Chrys was... uncertain. Which wasn't the usual kind of feeling he dealt with. He'd been feeling increasingly more disillusioned and unsure though as the weeks wore on. After what had happened with Onyx last year and subsequently Sapphire, he'd realised some things, or rather, he was starting to try and understand some things about himself. He definitely felt sexual attraction for people, there was absolutely no disputing that, but, some other things didn't seem to be working in his brain. He'd told people he loved them before, but, he had begun to wonder how much of that he actually felt and how much of it was just words. Yes, he missed people when they were gone, but, the whole physical affection aspect of a relationship just wasn't right for him. He had no desire for anything romantic from what he could tell and he didn't know what that meant. He'd started to get to know himself more, but that had to take a back seat now as he tried to learn more about what he was going to do in his future. Being friends with Elsie meant he'd seen her work incredibly hard for an uncertain future. Chrys had always though that working for something like that was stupid, because you just didn't know what was going to happen and it could have all ended up in the trash heap in the end. Yet, still, despite knowing that everyone he knew, Elsie, Rowan, Marco, Elio, Zennon, Abian, Alice, they all were actually trying to make something of themselves and Chrys had nothing to his name. Nothing but his looks and though he knew they'd get him pretty far in life, he needed something more, there was a void he couldn't explain and he needed to fill it with something. Anything. Hearing about Elsie in the holidays and then Onyx, well, Chrys knew he had to do something and he thought speaking to Sapphire was the first step. He couldn't say if he was ready to apologise, because he stood by what he'd said last year, but, he knew it wasn't right to pretend she didn't exist. He liked Sapphire once, and he still did, despite everything. "I wasn't sure I was going to, to be honest," Chrys said as he stepped into the tower, walking across the floor and leaning against the wall beside her, foot against the wall as he leaned back into it. "Almost talked myself into turning right back around."