Dear Anonymous Person

[Raziel Kim]

Half a year had passed since the event that marked the change of Raziel Kim's life had happened. It wasn't really that long ago, yet, for him, it seemed like ages already. The past months had been nothing but hell for him. That's how much it hurt. Every bone in his body seemed like it was going to break and regrow as soon as his transformation into the same creature that had attacked him began. The first couple of times after the attack had nearly driven him insane. Nearly. If not for his family's support, the frail and delicate boy would have broken down already. He wasn't used with this kind of thing. All his life, he had been sheltered and protected. He had been really sickly since he was born, and he had always been different from the others, thus, making his mother think twice before allowing him to attend the said school. His parents had always been there watching over him, protecting him from harm. Who would have thought that a simple mistake would change his life forever? Who would have thought that the first time that he had decided to do something, to be brave and look for his father, would only cause not only him, but his entire family, much grief? Once a month, during full moon, he would turn into this creature which until now, hunts his dreams even though he pretend that everything is fine. Once a month, before the night is over, he would almost wish that he was dead. He will yearn for blood, flesh. He would scratch himself all night long, trying to satisfy that desire. Once he would wake up, he'd be exhausted, unable to move. This worried his family so much. He knew they were scared. Scared of what have become and what will happen to him. His father had taken a safety precaution and built a room under their house, a room that would shelter him and would prevent him from hurting other people during those hellish nights.

After the attack, his mother had been so worried that she didn't want him to return to hogwarts anymore. She was too afraid of what might happen to her youngest child, to her only son. It was a good thing that his father was able to convince his mother that it would be best that he attend the school again. At least, the school would know what to do. No matter how his parents love him, they, after all, could only rely on books when it comes to what they shall do with him. Another thing that had assured his mother was the fact that the ministry already knew of his condition and had promised them that they'll be monitoring him. They had even referred them to someone who, according to them, knew a lot about his condition. He wasn't entirely sure why, but his family trusted the ministry. And that was actually the reason why the young Ravenclaw, though supposed to be sleeping already, was still on the north tower, a letter on hand, thinking whether he should really send the letter or not. His mother had specifically told him that he should write to this person, who, as his parents told him, was named Briar Rowan. He hadn't met her yet, but it seemed like she's the person that the ministry had told them about. He wasn't entirely sure if he should trust him, but he had no choice. He had a lot of things to ask. A lot of things that he still needed to understand. Taking a breath, he reread what he had written.</SIZE></FONT>​

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Dear Ms. Rowan,

Now I do not know what I should address you as, but I think it would be proper to call you Ms. Rowan, is it not? I assume that you already know who I am, but if you do not or if you have forgotten already, which is fine with me since I'm used to people not noticing me, I would introduce myself again. My name is Raziel Kim, and right now, I am about to start my third year at Hogwarts.

I assume that you knew my story already. If not, then, may I request that I just tell it to you on another letter? I apologize but I do not think that I have the time to tell it right now. Or maybe, it's just because I don't want to think about it again. I don't know.

So I have been told that I should not tell anyone apart from my immediate family about my condition. But if that is the case, then, I should not be writing you a letter right now, right? I do not know how you look like after all. But my parents told me that I can trust you, and because I trust them, I'll trust you too. So, I have been told, and even the books that I have read had said that I should do anything that I could to hide my secret. They told me that if anyone finds out, I will be an outcast, I'll be hunted down, even killed. Is that true? If it is, should I really be ashamed of who I am?

Sometimes I wonder how I would be towards werewolves if I were not one myself. Would I hate them, or merely fear them? I'm really confused.

It seemed like the school had taken all the measures to ensure that should there be people like me attending the school, we wouldn't hurt other people. They set up a whole system for those of my kind, so we can transform in peace. I wonder, would there be another student before me that had the same condition as I do? I would love to meet him even though I'm not good at talking with other people. I just wonder how he was able to go through it all.

Now this letter had gotten so long which surprise me really. I really am not like this. I'm surprise to see that I've talked this much, even though it was more like I wrote so much instead of talk. I just have so much that I wanted to know and I do not know who to ask. I'm sorry if I'm wasting your time. I would understand if you wouldn't respond to this letter but I would really appreciate it if you do.

Sincerely,
Raziel​

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<FONT font="verdana">The young Ravenclaw read the letter over and over again. Though it would show on his face, he was actually surprise that he had managed to write that much. He had never been one for conversation after all. People would tell him that he's shy, though in fact it wasn't true. He was not shy, he's just introverted. People often mix them up but they're entirely two different things. He wasn't one to talk much not because he was shy rather, because he just find such long social interaction extremely exhausting. Folding the letter and inserting it into the envelope once again, Raziel looked for the nearest owl to him and watched as it went flying away with his letter.​

 

[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

Briar was at work she had been here for over a year already, how the time had flown. her favorate part about the job was helping the newly bitten. that was why she had jumed at the chance at taking on a nwe case with a young boy who had been bitten and whos parents were worried about him. not that anyone else would have taken the case and the boss offered it to her first as she was the best to relate to him.
she had been heeping an eye open for letters ever since his parents had approched the deartment and then one morning she saw one on her desk. she smiled before she opened it the smile fading as she read.he sounded like she had done when she had first been bitten. once she was done she got a few other urgent jobs done before sittig down to write a reply.

Dear Razel Kim
I would like to start by thanking you for trustigng me enough to write to me. Please just call me Briar, Ms rowan makes me sound old. though if you would rather that then that is also cool. I have not forgotten you. I read your file when it was registered with us a few months ago and have taken you on as one of my cases.
Before I begin I should introduce myself to you as it seems unfair that i get to know all about you and you not me. As i have already said My name Is briar Rowan and I too am a werewolf. I have been working in werewolf support services since I graduated school a year ago. actually you go to the school I graduated from so you may remember me, I was head girl in what must have been your first year. anyway. I was bitten before my sixth year, so i know exactly what it is like going through school with such a secret.
You should never be ashamed of who or what you are. you are you and being a werewolf doesn't change that, it just adds another aspect, there is nothing wrong with it, don't let other people tell you otherwise, it is just as normal as having brown eyes or black hair. if people find out you will be surprised at how supporting they can be. there may be some that use it against you, but there always will be no matter what.
I was also told not to tell anyone but my imediate family about my condition whish was awkwaed but i wont worry you with tht now. what may also be an idea is do you have any close friends, friends who you can trust to keepyour secret and supportyou when you need them? as at school your family isnt there, and if anything goes wrong friends are a great lifeline. I dont mean tell everyone just maybe if you have one or two people who you really trust. I am glad you are writing to me. as as much support a family can give sometimes you need the support form someone who has actually been through it to tell you it will be okay, that was the only thing keeping me sane for the first few months before, well before one girl worked things out and told. Dont worry, she had been looking for something to bring me down.
If they are still using the howling cavern then there is a load of pictures on the wall of previous werewolves at the school. some are me, then there had also been Andromada Filorli, the other red head. I also left a letter in there i am not sure if you found it.
For the transformations they are a million times better if you are on wolfsbane. If you are not on it then get some from the hospital wing the week before there transformation or st mungoes if you aren't at school or if you would rather i can send it to you. also I have found that the mod i am in on the day is the mood the wolf is in so try and relax on the day. you should be able to get it off classes. relax in the morning then head down to the cavern in the afternoon and if you think you will be hungry take some meat with you, then get a few hours sleep.
If you have any questions please feel free to write no matter small you think it is, there are no stupid questions. I think i bored Dederick sick of them when I was bitten. well i couldn't have bored him that much as we are now together.
Wow, sorry It was so long i didn't mean for it to get so long but I just wanted to do all of your questions justice, if i missed anything or there is something else don't hesitate to ask.
Good luck in everything
Briar

 

[Raziel Kim]

Ever since he had written that letter and sent it towards this person that he really doesn't know, Raziel Kim had been really nervous. Yes, he was nervous even though it wouldn't really show on his face. He still is nervous. He cannot really shake the thought of the owl sending the letter to the wrong person. What if someone else read the letter. He had signed his name there. He would be in trouble. He had promised his mother that he'd be really careful. But he hadn't really thought about that as he was writing that letter. hopefully, he was wrong and the letter had safely arrived to where it was supposed to be headed. He wasn't really sure whether there had been cases of owls wrongly delivering packages, but he really ought to be more careful next time. Sitting by himself, the ravenclaw moved his spoon half-heartedly through the congealing oatmeal. He didn't really like the food. He would prefer eating his chocolates. But alas, he knew that it would be bad to waste foods that had been prepared just for him. Thus, even though he rather eat something that he likes, Raziel continued to finish his meal. He was halfway through his meal when the sounds of hundred of owl wings infected the great hall. The morning post had arrived.

Raziel watched as the large black eagle owl swooped down low, looking more like a giant bat than a bird, and landed in front of him. The owl, looking really proud of itself, haughtily stuck out a leg, waiting for him to untie the letter tied around it with silk ribbon. He did untie the letter, though a little slower than he should. The owl waited, perhaps for a scrap of bacon as a treat, he had offered his oatmeal, only for it to be refused as the owl let out an annoyed huff when it realised it wouldn't be receiving any bacon and flew away, scaring a few first years that had just entered the hall. The noise of the Great Hall dulled as the Ravenclaw examined whom the letter was from. It was from her. Putting the letter back on his pocket, Raziel decided that he should just read it later once he's back on his room cause at the moment, he had other things to think of, the oatmeal for example. He had to finish it, he thought in dismay.

It was already night when he had finally found the time to read and write a reply to the letter. Briar, as she preferred to be called it seemed, sounds like someone that he could really trust. Taking a piece of parchment, his quill and ink, the thirteen years old proceeded to the owlery, ready to write his own reply.

Dear Ms. Rowan Briar,

I greatly appreciate that you have taken your time to reply here. After thinking about what I did as I was writing my letter, I realized how stupid and careless I have been. Starting from this letter, I shall address myself as R. Now, that's ambiguous enough, isn't it? People wouldn't guess that it was me should this letter go to the wrong hands. My mother made me promised that I should be careful. And follow her I will.

I wouldn't have guessed that you are the same as me too. After all, just what is the probability that I would meet someone that is the same as me. But then, now that I had actually thought about it, it's only logical that you are one too, right? You are working on the werewolf support services. It's only reasonable that you have first hand experience. I wouldn't have written this paragraph as it seemed like I sound so confusing here. But should I erase it, it would make the letter messy, would it not? and then I would have to rewrite everything again. I wouldn't want to do that though.

Maybe I had come across you before, I don't know. Sorry if I couldn't really remember who you are. I should have paid more attention. It wouldn't be offensive if I would say that I'm happy to meet someone that have experienced and have undergone the same thing that I'm experiencing right now, would it be? But it is the truth. Would it be selfish of me to say that? Now, I know that I'm not the only one. I may not be social but I find it really hard to hide what I am.

It's easy to say that I shouldn't be ashamed of myself. I know I shouldn't. I'm not really scared of what would happen to me. Or of what people would say. I'm used to that. What I'm afraid of is what will happen to my family. What would people say if they knew that my parents had a child like me? I know my mother blames herself for what had happened. Even my father. I don't want them to feel like that. But I can't tell them. I don't know how. That's why I would just follow them even though it meant that I should hide who I am.

I don't really have friends here. Believe me. It may not be believable and it might sound ridiculous, but it's true. I'm not really good at socializing. That's one of the reasons why I never really went with my parents to see you. Sorry. But I understand that it would be easier if I have someone here at school to help me. Now that I remember it, I think I do have a friend. I don't know if he considers me as his friend though.

I am yet to use that cavern. Once I do, i'll look for the letter that you had left there. It would be of great help, thanks. I think it's amazing that you had been thinking of the next people that would be using that place. It only shows that it's not really bad to be like this. That I can be accepted by people outside my family too. Thank you.

I don't know about wolfsbane. But my parents make me drink something before I transform. Maybe that's that. I will follow your advise to get it from the hospital wing. Those night when I transform to this creature is really painful after all. I would appreciate it though if you would send it to me instead too. I'm not really sure if I could bring myself to talk to the nurse there. He may be kind, but I don't want to converse much. Talking is quite exhausting. I prefer writing letters down. I sound talkative, don't I? Sorry if this letter had gotten so long once again.

Before I end this letter, if you wouldn't mind me asking, and if it's not sensitive, have you hurt anyone when you are in that form? Would there be a chance that should I transform, I'd be able to control myself. From my experience, the first time that I became that creature, I almost hurt my mother. I hurt myself. I don't want that to happen again. I don't want to kill anyone. I don't want to pass them this burden.

Sincerely,
R​

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[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

the next couple of days for brar had been busy. although if anyone had asked her what she had done she couldnt say she had accumplished much. it was all sort of bits which suited her well as she was more the kind of persone to do multiple things all together than sit at one thing all day, she was just to fidgety for that. she had a meeting with someone one morning then reed through something the afternoon, then the next day she had some work for the pest advisory board which she liked as it was in the feild.
and mixed in with that was the paporwork. oh how she hated the official paperwork. she hated readign and the writing was dreary. that afternoon however a letter arrived, letters were much different to official paper work, they had a voice a personality. and talking to (even through letters) other werewolve was what she had taken this job for. there was real satisfaction in knowing you helped them, a saisfaction that she had given up her dream of playing quidditch professionally for, though she did play sundays for the waggawagga werewolves, the local team from where she was living.named because of the history the town had had with a rogue werewolf.

she read the letter that she had recived from Razel and got to wrting a reply. other things could wait. this was important.

Dear R
I totally understand why you want to hide your identity. when i was sending letters i used to skirt around the topic as much as i could giving things different names, like when i broke my ankle was when i got bitten (i broke my ankle at the same time). just signing R should work just as well if not better.
there are people who work here who aren't werewolves, some family or friends who are, but I along with one or two of my coworkers am a werewolf, we always have a howl in the office when its just us in (okay that was a lame pun) we don't really we are usually too busy.
you don't need to remember who i am, I really don't take offence. to be honest i cant remember who you are. though as i tried to know the names of everyone in my house I think it may be safe to say you aren't a gryffindor. and to be honest if anyone asked me who the head girl was when i was in my first year i wouldn't have had a clue, i guess i spent too much time in the forest and grounds to be worried about that, so long as she didn't catch me i didn't care who she was.
i would just like to say wow, you must really care about your family, I don't know what to say about that. to be honest I was adopted and i thought my family had disowned me a couple of months before the attack. and when i found out the hadn't and got round to telling them they were great, and i don't think they mined at al, though the fact that they are part giant probably helped. that. anyway briar, you need to stop talking about yourself and start talking about R. anyone with any sense would know that it isn't your parents fault you are who you are, and that they are amazing people for helping you however i am not really sure what to say about family, though from what your parent said they will be by your side no matter what.
I believe you when you say you are not so good at socialising, I have known people the same, who said for them the best way to cope with being like us was to turn the back on the world, and become so unlikeable people would avoid you, though i don't think that was a smart plan it worked for them. at then end of the day you have to do what works for you, weather it be focusing on something else or whatever.
I have just thought. If you want to talk to someone in the castle my brother, (well not really brother but i call him brother) is there. he is a fifth year gryffindor called minoas stratis. I promise you can trust him, just let him know you don't want others to know. also professor Kingsley was a very good person to talk to for advice and comfort, so you should be able to talk to her or your own head of house if you need to.

I have sent with this some wolfsbane potion. be warned it is rather pungent and sugar will make it useless. there is enough here for one month, drink one goblet each day for the week before the full moon. It wont stop the transformation but it will keep your mind your own, being a human in a wolf body as opposed to having the simple thoughts of a wolf is a lot more bearable, and instead of trying to rampage it will be a lot easier to curl up an sleep.

in answering your last question, no i have never hurt anyone else. i have hurt myself a few times but the nurses at school can generally fix that up easily. the wolfsbane potion like i said before helps a lot in the control, when you are in school the cavern is unescapable when in wolf form (I tried many times) and when you are on holidays you are more than welcome to transform on my land in australia. I have made sure it is werewolf proof, and the only people there will be be and my boyfriend who is also a werewolf so you have no chance of harming anyone.
I think thats all for now, sorry for any rambling, i tend to do that you can just skip those bits if you want i wont mind.
good luck
Briar

Briar then rolled up the letter and sealed it with a charm letting only the recipient open it before measuring out a months supply of wolfsbane and pouring it into a large butter beer bottle, this would mean that he would look like he was getting a gist from home or a friend as opposed to getting a bottle of medicine. before giving both to a ministry owl and sending it.

 

[Raziel Kim]

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A couple of days had passed since Raziel sent his second letter. He's yet to receive a reply, but that didn't bother the boy as it did the first time. He didn't really have to worry about his name being figured out then, he had taken the precautionary measure of not signing his real name in the letter, but then again, should someone be determined enough to really find out who he was, that person would be bound to find ways to discover the owner of that handwriting. Raziel tried not to worry about that though. Briar was probably too busy to write him a reply. He cannot blame her too. It wasn't like he owned her time. She had her own life to take care of, in fact, he should be happy that she had been kind enough to actually respond to him. He should be grateful that he was able to find someone to talk to regarding his condition. Munching on some candies that his mother had sent to him, the ravenclaw sat alone just like he usually would. Even though he wasn't sure when he would be receiving the reply, he was still waiting for the morning post to arrive. After minutes of waiting, the sounds of the wings flapping began to fill the hall, signifying the arrival the owls along with the packages and letters for some. He was about to just turn and return to his room when he had thought that there still wasn't a reply when an owl came flying towards his direction. He wasn't sure whether it was really heading for him though, after all, it seemed that not only was it carrying a letter with it, it was also carrying some sort of package.

Still unsure whether the package was indeed for him, Raziel just stared at the owl. His own eyes probably even rivaling the owl's. After what seemed like an eternity of just staring at the owl who looked quite annoyed for having to wait for him, the Ravenclaw finally decided that the package was addressed to him. After he had untied the letter from the owl's leg, the boy turned his attention towards the other thing included in the package. It looked like a butter beer. Now, he couldn't remember ever requesting for one. That is then that he had remembered that he had asked Briar to send him supplies of wolfsbane so he wouldn't have to ask for it from the hospital wing. If he was able to smile right then, he would have done so as he felt really grateful that she had been really helping him. Placing the letter on his bag, the Ravenclaw began on his way towards the North tower. He'd just read the letter there and write a reply.

Dear Briar,

First of all, I would like to thank you again for responding to my letters, it actually feel great. I never did receive letters other than from my family. Now, I do know that it is your job to reply to my letter, but I would like to think that you're doing it because you wanted to and not because you needed to. I hope I'm not being too imposing. If I am, I would like to apologize. Please do tell me though if you are getting tired of this, I would understand it too. I won't be offended. Really. I understand that you needed to attend to your own life to. I ask that you do not pity me too. I'd like to think that we are friends even though it would be one sided on my part.

Just hearing, or perhaps, reading about your work makes me want to be just like you once I graduated here. And no, it wasn't a lame pun. I would have laughed if I could.

Even though you had said that I shouldn't be sorry that I couldn't remember you, I still do. So, I would like to apologize again. I also do understand if you can't remember me too. People always tend to do that anyway. I don't really mind. You see, I don't really talk a lot, even though it doesn't seem like it as I am writing too much in here, so, it's really easy for them to overlook me. I don't really mind though, I prefer to have my alone time. If you want to know it too, I'm actually a Ravenclaw, you wouldn't have guessed from the way that I talked or write, would you?

I love my family. I really do. They were always protecting me, I would probably even say that they're the reasons why I am still living right now. I don't think that there's anything wrong with being adopted. Being a blood kin or not, what matters is how you treasure and care for each other. A friend could be a family, and sometimes, a member of your family could even be worse than a stranger. Oh, and I do not mind you talking about yourself too Briar, I would like to know you more. My father would always tell me that the world doesn't revolve around a single person only, thus, I do not want this to revolve only around me. I'd love to listen to your stories, so you didn't have to hold back.

If you said that I could trust him, then I'll try to look for your brother should I want someone to talk to. I think I can trust you already, so whoever it was that you trust, I think it would be safe to trust them too. Though, I think it would be hard to talk to him, I might bore him. You see, I'm not really like this. I don't talk a lot.

Are you sure that sugar would make it useless? That's too bad then, I love sweets. I think I'd be able to handle it even thought it taste horrible. I'd rather drink something like that instead of letting my mind go haywire should I transform again. and before I forget, thank you for sending me the potion. It would help a lot. I really don't want to hurt any people once I'm on that state you see. I can handle myself being hurt, but other people, I don't think I can bear that. Have I ever told you that you were so kind to me? I don't think I'd ever find a way to repay you. Now, I think I'm quite assured right now, although there were still lots of questions that I would want to ask. I guess, those ones can wait.

And before I end this letter, I just want to ask this, is eating chocolates bad for us too? I would have send you ones, but I'm just worried that it would be bad for you. You see, I hope you wouldn't get offended, they said chocolates were bad for dogs right? well, technically, we're just like that too. So, would it be bad for us? I hope it isn't. I love chocolates too.

And another thing before this ends, would you mind telling me about how you had transformed into a werewolf? If you do, then I do understand if don't want to tell me about it. Again, thank you for everything that you have done for me. I greatly appreciate it.

Sincerely,
R​

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Raziel read his letter over and over again, checking whether he had written something inappropriate that may often her. He had doubts aboyt writing the last paragraph, but he really was curious about it. He just hoped that she wouldn't be angry at him. Tying the letter on one of the school's owl's leg, the ravenclaw watched as his letter was delivered towards its destination.

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[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

Briar was quite enjoying sending the letters to Raziel. it was cirtainly better than the official paper work. today had mainly involved a run to st mungoes to check up on their facilities, and programs and to pick up some more wolfsbane as she had sent the last of hers to Raziel. she was thankful that this st mungoes run was a lot smoother than one she had done a few months ago when she had ended up chasing a guy accross the rooftops. that reminded her she had said she would call in ad say hellow to those kids tonight. she quickly wrote it down and stuck it to her door so she wouldnt forget. she yawned, she hadnt gotten much sleep the previous night, Dee wasnt hacing a good time recently and she had been trying to make him feel better. she did love him for who he was, it wasnt any pitty, guilt or feelings of obligation. she smiled as she thought this, a smile that made everyone in the office know exactly what she was thinking. just as she returned to her desk she heard wings and saw an owl landing. she smiled she was pretty sure she knew where it was from. she took the letter and fed the owl some owl treats she then read the letter and started her reply.

Dear R
It s my job to reply to any letters I get but Even if it wasn't I would still be willing to help any newly bitten werewolves as soon and as best as i could. as for Friends, any werewolf can be a friend of mine of they want to be. and that isn't out of pity as I know what it is like to have people pity you for being a werewolf.
that chocolate question is one i haven't heard before. I have had to look it up but haven't found anything. so i would assume that chocolate isn't bad for you any more now than it was before you were bitten. maybe don't eat them when you are transformed, but normally they shouldn't be any worse than they are for anyone else. but sugar is known to make the potion useless so it probably wouldn't be a plan to take it and then eat candy at the same time, or maybe half an hour either way.
I will explain to you how I was transformed. but just before I do I should point out that all the family members i talk about are adopted. At the end of my sixth year my adopted dad was killed in an accident, however I felt like i was partially to blame for it even though i know now i wasn't. anyway. i actually ran away from the school a day before the end of term and headed to the mountains on the south Island and basically roughed the holidays up there as that is something have always done it is a way i find to clear my head. anyway one evening I met someone who I had met once before, and we had dinner at my camp. I guess i knew it was a full moon but didn't know he was a werewolf until he started to transform. thankfully there was a fire between us and I just ran, he chased me and i started to climb a cliff. anyway I was too slow and he got me by the ankle and pulled me down.that was probably the worst night ever the next morning i flew to st mungoes. and that was it i guess. nothing spectacular. we actually kept in touch and he was who was the one wrote me though the whole thing, much like I am doing now. that was the hardest few months for me, my sister wasn't talking to me and I just felt lost getting used to the idea of being a werewolf. I really don't mind you asking about how i became a werewolf, if there is anything else you want to know just ask.
you should be able to trust Minoas, he is good, though I should warn you he will probably fire 500 questions at you when he finds out what you are. you are right about gamily hough, my blood family are strangers to me. but my adopted family and I are very close, they are all the family I need, as well as Dee of course, (he is my boyfriend). I know I would do anything for them, and they would do the same for me.
I cant think of what else to say, so I think I will sign off for now.
Briar

She smiled as she wrote it she had written a lot about herself she hoped it wouldn't bore him, but when she started to think about Dee she couldn't help herself. she is really was a werewolf in love.

 

[Raziel Kim]

Raziel had not been feeling good the whole morning. Earlier, he had woken up on the wrong side of his bed, and honestly, his head was still aching until now. He would have skipped his classes if he could, but doing so would not be good for him. His second year at Hogwarts had not been great, his grades were quite low. Now, he may not be one who would care for such things, but still,he didn't want to let his parents down again. On top of that, ever since writing letters to Briar, he had resolved that he wanted to become like her someday. Now, that was quite a revelation for itself. Rarely does he dream something for his own future. However, listening, or rather, reading the letters sent to him by Briar encourages him to think something for himself. Perhaps, once he graduated, he'd be able to work for the ministry too and do the same thing that Briar had been doing for him till now. He would want to be of help to his kind too. Give back in simple terms. And he knew that he needed good grades should he want to work in the ministry. Thus, even though he wasn't feeling well at all, he had had to attend his classes.

The whole day had been quite slow and Raziel had actually decided to hit the bed early. He had already changed out of his uniform when he had noticed an owl sitting on top of his bed. Approaching it, he had noticed the letter ties to its leg. Briar had already sent him a reply. The owl had probably been looking for him since that morning, but because he didn't go down to eat his breakfast, he had missed the morning post. It was really lucky that no one got his letter. "Thank you. Here, you may have this." The ravenclaw said, offering a bar of chocolate to the owl before withdrawing it again, realizing that it must be bad for the said owl. "Sorry, I don't have anything else to give you. Maybe next time, alright?" He muttered as he untied the letter from the owl's leg. The owl seemed quite annoyed but had let him do his work anyway. Giving the owl some water instead, Raziel read the letter and began to write his reply.

Dear Briar,

I really am not feeling well today, so, if my letter is quite incoherent, I would like to apologize in advance.

I really appreciate you doing this. I feel really honored that you've been giving me even just a bit of your time. My mother would like to extend her thanks to you as well. My whole family is. She had told me that perhaps some time, you may want to visit our house. But don't worry though, if you're too busy, I would just tell them. They'd understand.

Being pitied is quite annoying to say the least, right? People just don't understand that it is. Sometimes, they think that they're doing you a favor by pitying you, while in reality, they're not being of any help at all. But then, I really can't be angry at them. Even though people sometimes don't like me, even though I don't like being pitied, I know they meant no harm. But even so, I don't like it. I'm not making any sense here, am I? Sorry, it's just that my head hurts right now.

It's a relief that eating chocolates would not be bad for me. I love sweets you see, and I don't think that I'll be able to survive a day without it. So, thank you for the assurance.

About your dad, I would like to extend my condolences. Now, don't think that it is out of pity, it's just that, I know what it felt like to lose someone. I guess, you had it harder than me. My family had been devastated with what had happened, but they didn't make me feel that something had changed. They were trying to act normal around me, but I do know that they must be hurting more than I am. I hope your sister is talking to you now. It feels really bad when your own family member won't talk to you. I don't know if I am getting it write, but would Dee be the same person that had caused you to be what you are now? If he is, then I wonder how you could have forgiven him? I know it's bad to hold grudges, but don't you blame him for turning you to what you are now?

I'm fine with people talking a lot, even though sometimes, it would hurt my head and it would make me feel dizzy. I'm fine as long as I won't be obligated to talk. I'll try to find him, probably after I get rid of this headache. It feels like my head is splitting in half and I really don't know why. Do not worry though, I'm quite sure that it would still be weeks before the full moon. I'm just really sickly, so that's probably why my head is hurting. The change in temperature is probably the reason too.

I don't know how to end this letter now. I really can't think straight, so please, pardon me if I would have to end this like this.

R​

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The ravenclaw didn't bother to check his letter just like he would normally do before sending it. His head just hurts so much that he just wanted to sleep already. Tying the letter on the owl's leg, he guided it towards the big windows of his room and watched as it flew away from the castle.

 

[Aspen]

Sorry wrong account.

 

[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

Briar hadn't been aw work over the weekend. she had been at home. she was helping dee fix up the shed on her land so they could live there at least a little more than a night or so. they had the bore set up and going to a tank and although there was an outside shower and dunney they were trying to plumb in a proper bathroom for them. and get it a little comfortable. at the end of the day they were both on the floor drenched in water laughing.
the next day she was a work. and saw a letter on her desk probably left one day over the weekend. she ripped it open.

Dear R
I hope that you are feeling better today. your letter was perfectly understandable. I am sorry If mine aren't. lets just ay I am not the best at writing. I think some of the professors said I had dyslexia or something, whatever that is.
you don't have to worry about thanking me for my time. it is what I have decided to do with my life. If i didn't want to do it I would be up playing quidditch. If you're family want's me to visit. i would be happy to.
I realyl do hate being pitied. what is that saying again. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I am not dead. I would rather be hated than pitied. I know what you mean. she want to be angry at them but know you shouldn't be as they didn't mean any harm.
sweets were never really anything that I was big into. like I like something every now and then but my snack food has always been nuts, berries and the like. though since i was bitten I have eaten a lot more meat.
My and Madlyn made up when she found out that I wasn't off enjoying myself when she was grieving over the holiday. we had both felt bad that we hadn't spoken and well yeah. I am not sure who you have lost but I am sorry (this also isn't pity it is empathy). who was it?
you are right, Dee is who bit me, though I would rather you didn't spread it. I haven't told anyone at the ministry that officially. I didn't blame him, as i know it was an accident. and he didn't mean to. beside, he was good afterwards.helping keep me sane. I do hold grudges though on people who deserve it.
It is good to hear that your family is treating you the same as always, I have seen many families shun members who have been bitten. then it is my job to explain matters to them.
you don't have to talk to minoas or anything, it was just a suggestion.
I hope that your head feels better soon, and just a reminder the full moon is in a week and a half so you should start drinking the potion a goblet a day on friday.
Briar

she folded the letter and attached it to a new owl. she didn't want to tire the other one. and watched it fly off.

 

[Raziel Kim]

It had been a couple of days since Raziel had received his reply from Briar, and yet, he hadn't got the time to respond to it. It's not because he's busy with his friends for he rarely have one, if any. Nor was he busy with his studies, he could always take the time to reply to her despite the amount of works that he had to do. He had rather liked talking to Briar even though he had no idea how she looked like. It was just that, she felt like family to him now, she gave her the comfort that he needed while away from home. His parents write him letters too of course, and he felt very much grateful for that. It was just that, Briar understands what he was going through considering how she was the same as him. So no, it was not his friends nor his studies that was stopping him from writing a reply. It was just that he was beginning to feel the signs of the full moon coming up. He was feeling rather unwell the past few days, his pale skin appears paler and his movements were slower than before. Days seemed to drag longer and he seemed rather tired lately. Reading Briar's letter for the nth time that day, Raziel had decided to write his reply already. He didn't want to worry her should he not reply right away. He remembered telling her that he was feeling unwell on his last letter, should he not reply, she might come in to a conclusion that something had happened to him. That's a situation that he would want to avoid at all cost.

Briar,

First, I would like to apologize for not being able to respond to your letter right away. I wasn't feeling any better since I last wrote my letter. But you need not worry, I've been following your advice and drinking a goblet of wolfsbane a day. By the way, am I apologizing too much? I'm sorry if I am. Mother told me that apologizing too much would make apologizing less special. Should I stop doing it then?

Your letters make perfect sense by the way, I don't particularly mind the way of writing. Honestly, I love writing letters to you, I hope you're liking it too. And because of that, I think I could confess something right now. You see, I never did like to write you at first, I just did so because my parents told me to. Sorry if I did this half-heartedly at first. I feel quite miserable because I know that even before, you were doing this because you wanted to, while me on the other hand, was doing it because I was obligated to do so. But I want to assure you, I'm writing you letters right now because I wanted to. It was actually the first time that I was able to talk this much if you could call writing this letter talking. Cause in a sense, we are having a conversation, right?

Speaking of quidditch, our house was having try outs right now. Honestly, I loved flying. The feeling of being so high up in the air, free, it's something that I cannot really explain. But then, I am not sure if it would be good to try out for that. You see, I'm not really good being surrounded by other people, I might just bring the team down, and that won't be any good at all. And I'll tell my parents that you would be willing to visit. I'm sure that they'll be really happy to hear that.

To be honest, I don't like meat before. Meat are deadly. They contained bacteria and they're fat-laden and both could potentially lead to disease and death. But just like you, since I was bitten, I began taking a liking of it. It was that, it suddenly became... quite appetizing if that's the proper word for it.

I am happy that you and your sister were able to make up. You see, I have a friend, I think I can call him a friend anyway, who's in an argument with his twin sister. I don't think that siblings fighting is good. In fact, it's something that shouldn't happen at all. I hope they'll be able to made up just like you and your sister.

It was my grandmother on my mother's side that I had lost before. She's a really kind woman. She used to bring me different toys before, those muggle made ones actually like puzzles, cards. She's taught me lots of things and she's the one who took care of me and my sisters when our parents were out at work. She passed away a few years ago, though I would always believe that she's still somewhere out there, still watching over us. I really didn't know that she already left at first, the last I heard of her, I knew that she was ill, but I did not know that she was that sick. My parents told me about it only at the day of her funeral. They said that they don't want to hurt me with the news. I understand, but that was also the first time that I ever got angry at my parents. I got angry that they didn't tell me about it. I know that there's nothing I could do to to stop her from dying, but I at least would have wanted to be with her until the end.

You do not need to worry about me telling anyone about Dee. I can keep secrets. I really can. You see, my mother said that my name means keeper of secrets and she said that the name really suits me. And well, I'm not talkative anyway. So, I could say that your secret would be safe with me. You know, I really am amzed that you were able to forgive him after all that. I on the other hand, I do not know whether I'd be able to do that to the person who did this to me. I'm not angry at him because of myself, rather, I'm angry because what had happened to me had caused my parents so much grief. I do not really care if it was only me, I can take that. But my family are really important to me.

I think this would be it for now. The full moon is coming in a few days. Honestly, I'm scared.

Thank you for the potion by the way. It really helps even though I'm still feeling rather unwell.

R​

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After attaching the letter to the owl, the Ravenclaw then returned to his room. The calendar on his bedside table tells him that that day is coming. He felt scared. He really was. ​

 

[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

It was a few days befoe Briar got the reply letter. apparently it had arrived on the day of the full moon. the next day she and Dederick had a hot cooked breakfast in a greesey little cafe in wagga were they often went after the full moon, it was cheep but did the best bacon butties and full breakfast she had known then they headed back to london and dee had gone to bed and she hardly awake had apparated to new zealand. she wanted to make sure that she hadn't missed anything the previous day.
she reached her office and saw a letter lying on it. she tore it open and read it forgettinf she had been awake the whole previous night and should be asleep. no when she read it she was wide awake and soon writing a reply.

Dear R.
Sorry I didnt reply yesterday. I get the day of the full moon off. and I will be heading home as soon as i have written this. how did you go last night? was it scary? painful? did the potion help?
there is no need to appologise, I know heading up to a fuul moon can be hard, and the last thign you want to do is write a letter.
Don't worry about not wanting to write to begin with. I see that it can be scary telling someone you don't know your darkest secret. and there are lots of people who only write for obligation. I am happy that you are enjoying it. and I can't see why letters aren't talking.
If you want to try for the quiddicth team then you should. it would be something enjoyable, if you don't like being with other people all the time you could try for seeker or beater as they require slightly less teamwork than chaser or keeper. and if you still don't like it you can quit. at least then you know it wasn't for you than be constantly wondering what it was like. actually thinking of team work, maybe I should have played beater, i was always known as a ball hog when i played chaser, but it was fun.
yes, me and Madlyn made up, it took a while after we both decided we should as we are both pretty stubborn, and neither like admitting we are wrong. but situations changed and we eventually made up. I hope that your friend and his sister do the same. as for visiting, i am glad your family don't mind having me over. and like i said earlier if you are on holiday during a full moon then you are welcome to use my land to transform, it is perfectly safe, I have spells all around the parameter that stop people entering and leaving.
I am sorry to hear about your grandmother. I truly am, she sounds like a great woman. i don't think you can blame your parents too much for not wanting to tell you, sometimes there is a line between what it happy for us to know now, and what is better in the long run. I am sure she is there somewhere looking out over you. when i was little my family believed that those who died became stars, and look upon you, and in times of need they will help you, maybe by sending you the things you need, maybe by giving you the courage to do something.
thank you for not telling anyone about Dederick, I guess i forgave him because i know he didn't mean it. and he was the only person i could talk to about what i was going through. Secret keeper is a nice name meaning, and it is a nice name too R. Mine Rowan is a tree and I was named after a tree. and Briar is a spiky or thorny plant, which my family thought matched my personality. I like the name Briar Rowan.
If you are really worried about your family, i can arrange for someone to come and talk to them too. help explain what may happen and offer support if they meat any injustice as werewolf support services doesn't just work with werewolves but also their family, friends, work and anywhere else that needs a bitt of help or is showing unjustness in the area of werewolves.
I hope that you start feeling better now the full moon is over.
Briar.

she then rolled up her letter and gave it to one of the work owls before apparating back to london and gong to bed.

 

[Raziel Kim]

It had been a few days after the transformation before Raziel had decided that he had had enough sleep and that he should better do something. He had gotten Briar's reply a couple of days ago but he never did had the chance to reply to it. Or maybe not. He had lots of time to spare, but his body didn't feel like moving. If he was quite like an empty shell moving around before, it was probably a little worse now. He just wanted to sleep all day. Something which he would have done should he have no classes to attend to. Thus, his whole days had been spent alternating between sleeping and studying. Untangling himself from the sheets, the boy checked himself on the mirror. He hadn't changed at all, staring back to him was still that blonde boy with pale skin and blank deep brown eyes, his shoulder length hair looked messy and his left shoulder showing with the big shirt that he was wearing right now. If his mother would see him right now, she would probably freak out with how her only son looked like he hadn't been taking care of himself. Sighing, Raziel tried to straighten his hair to no avail. Guess he had no choice but to walk to the owlery looking like he had just woken up which was actually the truth anyway.

Dear Briar,

Honestly, I'm feeling really tired the last few days. Have you ever felt like that after you transform? I don't know why, but all I ever wanted to do these days was just to sleep. Sorry if I started this letter this way. It was just the first thing that came to my mind and before I realized it, I was already writing it down. I hope you don't mind introduction.

The transformation was... to say the least, better than before. I really wouldn't go around saying that it didn't hurt at all, cause it did. It always did. I don't think that it would ever change though. It would always be painful, and somehow, I am beginning to accept it already. This is already a part of me. I just realized, should I hate the creature that I had become, I would be hating myself. The wolf in me may not be as peaceful as I am, it may be angry, vicious, and merciless. But still, it is still a part of me, and will forever be a part of me. There is nothing I can do to take it away from me.

The wolfsbane potion helped. It really did. I don't know how to explain it, but it helped. Thank you.

Before I forget, you told me before that you left a letter in the cavern right? I found it. There were a couple of pictures there too. If you wouldn't mind me asking, which one was you? It was the first time that I had transformed away from my family, but I guess, knowing that the room had been a witness and had sheltered others before me, I guess, I felt quite at home too. Though I wouldn't deny the fact that I rather missed my family then. May I ask a favor too? I wrote a letter to my parents before, but I guess they were still worried. Please do assure them that I am doing fine. Don't tell them that I'm still feeling tired though, I don't want them to worry.

The tryouts were already over. It was fine though, I'll be supporting the team from the sidelines. I don't particularly like crowds and loud noises, but I guess, I should start working on supporting the house now. I hope it would be fun, if that was the term to call it. It would be the first time that I'd be able to watch the game if ever. I guess I'd be supporting the yellow house too. I had a friend from that house, and from what I've seen, those yellow people were rather nice.

I don't know whether my friend and his twin would ever be fine again, but I do hope that they will. I'm not good with these kind of things so I don't really know what I should tell him. I don't want to force him to go and apologize to his sister. It would be rude to do so. But then, I don't want to just leave it at that too. Cause even though he wouldn't say it, it was quite evident to me that he rather treasure that sister of his. Besides, shouldn't siblings care for each other? I don't think that it is very proper to hate your sibling.

I understand your point. I know that I shouldn't blame them, but it was also hard not to. Won't you be angry too if you were deprived of the truth? Especially if that was about something you cared about the most. But don't worry, I love my parents. I won't hold a grudge against them. I understand. I know that it's not proper to use age as an excuse, but you see, I guess it's only normal for an eleven year old kid then to be angry right? I'm much older now and I should understand. I know that my grandmother is still somewhere there, I know that she'd always be looking after me. Perhpas she was also the one who made it possible that I get connected with you - honestly, it was pretty weird saying this thing. But I would say it anyway, I really am happy to have been writing these letters to you. I guess, maybe after sometime, even if you would get tired of replying to me, I would still continue writing these letters. I hope you wouldn't mind it.

I would greatly appreciate it if you would be able to help my family too. I hope that I'm not asking you for too much. They were my first priority you see. Should something happen to them because of me, I honestly don't know what will happen then.

R​

After writing, Raziel rolled the parchment and carefully tied it to the nearest owl's leg. He watched it flew away before he decided to return to his room and get more sleep. ​

 

[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

Briar had not been too busy over the last few days. mainly working and trying to fix the leak that was still going in he bathroom. but she was currently staying in londen whilst it was going but still going for her runs around her wood. it was a few days before she had recived a letter from Raziel. in the meantime she had new file on her desk. another young boy had been bitten and she once again had his case.
one morning Raziel's letter arived on her desk and she didnt take much time for her to write a reply to it.

Dear R
fealing tired is something that comes with the show I am afraid. make sure you get sleep of the day that alwats seems to help me. maybe you should have a gew good nights sleep it may realyl help.
I'm glad to hear that the transformation was better than it was. I remember many nights tearing that room apart then when i headed down a few days later to see what had happened it was all clear, I still am not sure if it was charms or house elves.
once you have been on it for a while missing a month and it feels rough. missing two and well, try not to.
the easyest way to say who i am you should be able to gecognise my sister Madlyn, she id the only part giant on the wall, I am the girl in the pictures with her with red hair. the other people I am with are my broher minoas and Dee.
I will contact your parents and family arrange a meeting so that I can both reasure tham that you are safe and well and offer them any help and support that is available. I will write them a letter as soon as i have finnished with this one.
I hope that your friend and his twin make up. I really don't know what to say. I was known to have half the school hating me by the time i graduated. I didn't care. so it really isn't anything I am particularly good at either.
I am sure your parents didn't want to leave you out. They just didn't want to hurt you. people get all odd about what children should or shouldn't know.
what you said about me getting board sounds so familiar. I swear i said the same thing when i was in your situation. I won't get board promise.
Also. I should let you know there seems to be another person in the school who has been bitten, so you may have company during the full moons. also is it okay if i tell them who you are, if you don't want me to then that is okay.
Hope you get less tired soon
Briar

she finished the letter and sent it to the school before writing another letter to his family introducing herself and asking to arrange a meeting.

 

[Raziel Kim]

After the long days of doing nothing but sleep and attend classes, Raziel finally found himself feeling better that morning. It had been days since he had last transformed, and though slowly, he was regaining some of his energy back, no matter how little that energy of his might be. Jumping off from his bed, went on his knees and started to reach out and pull his bag from under his bed. Yesterday, after he had finished his classes, he had just dropped his bag on the floor like he usually does and didn't mind fixing his things. Together with that bag was the letter that he had received from Briar. He would have read and written a reply as soon as he could have, but the bed just seemed so inviting that he had given up and let himself fall asleep again after changing into some casual clothes. After minutes of randomly pulling things under his bed, Raziel finally found his bag. Taking the letter, the boy began to read. He had to read it a few times to make sure that he understood the letter's content. There were just some parts of it that he could hardly believe - specifically, the information that there was actually another student there who was suffering the same condition as him. Grabbing a parchment and his writing materials, Raziel hurriedly went to the owlery to write his reply.

Briar,

Before anything else, I would like to say that I am feeling better now, at least, better than the last few days. I have been sleeping a lot lately, in fact, I think that that's the only thing that I ever do. I feel sad that I'm neglecting my books now. They were usually my only company, yet, I'm not able to give them any attention. Do you love to read to? I don't think that I have ever asked you that.

I haven't been able to return to the room yet, and the morning that I left, I wasn't able to take a proper look. I was hungry. Next time, I'd be following your advice and bring some food with me. Though I'm afraid, and I'm really quite disappointed, that chocolates are not allowed, right? It would have to be meat, won't it? The wolf likes them so much, and it's really beginning to rub on me too. I don't particularly like meat you see, I think I have told you that already. But I guess, there was just those parts of me that will change the same way that my body changes whenever I turn into him, right? I've decided to give the wolf a name, but I still haven't been able to come up with one. It's tiring to call him wolf everytime, and besides, even though it's a part of me, I'm still a different individual. Naming him would probably make it better. That way, I won't get confused as to who I am and who he is. I'm weird, aren't I? People always tell me that, or at least, they try to make me see that. I don't mind though.

Thank you for not only taking care of me but of taking care of my family as well. I really am indebted to you. I hope to be able to repay your kindness soon, though I'm sure that anything that I'd do won't be enough to ever compensate for what you've been doing for us.

My friend and his sibling would make up. I believe they will. Before, I'm still doubtful, but I have decided not to think negatively about it. My sisters would fight, but they always fix everything. I know they were different individuals, but I want to believe that everything would be fine between them again, although I don't really know that sister of his. I admire you for being able to take all the hate, though I really don't understand how people could hate someone like you. Hate is a really strong word, and to hate someone, there must be a really huge reason. I can't think of any reason to hate you though.

I understand. I understand them now, and I really forgive them already. Grandma wouldn't like it if I continue to be angry at them. Though honestly, I would probably never understand why children should be left in the dark when it comes to things like these. Though young, I think we also deserve to learn the truth.

About that other person, is it true? It's not that I don't believe in you, because I do. I always believe everything that you've told me. It was just that, it was really surprising to learn about this. I wouldn't mind if you would tell that person who I am though I know that my mother had told me that I should be really careful and not tell anyone about me. But then, I trust you and if you think that it would help to know that person to, I'd believe. I have a confession to make too, I hope I don't sound mean and selfish. Honestly, I feel quite.... happy is probably not the right word but I can't find the right term to express it, that there's someone here like me too. I know that I shouldn't fell like that cause it meant that there was another person who had to suffer the same monthly ordeals that we have to undergo. I know that being bitten would change their lives forever, and by feeling rather happy, I feel miserable. I'm sorry.

Would it be fine to have company during the full moons though? Won't we hurt each other? And before I end, I have a question about the wolfsbane. Won't taking it too much result to it being ineffective in the long run? Won't my body build some resistance against it?</FONT>

R​

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<FONT font="verdana">After finishing with the letter, Raziel went to look for an owl to deliver his letter. After this, he would have to return to his room and fix his things. He didn't particularly cleaning up, but he was sure that his roommates won't appreciate the room looking messy because of him.​

 

[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

It was couple of days later when Briar turned up to work to find two letters on her desk. she had the previous day gone to st mungos. she had needed to talk to one of the healers as well as put an order in for the wolfsbane. she had also used the time to call in and see Sunako, she had learned that the lady was the one who had suggested that Dee break up with her and caused the second worst six months of her life so there was always the uncertainty around her but she really did seem to know her things, and was interesting so she did forgive her. the six months were probably what they had needed but it had still been painful.
she read both letters first one from Kaleb and then one from Raziel and she replied to them in that order as Kalebs had arrived first. once that one was done and sent she wrote one to Raziel. his letter was longer and would require more thought behind the reply.

dear R
It is good to know that you are feeling better. I found my first few transformations the worst. ater that I wouldn't say they were great but they sort of got into their own rhythm. If you are reacting any way like i did, you will make upfor your lapse at full moon with a huge energy at the new moon. but from what i know everyone reacts different. me and dee are proof of that. as for reading i can't say I am a big fan of it. to be nonest I wasnt aught much about it until i was eleven and after then i never really picked reading or writing up that fully.
you could try tking chocolate, i have checked properly and i cant see any evidence to say anythng. maybe take some different htings and see what you like most. just a sugestion. I always liked meat so that was never a roblem for me, I have jsut started eating it more and eating less nuts and dried fruit.
I like the idea of naming the wolf. do you have any ideas yet? and there is nothing wrong with being weird. normal is way overrated.
I am glad I can help you, and your family. there is no need to feel indebted to me. I want to help people if i didnt i wouldnt be here. I don't want any repayment, it is repayment enough to know you are doing well and coping with the cange.
maybe i was just being parranoid. but I will tell you something about me. I am not one for doing things be halves. when the one person who i really do believe hates and has had a grudge against me after she was kicked off her house quidditch team, found out what i am she posted it around the school I was te kind of person who made the most of it. laughed it off and used it to my advantage. I am not saying you should go around wearing shirts that say bite me or werewolf b!tch. as it is a big step and you need to know that you are comfortable in yourself first as it can't be taken back. it was the outcome of that (coupled with my quidditch apprch) that got me a few haters, which i really am not fussed about. it made things more interesting at least.
I hoppe that your friend and his sister make up though i really do not know what you or i can do to help them.
It is true about another werewolf. he is a first year gryffindor though he doesnt want me to tell you his name. I know what you feel about being happy but also ashamed. it is nice to not be alone but still not something you would wish on anyone else. I think that you should be okay together as long as you both keep on the wolfsbane and maybe try and get to know them out of cavern as if you know each other as humans you are less likely to be as weary of each other as wolves. me and dee have been transforming together for over a year now and we have been going fine. last year i held a full moon party all registered werewolves were invited and that went without injury.
Finally the wolfsbane. As far as i know taking too much won't make it less effective, but remember it is made out of aconite which is usually poisonous. so it is probably best if you dont go drinking it like pumpkin juice.
thats all for now I think
Briar

once she was finished with this one she folded and sealed it before heading to the owl depot to send it to Raziel.

 

[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

Briar was at work. at nearly five months the bosses had found out she was pregnant and out her on light work. this basically meant she was not going out in the field. she only had desk duty and meetings with clients. this afternoon she was in her office whilst most of the department was out chasing after a herd of angry hypogryphs. that had gotten loose and were flying and rampaging towards a muggle town. it sounded just like her ideal job but unfortunately she was here. dong her least favourite job. paper work.
she was just filling come papers when she saw a file of a client she hadn't heard from recently. a boy she had been in contact with called Raziel Kim, other than the monthly batches of wolfsbane she sent (despised as all kinds of other drinks or potions) she hadn't heard from him. . she stopped filing the papers and headed to her desk. reaching out a quill and a pice of parchment she started a letter to him.

Dear R
this is just a letter to see how you are doing. you have well and truly cleared the first 3/4 of a year. that is the hardest. hopefully by now you are in some form of routine. any questions remember you can always shoot them my way.
also I heard about that stupid magazine that circulated around the school. my bother sent me a copy. I am sorry to hear that someone found out about werewolves. but you should be so thankful that she (i am almost certain it is a she) didn't know or say any names.
I hope that your friends have made up. and did you find out if you like chocolate during the full moon?
I know it is short
but shoot me a message even if it is just to let me know that things are going fine.
Briar

she then sealed the parchment with a charm so that only the receiver could open it and gave it to one of the ministry owls, this time a sweet looking little owl. and watched it leave and then went back to the stupid filing.

 

[Raziel Kim]

It had been weeks, or perhaps months, since Raziel Kim received a letter from someone other than his family, and it surprised him so. Not that Briar was the one who broke off contact with him, for it was him who had failed to respond to her letter. She didn't fail to send him his monthly supplies of potions though, and at that, the young boy felt quite guilty. She had kept her promise and had done her job in making sure that he was doing fine, yet, here he was, still hesitating whether he should respond to this new letter that had been sent to him. After reading the letter for the nth time that day, the boy just stared at the seemingly harmless parchment, unsure of what to do with it. It was perhaps almost a year already since he had started writing letters to Briar, the one whom the ministry had assigned to watch over him. At first he was hesitant to trust her, but he learned to. She's suffering from the same condition that he did, and because of that, he could somehow connect with the older woman. Yet, as he read the letter again, he cannot make up his mind whether he should respond or not. Weeks of not communicating with anybody had rendered him awkward with communicating with other people again. After hours of debating with himself whether to reply or not, the boy finally worked up the courage to fetch his quill, ink and parchment and to start writing his letter again.

Briar,

It's been a really long time, hadn't it? First of all, I would like to apologize for not updating you about my condition. I don't really want to worry anyone, and if I did worried you, I'm really sorry. On top of this, what I want to apologize for the most is my failure to express my gratitude for all the help that you've been giving me. The wolfsbane helped a lot. Thank you for sending them even though I haven't been writing letters to you.

The magazine.... it was actually one of the reasons why I decided not to write anymore. I don't know who it was that had written that article, and to say honestly, I'm afraid. I guess I am far from being like you. I'm not really one who feels comfortable being the center of attention, I don't like it at all. And should people know what I really am, should they know about the wolf inside me.. More than being scared from myself though, I'm scared of what people would think about my family. And besides, I love this school. I don't think that my mother would let me continue studying should she know that people here are aware of what I am. So please do grant my request, don't tell her about the magazine. They don't know anything.

That didn't mean though that I would like you to stop writing too. I guess I was stupid. Really stupid to believe that should I stop writing letters to you, people would not doubt me and think that I'm one of those wolves that they were seeking. I honestly find it great to have someone to talk to and to share my worries, things which I don't really want to say to my family right now. Do forgive me if I am being quite annoying though.

I've been talking too much about myself, haven't I? Sorry. It's been a long time since I last talked to you. Though, this doesn't really count as talking right? Enough about me though, it would be totally inconsiderate of me to not ask about your condition. How have you been doing? I hope you're doing well. And about the other student, how was he too?

R

After reading his letter again, making sure that he hadn't been confusing, Raziel folded the parchment and headed to the owlery. Once he was done, he headed back to his dorm and decided to catch up more sleep.
​

 

[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

Briar was maybe a little surprised to see a reply to her letter appear so quikly she read it and just as she was about to reply she had to go to a meeting. she moved towards the convference room and sat through the department monthly meeting. ot much of it applied to her at the moment as she was on desk job and most of it was concerned with field work. however it was till something to listen to. and there was a bit on the paper work and office information. what did surprise her was that there was a bit of a celebration party to her. she had felt a little out of place there as it wasn't really a celebration for her but she certainly didn't say no so the party food that had been put on. and it was nice to actually have time to socialise with her colligues. but it was a shame about the situation. soon people had toget back to work and Briar headed back to her office ready to write a reply to her letter off Razel.

Dear R.
wow it is great to hear from you again. it sure has been a long time. you don't need to worry about the letters. it is good to hear that you are good and if you are feeling comfortable you don't have to stay in contact with me. you don't have to thank me, that is what i am here for.
I do get the impression that you aren't one to willingly attract attention to yourself. I am sorry that is one thing that i cant help you with. attention had always seemed to follow me like a shadow. I have sent information to your parents already about how havinga werewolf in the family may effect them and ways they can help themselves as well as you. I am sure that if you are safe and happy then they will be too. we will make sure they are looked after and help if they have any problems though so far they seem good. And don't worry. i wont mention the magazine to them, as far as i shall officially be concerned, as it didn't mention you by name there is no point concerning them.
Don't stress about not writing. I will try and keep sending letters in with the potion if you want. this month i think i shall send it as a can of chicken soup. household myth says that is meant to be good if you are feeling ill so that should be a good cover. I think that the person that writes the magazeen is a slytherin and older student seeing as how long it has been around and it didn't seem like a first year when it came out. though maybe someone else is writing it now.
so you want to know about me. my condition is going as well as it ever has been. though now i have another different one as well, one that wont ever effect you so don't worry. I am pregnant. I don't want to be. and certainly don't want to be a mum but i guess i'm stuck with it now. other than that i am going the same as always.
I cant see why this isn't talking, just because it isn't spoken. I haven't heard form the other student for about as long as i haven't heard form you so they must be feeling the same as you about the magazine.
i think thats all for now
Briar[/big]

it wasn't the longest letter. but she couldn't think of much more to do and she needed the toilet. she sent it and then went to the loo. that was really annoying her. needing to go to the loo so often.

 

[Raziel Kim]

It was already the end of the school year, meaning, Raziel would be able to go home and be with his family again. He had been looking forward to it and had been counting the days till he meet then. It had been so long and he wanted to hug his mother again. Trying to sort all his things out in order to fit them all into the small space that his little trunk had to offer, Raziel caught sight of the book that had been missing for days. He had already given up on looking for it as he had decided that it would turn itself up anyway. And it did, just like he had expected. Picking the dusty old book up, the ravenclaw scanned through the pages and a parchment that had been tucked in it fell down the floor. His attention turned towards the paper that seemed to had been crumpled for having been read a lot of times already. He placed the old book on top of his bed and picked the parchment up. It was Briar's letter. He remembered tucking it on his book as a reminder that he had to reply to it. He hadn't been able to. The school works and the tiredness that he had to endure everyday had taken his mind off it. A frown made its way to the young boy's face, which was already saying something considering that he rarely, if ever, drops that blank face of his. It just meant that he was really upset, upset with himself for forgetting to do such an important thing. With a barely audible sigh, he looked for his writing materials and started to write a reply to the letter sent to him.

Dear Briar,

The school year had just ended. I'm no longer a third year student, the next time I go back to this place, I'd be much older. I hope to become more responsible too. I'd be going home, mother sent me a letter, they were all excited to see me again, and I am too. The only worries that I have was about the monthly ordeals that I have to undergo. I hope that I won't be such a burden to them.

This letter won't be very long. I just want to tell you that I'm doing fine. May I request that you send some wolfsbane at our house as well? I would greatly appreciate it if you do. My family's really grateful that you were the one assigned to me. They would have loved to see you and invite you over dinner. But don't stress yourself out, you have important matters to attend to as well. We'd probably go and visit you at your office anyway. Something about having to report my condition I guess.

I have gotten over the magazine incident already. People still treat me the same so I guess they didn't even suspect me. I hope that the other student was doing fine too.

You're pregnant? I want to congratulate but I must be honest, I'm quite worried as well. Would. I don't know how to properly phrase this. But would the baby be affected too? I hope not. But I guess I should congratulate you anyway. My mother said that she and my father had been so happy that they had us. That even though we were a handful at times, we were the ones that made their lives complete. I hope your baby would make your life complete as well.

R

His handwriting was pretty messy and there had been lots of erasures here and there but the Ravenclaw had no time to revise it anymore. He still had a lot of things to finish. Raziel turned and went into the owlery and watch as a snowy white owl flew with his letter tied on its leg.​

 

[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

things had suddenly gon mad for the older werewolf. Just after she had recieved her letter form Razel a huge pile of work had come in and berried it in her to do tray and by the end of the day she had been so exhausted that she hadnt the energy to write the reply at home. the next morning more things were overflowing the tray and as her enerdy kept decreasing due to the pregnancy she just could never seem to get to the bottom of it. soon things were getting busy planning for the babys birth she had to sort of the adoptive family and organie with the hospital. all this was taking up so much of her thouht that she almost ended up stepping ino the fireplace to use the floo powder one morning before putting in the floo powder. Eventually the date hade come when the seer had thought the baby would arrive. she had gone into hospital thinking at least in a few days time things would be getting back to normal. unfortunatly spending the night alone in the room with Willow had changed her. she had grown fond of her and had eventually decided to keep her. the next couple of weeks passed as sleepless nights and dirty nappies until she was to return to work. she got in to find a banner above her desk saying Congratulations Briar on the birth of willow and smiled when her coworkers greeted her. it wasntfor annother half an hour that she managed to sit down and get to work only to find that her to do tray had been done leaving behind a couple of letters from clients. the new ones being relied to with a generic "Ms Rowan-Cullen is away on maternity leave if you as wishing for support please contact any of our other officers in the mean time" however Razels letter was on the bottom and hadn't got the stamp on the back saying that this had been sent. she picked it up and realised that it had been sent so long ago. quickly she took out a quill and some parchment and wrote a reply

Dear R
sorry for taking so long to reply. things have been so mad. congratulations on finishing third year. hopefully fourth year will treat you well. I hope you had a good holiday. and the ordeals werent too bad. I did schedual some wolfsbane to be sent to your address, if it didnt get there let me know so it won't happen again.
i am sorry didn't see your parents when they called in to the ministry I have been on leave since the seventh of august only getting back in today. I am also sorry i wasnt able to make it to dinner. like I said things have been turned upside down in my life. I hope whoever things were temporarily assigned to treated them well and did a good job in my absence.
I would like to inform you that I have given birth to the most beautiful baby girl. Willow Luna Cullen. I will attach a picture (I really am exited about it all). you will also be pleased to know she is now over a month old and apart from being able to sleep at night (any night) she shows no signs of lycantropy. in fact she is perfectly healthy.
how was your school break? did you do anything interesting? how is fourth year going?
Briar
p.s. I have officially had my name changed to Briar Rowan-cullen (no i haven't gotten married) so if you see anything with that on it it is me.

she then attached one of the pictures or willow looking rather sweet with her tufts of ginger hair and blue eyes looking t the camera to the letter and folded it handing it to an owl for postage before she headed back to her desk ready to catch up on the thousand other things she would need to catch up on. her mind going back every few minutes wondering if willow was okay staying at her grandmas house. and looking at the clock counting the hours until she was back at home.

 

[Raziel Kim]

It felt strange to be back at Hogwarts. Raziel had just been getting accustomed to waking up everyday to his mother's loving voice. He was just getting used to being showered with his sister's attention every day of the week. He was not the type to enjoy being pampered and noticed, but when it comes to his family, he could not really complain. Perhaps it was because they missed him so much. He understood. He missed them too. He had been really happy, though it was not that obvious with his lack of facial expression. But really, the days that he spent with his family were the happiest. That was why when the time that they had to part again came, it had been really difficult. It had been a tearful farewell, at least on their part. The image of his mother crying on his father's chest as the latter tried to comfort her was still fresh on his mind. His father was really busy with his work, yet he took the time to send him off. He did not really want to leave his family behind again, yet, he also could not turn his back on the castle. Though he did not really have any companion in the castle, he could not leave it. He enjoyed learning there. Of course, his mother had reasoned out that he could always be taught at home. He knew that, yet, there was something about the castle that made him want to stay. He knew his parents would understand. They always do.

The Ravenclaw was in the middle of arranging his things when he noticed the parchment tucked in one of his textbooks. He had received the letter earlier while he was having his meal, but he never got the chance to actually read it. It was from Briar. It actually came as a surprise. While on vacation, he did received the scheduled wolfsbane but he never did receive another letter from the older. He understood though. She was probably busy. He could not blame her. From her last letter, she said that she was pregnant. It actually worried him quite a bit that he even asked his parents about it. He was told not to think about it too much as Briar works in the ministry and she would know what to do. He had actually forgotten to write her another letter.

Raziel decided to stop with what he was doing and began to read the letter. After he was done, he decided to write his reply. It would be better to do it now or else it would be buried with his things again. He did not want to make it seem like he did not want to communicate with her again, because honestly, he was grateful of her support.

Dear Briar Ms. Rowan-Cullen,

It's quite weird to address you like that, but I guess I have to get accustomed to it. You need not worry about the reply. I understand. You were busy and you have other things to attend to, I don't mind. I did received the potions. Thank you.

I am getting quite used with the transformation, it did not hurt as much as the first ones. I guess I was not that bad. I already accepted everything, I decided not to think about it anymore. Nothing would change even if I worry about it.

About the dinner, it was fine too. I have told them the you were expecting, so they understand. They wanted to send you something but they did not know where to send it. They did not want to leave it at your office.

Congratulations Ms. Rowan-Cullen. It really is weird writing it like that. Would it be fine if I continue to address you as Briar instead? She looked like an angel. It's good to hear that she was perfectly fine. I hope she was not giving you too much trouble though. If you need any help with parenting, you could owl my mother. She would know what to do, she had four of us after all. It's the only thing that we could do to reciprocate your help.

The school break had been fine. I did not do anything though. We went back to South Korea and visited our relatives. Other than that, there was not much. I got a new puzzle though, and some tarot cards from my father. It was fairly interesting which made me think why I had not taken divination as my elective. Nothing much had changed in being a fourth year. It was still the same. How was it being a new mother?

I would keep your child's photo with me. I wish her good health.

R

Raziel re-read his letter. It was really odd how he could write so much when he could barely talk. Perhaps it was because talking was different from writing? He only need to write down his thoughts and that was it. Talking was an exhausting activity. or maybe it was because he was comfortable with Briar. She understood him and she was not noisy too. At least, that was what he thought. After he was done, he went to the owlery and tied the letter on the nearest owl to him. He then returned to his room to continue what he was doing.​

 

[Briar Rowan-Cullen]

Briar recieved the letter a couple of days later just as she was leaving work and she felt a little guilty for leaving it to long last time. she decided to take the letter home in case she had time that evening. and she didn't want to be late as she needed to pick willow up from Iris's and she didn't want to be away from her for too long. maybe she would be able to spend half an hour there as dederick was on a low since Willow had been born. she tried not to make it worse but she could tell that things were hard for him they were hard for her too but she had always been tough always a survivor. she got home and made a simple dinner. for them before giving willow a feed and getting her to bed. it want long after that that she too was heading off to bed herself. she knew she would be up in a few hours for another feed. it was a few hours later that the loud vocal screams of the baby brought her back to life. she could tell dee was still asleep beside her. she got up and sneaked over to where Willow slept trying not to wake up her boyfriend as she knew sleep was what he needed. "it's okay now baby, Mummy's here" she said picking her up and she slowly quietened. "there you go" she said making sure she was well fed. soon the cild was back asleep Briar put her back into the cot, unfortunately less could be said about the mother who was wide awake she took the letter she had received from Razel and read it before heading down stairs to write a reply.

Dear R.
of course you can still call me Briar. I was just letting you know the last name incase you were sent anything official with that name on it. anyway it is two in the morning right now so if this doesn't quite make sense i am sorry.
I am glad to hear that you are going well with the transformations. and i am very glad that you are accepting things. as they are things sound like they are going pretty good.
I am sorry about that. I should have let you know i was gong off on maternity leave but i honestly expected to be adopting the baby out and not miss more than a weekend of work. life has some weird things. maybe next time you are off school we could arrange something, maybe your family and i have dinner somewhere go out for dinner or something.
to be honest it is still odd seeing my name written like that. I am glad you like the picture. she is doing well and growing fast though she does scream the place down at night if she doesn't get a feed hence why i am up at 2am. I may have to take you up on contacting your mum. at the moment I am getting help from my adopted mum who is being fantastic but a little advice can always be useful. thank you. and you don't need to worry about reciprocating my help. It is what i do. i am not looking for anything back.
I am glad you had a good break. I am not quite sure where Korea is or maybe it is just the early hour. either way it sounds like a good holiday. Tarot cards I have never had any love of the craft. and though the professor was a freaky. but she was who was going to adopt willow and who told me when she was going to be arriving she was right and although she didn't get willow ii ma glad she volunteered for it.
Anyway I am tired and going to send this before getting a little more sleep.
Briar

she took the letter folded it and whistled her falcon who was hunting and arrived slightly grumpy. she attached the letter to his leg. "now this is to go to the school but it isn't for Minoas. it is for Razel. he is on the blue table and a werewolf like me" she told him. the bird blinked understanding before taking off into the night