Bumming Out

[Dymetris Kozlov]

Dymetris felt clueless these days. He thought he would always be the guy to have everything under control and that nothing could effect him. He thought he could do whatever he wanted and not think of the consequences, he thought of plenty of other stuff. What he didn't realize was that he was not invisible, nor was he incredible, nor was he any better than anyone else. Dymetris these days stayed away from the hufflepuff common room and went anywhere that less occupants inside the room. He carried his set of drum pads and stick inside a charm bag so he didn't look as if was carrying a big load of stuff around. Where there was less noise, Dymetris stayed about.

Today he was in the students lounge room. He couldn't press the last time he was here, either way he was okay as long as no one else didn't mind his pad drumming. The room was scarce, everyone else must've been studying or escaping to the outdoors. Dymetris sat in one of the maroon chairs and took out his set of pads along with his sticks. He set them up along the table and started to drum on the pads. Whatever he did just to relieve a little stress he was okay with it. Talk about hiding from the truth, lame.

 

[Kate Archer]

Kate had finished classes for the day and she had changed in to more comfortable clothes.Today hadn't been too bad,a few whispers and nicknames and looks but other then that,everything was grand.The sleeping pills were really helping and she had regained a lot of the color she had lost and her face was looking much more healthy.She was quite tired all the times but not half as bad as she used to be.The head aches were just the same but she had had them for so long they were almost a constant back round noise that she hadn't gotten used to.Even the pain seemed to have duller because she had had it for so long.Painkillers played their part too but she didn't like to take too much of them in case there was side affects.Now that she was thinking rational about the magazine she wondered had some of the stories been true.Here's in a way had been true except for the fake part and Stefan's had been true as well as had the quidditch part but the way the writer had put it had been cruel and the fact that they had written about it in magazine was even worse.She stopped herself thinking about it because she had a feeling she knew who had written it but she didn't want to admit it because she had trusted them and they had been so nice at the time but she was confused at the moment.She decided not to think about it too much or she was just going to make her head ache worse

She tended to avoid places which had a lot of people in it so the common room and the great hall was a no go for her.She contemplated going outside but she had spent a lot of time outside there already.She finally decided on the student lounge.She made her way to it and when she entered there was only one person in there.She recognized him from around the school and from Tara's party.There had been an artical on him in the magazine and like all the other people it didn't shine a nice light on him.He seemed to have a pad drum kit in front of him.He had seemed to be relieving stress as he played them and Kate stood there waiting for him to be finished "Feel better?"She asked smiling and walking over and sitting in the chair opposite him.

 

[Dymetris Kozlov]

Totally engrossed to his playing, Dymetris did not hear Kate at first come inside the room. It was her fading shadow along the wall alerted the boy of someone entering the room he was in. He didn't stop to play. Dymetris kept the drumming going for he was a drumming a way old song he use to sing back in Russia. When Dymetris ended the song he slam on the pad one last time and drop the sticks besides him. He had got into it and Kate watching him play boost his confident level towards the end. Dymetris was done, he looked up at Kate and smile. "A little, I have no reason to be sad should I?" he asked his fellow Hufflepuff, he guessed she believe the stories about him and the two girls he was involved with. Kate was nice to ask him if he was alright, any other girl would probably hate Dymetris right now that's if they believed what was written. Knowing the mind of young teens these days, they will believe anything they read.

"The real question is are you okay and how come you didn't tell us co-captains what was up?" her conditions sounded serious, he didn't want to believe that she was sick like the magazine had tainted her name, but he checked in with a few close friends. Kate had something, something they were to iffy to disclosure. As team captain (co-captain) he would like to be aware of her conditions ahead of time before hand. Who knew what else could had happen, besides Briar Rowan broken nose. "If you want to say anything that is..." he added, a light smile caressed his face. He was totally bum and couldn't hide that well. Yes he smiled, though he wished now he could say something to make this feeling go away. He still need to confront Cosette, that was the worst part. She hasn't said anything to him at all.

 

[Kate Archer]

Kate listened to Dymetris playing,he was good at the drums.She never knew he could play though not a lot of people knew she could play the violin either.Most people didn't tell everyone their talents.It was nice to keep things private or maybe people just didn't ask and you never felt the need to tell anyone.He gave a rather spectacular ending.She wondered should she take up the drums,she could take her stress out of them instead of it all building to her having a panic attack.She made a mental note to tell her parents when she went home for the holidays.She hoped that everything would go okay with the operation.She wanted to have it so badly so all of this could be over but she was still scared.Not much people got this disease,so the amount of operations done were very few.She was putting her life in the doctors hands,but some people did that most days and for much more serious conditions so Kate should be counting herself lucky. "There's nearly always something"She said simply.She wasn't sure whether she believed what was written in the magazine,she wasn't going to start accusing him of anything.If the what was said in the magazine was true then he had made a pretty stupid mistake but Kate didn't think he had just done it for nothing.She wasn't saying it was right but there is a reason for something and he would have to face the consequences of his actions and Kate wasn't going to give out to him.

Kate looked down at her hands,when he talked again.She guessed she should of been expecting that.She wasn't sure whether she wanted to talk about it.She hadn't told him what was wrong with her because she had badly wanted to play the game and she wasn't going to let her being sic get in the way.She had done her best before hand.She had eaten as much food as she good,she had been taking the sleeping pills two weeks before hand so she would be at her freshest and she had taken to the stuff to help calm down her heart rate.She had taken all the necessary precautions.In the end they had paid off because nothing to serious had happened.She had gotten a bad head ache but that had been no biggie.She constantly went through the day with a head ache and a quidditch match wasn't going to be any different.She was silent for a long time.She heard him talk the second time but she didn't say anything.She was thinking,thinking of what she was going to say. "Well I am sick,what I have is called Phaeochromocytoma"She said,she was able to pronounce the word now. "I have a tumor in my adrenaline glands,which means there is too much adrenaline flowing through my body so it makes my heart-rate go really fast,which makes it hard to sleep because I'm always full of false energy.It causes panic attacks because my body thinks I'm having a heart attack"She said looking off into the distance "Other affects are vomiting,head aches.That's why I'm so thin because most things I eat come back up and there is always a head ache resounding through my head"She said sadly "It wasn't that bad during the quidditch match,that's why I didn't tell the co-captions and plus I wanted t prove to myself that I could still do things I like to do with out vomiting or having a panic attack half ways through"She said smiling sadly.

 

[Dymetris Kozlov]

Dymetris nodded, she was right. There was always something happening, weather it was relationship problems or his uncle getting in the way of running his own life. He would often hate his uncle for trying too, always wanting him to back off a little so he could breathe on his own. He saw though, what his uncle was trying to do for Dymetris. He wanted Dymetris not to make any mistakes, so he didn't have to feel like he regretted anything when he got older. How was he suppose to learn if he didn't make mistakes? That's part of life and it should be apart of everything else. No one was flawless, one of many lessons he was learning right now. And he can't help but to be bad around Faxen, if she was wrong for him then he never wanted to be right. Perhaps there was more to lust then he was feeling and Cosette, Cosette was just that damn sweet. This is the reason for mistakes and to learn from it, he will learn eventually what he's doing is wrong. He picked up his sticks and grip them tight in the palm of his hand. They make him want to beat on some drum sets, his pads will do. He twirled them in hand, but he didn't beat. He kept twirling and gripping on his sticks, he will have to buy a set of drum in the near future to release more stresses and urges to beat down on something like drums.

"I have never heard of such a thing or word, but so it's true? I'm sorry to hear that Kate" he frown. To be honest he was please to hear and that she had told him. it meant she would trust him enough with such information and it also mean there was no complication between because of his ex-girlfriend Tara. Dymetris now and days, stayed away from her, he had a few reason to keep away and wanted to keep it that way. Otherwise she was still a friend. "Is there anything magical that could be done? There has to be a way to help you, but taking that risk was a bit foolish of you. You could have gotten hurt" he pursed his lip tight together. Kate was reckless, and if would he would cut her out of the line up next year. However he hate for someone else to be hating him for stopping her in doing a thing she loved. And let's face it, Kate played well she was one of his best chasers in Hufflepuff. He bit back his tongue from saying anymore, he lost his train of thoughts he was just worried for her. She was a fellow puff and team player, what are captains for not to worry?!

 

[Kate Archer]

Kate knew from experience that there was nearly always something that just got in the way of your happiness.Sure there can be really good things going on in your life but suddenly something comes crashing down and just crushes your happiness like a bug.That wasn't the case for everyone but most people went through a faze of stress,worry or pain.It was the type of world everyone lived in.The bad things sometimes were more then the good things.Sure more the half the world's populations were starving,had no homes or water.Not much people knew about those things they were more inclined to be stressed or worried about their own lives.Then there were the people like you parents who tried to stop you from doing something stupid.Or maybe they just didn't want you to make their own mistakes.It was annoying when your parents tried to be over protective.Ever since second year her parents had been watching her more carefully and now that she was sick,they were ten times worse.They had all her siblings watching her and making sure she didn't get killed.It was really annoying and she wish they would just leave her along.She knew they were only trying to protect her but by now they had really gone to far.

Kate shrugged her shoulders,she appreciated him saying that.At least he believed her,not like some people who agreed with the writer of the magazine.Honestly she didn't even know where they got the idea that she had a fake disease.Why would she even go to the effort?Some people were so small minded.Kate knew he was right.It had been stupid but Kate was reckless,it was a trait that was only recently starting to show.She hoped he didn't take her off the team,there would be no reason she wouldn't be healthy next year "There is nothing magic can do but I'm getting a operation in June that will take out the tumor.It's a risky procedure but I'm taking the odds"She said her voice firm.In truth she was scared that something would go wrong but she had to trust the doctors.At this point they were her only hope.

 

[Dymetris Kozlov]

Dymetris listen. He realized sometimes he sounded someone that wasn't his age, caring about others and acting like he was older. He would think it was the Hufflepuff in him to be nice to others and care as much as he did. Dymetris nodded, he like the sound of her getting it taken care of. Dymetris did not know how it felt like to be Kate, he would think no one did. Kate was brave to be fighting this, she was much more stronger then he thought. Dymetris will admit it to himself, before he thought Kate was just another girl. Dymetris had made Tara to be like that, though with Kate he saw something different. Dymetris admired what he saw in her, he like to see girls being able to handle so much at such a young age.it reminds him of the herons in his life, both his mum had been strong for a long time. If he hadn't known, he sweared one of them could have been a Gryffindor during their Hogwarts years.

"That's good your taking care of it, I don't want to lose you as teammate" what he was thinking for his seventh year was to give her least a year of being co-captain with him once Robbie graduated. He didn't say anything yet about it to anyone, Robbie didn't even know about it. But the choice was obvious and Kate has been constants throughout the year. Dymetris kept smiling, however his eyes moved away from Kate. Dymetris was deep in thoughts, he shared a few minutes of silence before he spoke again. "Have you ever played with drum sticks?" he put his own personal set down and grabbed his bag. He took out another set, he was bored so why not teach someone how to play on pads? Besides his mind was less likely to think of his own trouble when he was busy teaching someone something new. He handed the set over, "It's boring so why not do something worth while?" he shrug at his question slash statement, he hadn't the mind to think anyways, he was busy trying to convince someone to play on pads.

 

[Kate Archer]

Kate didn't like to admit it to anyone but she was scared.This operation had only been done a handful of times and she was terrified something would go wrong.She hadn't talked about it with her parents,she knew they wanted to but she didn't like talking about it.she knew they were scared too as was most of her family but it was the only way she could get better.There was the possibility of staying on medicine for the rest of her life but Kate preferred the idea of getting rid of it all together.She didn't like the idea of being stuck n intensive care for three to four weeks after the operation.She didn't like hospitals in general,anywhere were death was frequent she didn't like going.There was always a horrible sense of sadness.Hospitals also smelled of disinfectant,which wasn't pleasant.She could never cope being stuck in there all the time.She did appreciate the fact that her family were being supportive,even though she didn't deserve it because she was always moody when she came home.Still she did appreciate them even though they might not know that at the moment.

Kate smiled "Thanks"She said.She went to her own thoughts during the silence.She really wanted everything to be over.She wanted it to be august because she should be fine in August.Everything should be over,she should be back to her normal,self.She had never been as healthy as she had been in first year since second year.She had almost been on track with her weight when she had got sick.Wonderful timing really.Kate snapped out of her thoughts when Dymetris talked again. Kate had once or twice before played the drums.The fact that she played piano made playing the drums easier but she had never really been interested in learning how to play properly "Once or twice"She said curiously.Kate soon found out what he had in mind.This should be interesting she thought when genuine interest. She hoped it wasn't too loud because loud noises tended to set off major head aches. "Sure"She said taking the set

 

[Dymetris Kozlov]

Dymetris set out the pads in front of her. He had a set of four of them, he will be drumming into two, Kate will have the other two. His mood was starting to change now he was getting into something he like and with someone he least expected to share an afternoon with. He liked that. Dymetris wanting to get to know Kate more and not just her. Dymetris wanted to know the rest of his teammates more. They all deserve that opportunity, he thought with them why not? It be nice, he have a better understanding of Kate and the rest of them. He would build more people skills he so desperately needed right now. Picking his own set of sticks, he rounded the tip on top of one of the pads.

"Okay this is quite easy, It's not that complicated at all" he started to tap on the drum sticks first with one set of sticks then the second one joined right in tune with the first one. He batted on one set of pads then moved on to the second one, he repeated the tune. Dymetris was no good with drums, he actually sucked with instruments. Pads were easy, pads muted sounds and it all sounded like you were typing on muggels keyboard but perhaps a little louder. He finished his little pratice with a little slam of his sticks. He did much lighter then the last. "It's something to past the time, you don't really have to do it" he shrug smiling. It avoided his own troubles and it kept Kate around since he was alone and had really no other friends to talk too. Man was he sad.

 

[Kate Archer]

Kate looked at the pads in front of her.Kate had never expected to be playing pads or even to be spending the afternoon with Dymetris.The afternoon had turned out better then she had originally thought.She was still a bit annoyed and angry at the fact that she had been accused of a liar and a drama queen,they were the sort of things you could get over easily.Her head was starting to hurt again and she just wished again like always that she could just be healthy and normal.She wanted to not have to worry about her own health ad everyone else.She picked up the pair of sticks and got ready


She watched Dymetris.It didn't look to hard but she would obviously have to try a few times before she got it right. "No I'll have a go"She said.She started with the simple one that he had begun with.That one was easy and she got it perfectly.Playing the piano helped her co-ordination with her hands.She couldn't remember the other ones "How did the rest of it go?"She asked,repeating the first section so she was certain she could play it.

 

[Dymetris Kozlov]

Dymetris sat watching Kate do exactly what he did on the pads. She looked out of it, hopelessly zone out at first. He wonder if he should even bother teaching her anything. He was beginning to feel lazy minded anyways, when he felt like he was not in the mood for doing anything he would just stop and listen rather than continue doing what he was doing. "No it's alright, don't bother. I'm just not in the mood to doing anymore" he said with a shrug. He felt sorry about starting something but he was too bum to continue anyways. The gossip magazine was here to blame for his moods swings,if there was some way he could rebuke this nonsense he would do it ASAP. To bad he couldn't rewind back time, now he felt like he's lost both girls. Cosette read the stories, she must've believed it or else why were they so distant now? Faxen, he's been avoiding talking too since the magazine broke out.

'I guess I should be going. Sorry Kate" he stuff his bags of his sticks. He move to take the pads too from the table, instead he fell back onto the couch. Who was he kidding? He couldn't go back there, least not now. He would hate to go back to the Hufflepuff common room and see Cosette's face, she would hate to see him now. Dymetris was sure of it, he sighed shaking his head. He had no one but to blame himself, and he felt really awful too.

 

[Kate Archer]

Kate made a mental note to ask her parents to get her the pads,she liked them and they might help her get rid of some of the anger she felt some days.She yawned and covered her mouth with her hand.She sank into the cozy couch and closed her eyes,she wished she could just fall asleep but due to her certain circumstances she couldn't do that,plus once she got comfy all she would be able to hear would be here heart beat beating like the wings of a trapped bird.The fact that when she tried to go to sleep she felt like she had drank about five cups of coffee didn't help either.So really sleep was something that she wasn't close to at all.

She looked over at Dymetris.He looked really sad and depressed,she didn't blame him she certainly never wanted to be in his position.She watched as he got ready to go but sat back down.She bit her lip,she felt bad for him and she wanted to help but there wasn't anything she could do.It's not like she could go back in town.It was all the stupid writers fault for putting everyone's secrets out in the open.It had been none of their business and if she ever found out who it was,she would make them pay.Of course Dymetris shouldn't have been dating two girls."Why did you do it?"She asked suddenly,it wasn't really her place to ask but she really didn't understand it because he didn't seem like that sort of person."You don't have to tell me"she added

 

[Dymetris Kozlov]

In between of deciding to go or stay, Dymetris heard her asked why, it's a questions no one has yet dared asked him. Everyone around had kept quiet, Kate was bold. Kate was also not Dymetris's friend, she was in Tara's circle of friend. The last thing he would want was to involved his ex girlfriend, the one he disliked now. His reason for disliking her were still unknown, it's like his uncle decision of their relationship had put him in a place were he blamed her a little for what happen. It was not fair to her, and he felt bad for thinking that way about Tara. Sometimes though you had to be selfish and pity no one at times. He learn that from Lukyan, he understood slowly over the years how his uncle felt about others, he was getting to the point where he was siding more and more with each day, as the days go on Dymetris was being his uncle.

"I don't know, I ah just didn't feel the same anymore" he said shaking his head a little, he lowered his gaze and held his head between his arms that now were resting on his lap. "The other girl is my best friend, she knew me before the one I was with, It just happen. I did it wrong.." he wouldn't believe it, if he didn't recognize his voice he wouldn't believe he was actually telling Kate. He rubbed his face, touched his temple to calm his nerves a little. Everything felt a lot worst when you were feeling crappy, he felt like that now. Dymetris rubbed his temple some to sooth his throbbing nerves.

 

[Kate Archer]

Kate knew the question had definitely been a dodgy one.She didn't even know if anyone else had asked him and she wasn't that close of a friend,they had only spoken once or twice.But sh wanted to understand why.She always needed to know why,why did this work,why does this do this.She was almost never satisfied until she was told why.That was the fault of her curiousness.If she had done gone to muggle secondary school and studied science she probably would of been a pain in the teachers @ss because she would always ask why.

To be honest,Kate was surprised he answered,she had really been sure he would have.Kate bit her lip.He had gone about it the wrong way,he should have told Cosette how he had felt but that would of been hard.From the one meeting she had with her,she seemed pretty fragile but very nice."Sometimes these things just happen,but the best thing is to confront her,get it over and done with"She said it was the best advice she could give and he didn't even need to take heed to it. "It's gonna be hard but it will be worse if you don't do it soon"She said.

 

[Dymetris Kozlov]

Dymetris shook his head, he had to disagree with Kate. on the count Cosette didn't want to talk to him anymore. "I think it's to late for me, she doesn't talk to me. She doesn't say anything to me" he shrug. Truthfully he was annoyed with her too, when he tried talking she just never said anything to him. "I'm thinking it's over and I've messed it up with her. I am sorry for what I've done but I'm not sorry for the way I feel. I know seems intensive me I know I look like a jerk, but I can't help how I felt about my friend" he said rather shaky. These damn emotions were getting the best of him, he could not contain them anymore in his little own glass ball he secretly kept inside. Course the glass ball didn't exist and these emotions will never go away. He guessed she was somewhat right, but something inside just say fawk it, it's not going to work and that it was over.

"I really should go, I'm tired anyways" he stood up and grab his bag again. Thanks for the advice, I'll consider it thoughtfully. And don't count on that even when I say I will" he said shaking his head. "Good luck with your surgery Kate, I really want you back on the team next year" he said on a lighter note, when he was done talking he left the room heading to his dormitory to sleep off the rest of this bad feeling away. What else did he have to do?

 

[Kate Archer]

Kate smiled,but it was a sad smile "Give her time,she is going through a tough time and she needs time to forgive"Kate said.Cosette was probably going to take a while to get over the betrayal.It isn't something that you can get over in a few weeks,a girls heart stays broken for while and the best she could do was spend a lot of time with her friends or who ever and eventually she would forgive.Kate didn't expect him to feel sorry for the way he felt,not like he could help it.He could of just dealt with it better. "I don't expect you too"She said

Kate nodded "See ya around"She said smiling. Kate nodded again,she would be a very much changed person when she saw him next.She wasn't sure how this would affect her mentally,she hoped nothing to serious.Kate smiled "Thanks"She said before watching him go.in a few days she would be on an operating table and that wasn't a nice thought.She had never once had to have an operation in her life and now she was getting a very serious one.Oh well,it would all be for the better.With that she left the room and headed outside