, so much so that sam found himself leaning his head sub-
consciously towards indi as she pulled away, drawing him closer until he shook himself from
his mesmerised stance. all it took were two words from a fancy language and he acted like a
complete moran. perhaps her spell on him would ease with time and he would gain somewhat
more control over himself? it seemed unlikely but a boy could hope right? she beamed up at
him then and he found himself smiling down at her affectionately, unable to stop himself.
but the fact remained, should he have to stop himself? were they a couple now? what about
that other boy? the questions began to surround sam once more, clogging up his brain as
they entered. it was then revealed that indianna was thinking along these similiar thoughts,
except she had voiced hers. us. us. what a wonderful way it was spoken. no word had ever
filled sam with as much happiness as that little two letter one had. he began smiling fearlessly
and indianna snuggled in closer to him and in return, sam gladly took her in his arms, his
hands brushing against her bare arms and he held her in an adoring vice. "yeah. this is us"
he whispered as he bowed his head to kiss the top of her head, taking her in fully. this
is us, he thought again to himself. unbelievably glad that he wandered into brightstone this
fine morning. the fact that he might not have ran into indi and that guy made him sick to the
stomach. utterly relieved at the same time, but still, his chances were so fragile today that
it might not have happened at all. he guessed it was meant to be. not that he really ever
believed in that crap but there was no further explanation for it all. there was still a question
lingering in his mind, one that hadn't been answered and he almost didn't want to ask it for
the sake of the beautiful moment they were sharing. but it had to be said. "so that guy..?"he asked
slowly, his voice purposely trailing off so she could finish his sentence or at least form
some explanation for what would happen to the poor bloke now that he stole her from him.
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[Indianna Lee]

indianna pressed her lips against the soft white cotton threads of sam’s shirt just to
keep herself from squealing girlishly with joy when she heard the words roll off his
tongue. the words she wanted with all her heart to believe but somehow couldn’t
fight the shock of it all as she stood curled in to fit against his torso and tuck under
his chin, so perfect it were as if their bodies had been made to hold each other’s.
she hid her smile in his strong chest, keeping it there as her arms slid beneath his
to wind tight around him but indi could not stifle the excited giggle that parted from
her, no matter how much of sam’s shirt there was available to bury it within. he was
her boyfriend, her boyfriend! and of all the girls in the world, all the flawless, leggy
supermodel types that indi was sure he could get if he wanted, he had picked her
to be his girlfriend. perhaps she had had him at hello just as he had her although
indianna had been drowning too deeply in her all-consuming feelings for him to
even notice. there had always been something between them, a flicker of a gaze,
an irregular heartbeat, a spark of electricity that jolted each and every nerve when
ever they touched. something that had whispered to indianna that this was not just
any old teenage love story, that she would not just fall for any one boy but for the
sake of her weary heart, the girl had shaken any hopes free because he had been
riley’s, all riley’s and now here he was, all hers and every single tear that had run
its course down the length of her cheek for him had been worth it. sam prince was
worth anything; her tears, her heart, a month, a year, he was even worth the world.

despite that she should have been expecting the next question that rose from him,
indianna’s stomach lurched in surprise at the feeling overwhelming her. guilt. her
fingers grasped instinctively at sam’s clothing as if he would be able to eradicate
the emotion that had stirred up the elation within her but indi knew deep down that
this was all her issue to resolve. “falcon,” the name on her breath, almost inaudible,
parted from her lips as she leant back in sam’s arms, gazing up into his wonderful
blue eyes and conveyed somewhat of a silent apology through the mixed light of
her own. the look that the sight of her and falcon had slapped across sam’s face
was yet another reason to sicken her stomach as the memory came to play in her
mind. “he’s not... wasn’t my boyfriend exactly.” the white of her teeth glistened in
the sunlight as they chewed in a nervous habit down on the flesh of her lower lip.
yes true, falcon hadn’t been her boyfriend but by the way she was feeling, he might
as well have been. in fact indianna was sure it was worse because not only was
she quite sure that he harboured feelings for her but he was also one of her very
best friends at beauxbatons. indi’s raven locks tumbled with undeserving grace
across her shoulders in a gesture up at the blue-eyed boy, assuring him that he
needn’t worry. because even if her and falcon had faced any slim shot at becoming
a couple it had diminished the moment sam had confessed his feelings for her. it
was as hurtful being caught in the middle contrary to popular belief but there had
never been any question as to which way she would inevitably sway, there had
never been another that could catalyse her heart the way that sam prince did. “i’ll
have to talk to him about us on monday, okay?” the soft palm of her hand daintily
brushed against the light prickle of stubble across his cheek, soothing in its notions
as her doe eyes pleaded with his forgiveness. “but right now, all i want to do is to
spend the rest of the weekend with my boyfriend. what do you say?” she grinned,
her thumb ran its teasing length along his lower lip, replacing it only with her lips in
a matter of moments. the sensation was still unfamiliar but kissing was something
that was all too quickly growing on indianna lee as she experimented with the pace
and the depth of the loving gesture, made a mental note of how he tasted, felt his
heart jump its tracks while hers soared simultaneously into oblivion. her knees all
of a sudden began a gentle tremble whilst her legs turned to jelly at the touch of
the boy she had been waiting for for so long now. despite not knowing what kind of
other kissers there were, indianna could confidently say that sam trumped them all.


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